Out Of Arehab For 3 Days And I Think Already Using

Well.... I picked up Zach Friday and had a great weekend with family. I headed back to Austin yesterday and he headed to the Sober living. I was hopeful but he called me at 11:45 ... I was sleeping and also called about 2:00 am.... I was still sleeping. What sober person would call at that time??? Already getting nervous!!
The uber account was used 4 times and he's not even working. 1 time was 45.00$
I'm closing that account and he can get a bike.... Figure it out!
Now he's not replying to my text. I didn't sleep and now I'm a nervous wreck.. Ok... Time to sit back and get out of the addiction. Not a good day!
Good call P....and...I'm sorry we cause the ones who love us so much fear...detach for just an hour if that's all you can manage ...take care of yourself. ..
Hey Con
I'm trying ??? How are you?
Well I just found out from the time I left yesterday ... 4 hours to the sober living-he couldn't pass their drug test so not sure where he slept last night. I refused to answer his calls or call him back last night (like I use to)
The house manger told me what happened but I'm not even going to tell him I know.
He contacted his cousin to stay with her a few days but she contacted me and I told her what's up. It's hard but I have to step aside. Explains why I was sick at my stomach, not sleeping and my hands was shaking. I have to take care of me even though this hurts!
Con-- I'm always keeping you in my prayers
Hugs
Paula
Paula:
Are you attending the meetings in your area?
Hey Papa
Yes thanks to you
I started 3 weeks ago. I just sent my son this message...

Zach
When you really truly want help ...
Call Victor at (***) ***-**** and he will try to help or the Wheelhouse
I'll pray for you and please know I love you.

This is going to be hard but I know I have to be strong. Breaks my heart!
So yes, I will be going to my meeting tomorrow and also on here
Please pray
Thanks so much
Paula
Great:

All prayers are answered - often not the way we expected or wanted.
Try to remember and apply The Serenity Prayer.

https://www.verywell.com/key-to-serenity-63779

Prayers

Bob