I am 43 and have been drinking since I was 10. I dont know how to stop, I have quit several times, but always go back to it. Sometimes I can drink a few, sometimes I get really wasted. Lately I have been getting way out of control and violent. I have attacked several friends and dont remember doing it. And apparently it is for minor things that they do to make me mad. I go into rages and can't stop myself. Does anyone know if this is a sign of progressive alcoholism? Or if I'm just really going crazy. I take seizure meds and anti-depressants also, I've been diagnosed as having bipolar type II. I only get violent towards men though. This is embarassing for me and I feel very ashamed, I wonder if I should go into rehab or something. I'm afraid that I will really hurt someone or get myself into trouble and end up getting hurt,
Hi,
That sounds horrible but I can relate. Read Scary hospital stay. I almost killed myself while I was drinking and don't remember a thing. While I am sober I don't ever think of killing myself. Maybe you should try going to rehab - it's not going to make you any worse. They might be able to help you figure out why you are so angry. You can do it! It gets easier every day. The first step is admitting you need some help.
I am thinking about you.
That sounds horrible but I can relate. Read Scary hospital stay. I almost killed myself while I was drinking and don't remember a thing. While I am sober I don't ever think of killing myself. Maybe you should try going to rehab - it's not going to make you any worse. They might be able to help you figure out why you are so angry. You can do it! It gets easier every day. The first step is admitting you need some help.
I am thinking about you.
Having blackouts is a sure sign you have an addiction,adding the pills its a wonder your alive. Remember,if you think you have an addiction,you most likely do..I went to rehab and have been clean for 5 years. It took many a night of not remembering a thing. I lost everything ,my baby my fiance[the LOVE of my life my family. Dont wait..
sorry to hear you are having such a hard time.I also suffer from bipolar affective disorder, and recognised I was an alcoholic years ago.I am recently discharged from a psychiatric hospital after a five month stay due to my drinking/depression.I'm no expert, but I have been through rehab/therapy and hospitalisation in the past, and have come to my own very basic theories. I love alcohol and miss it very much.I know that when I am feeling depressed it will make me feel immediatly better.I do feel a sense of loss.I do understand that I suffer depression, and that I use alcohol as a crutch.
However, rehab isnt for everybody, and is no magic cure.Before you check in,think about what your drinking to escape from, and how todeal with the real underlying problem.Please dont think i am talking psychobabble,Im just someone who has realised that my addiction is also my protective armour, and that the real issues lie beneath.
On a posotive note to sign off, I am now working on the real underlying reasons for my deppression. I am also able do voluntary work with dual diagnosis patients at my old hospital. It is 6 months since I drank and yes, I miss it still in a big way, but thats ok.I wish you all the very best with your issues, and whatever you decide,GOOD LUCK
However, rehab isnt for everybody, and is no magic cure.Before you check in,think about what your drinking to escape from, and how todeal with the real underlying problem.Please dont think i am talking psychobabble,Im just someone who has realised that my addiction is also my protective armour, and that the real issues lie beneath.
On a posotive note to sign off, I am now working on the real underlying reasons for my deppression. I am also able do voluntary work with dual diagnosis patients at my old hospital. It is 6 months since I drank and yes, I miss it still in a big way, but thats ok.I wish you all the very best with your issues, and whatever you decide,GOOD LUCK
I have 18 alcohol detox, 6 in paitent and none of them worked AA does work!
Do not go there for the wrong reasons. You must admit that you cannot, or will not stop without help. AA does not descriminate or judge you of what you and I are.
Do not go there for the wrong reasons. You must admit that you cannot, or will not stop without help. AA does not descriminate or judge you of what you and I are.
I don't know if your behaviour is a sign of "progressive alcoholism" but it is surely a sign that you are an alcoholic. period. Plus you say you have blackouts. That's another indication of alcoholism. You need to get yourself into treatment or, at least attend some AA meetings. The alcohol has gotten the better of you and you are not in control anymore. You also need to do some very honest, internal thinking about what is really depressing you.
Whatever you end up doing, my warmest wishes and prayers are with you.
Hugs,
Lisa V.
Whatever you end up doing, my warmest wishes and prayers are with you.
Hugs,
Lisa V.
