49 years old. 2 kids wife house,this is so hard .cant type through the tears.smoked since14 .lots of anger didnt think it had anything to do with pot till i fond this site ,still dont no if it does.stopped for 2 wks.missed out on a lot cant think about it .feel like i owe them so much.we have split up .getting on with whats left.i put this drug ahead of everybody, includeing myself .we have bought houses 3 blocks away from each other ,feel i cant even protect them ,not under same roof .people blame my wife they dont no the have of it,for us breaking up that is.cant sleep, body is on fire. dreams that im haveing,never had before.didnt dream before i stopped. sorry for spelling.got to go.try two sleep.cant type as fast as i would like two.have two learn i guess if i want to talk through these posts.later birds are up which means its time to go to work. later thanks for space.
Mase, the first step is admitting that you have a problem. The next step is doing something about it. By the time I reached my bottom, I had become sufficiently familiar twith concepts of addiction to understand that 12 step programs offer the most viable approach to kicking any addiction, be it pot, alcohol or heroin. I have been sober for 15 years and would not have made it 15 days without AA.
Lots of people will tell you there are other ways to quit. It is rare that any of these people ever see six seeks sober, much less 6 months.
The next step for you is to ask yourself how far are you really williing to go to learn to live the rest of your short life drug free?
I am 48 years old, and I will tell you that by the time we reach 50 our odds of making sustained changes in our lives begins to diminish. We become "set in our ways," as my grandmother used to say. You may have a rare chance here to salvage your life. The question is, are you really willing to surrender your sense of control and give it a try?
You can read all about my story on various threads on this site. Feel free to ask questions. I will tell you straight up that if you think you can get clean by simply reading abut addiction in front of a computer screen, you are sadly mistaken. It is going to take a greater effort and a greater commitment than that.
Good luck.
August
Lots of people will tell you there are other ways to quit. It is rare that any of these people ever see six seeks sober, much less 6 months.
The next step for you is to ask yourself how far are you really williing to go to learn to live the rest of your short life drug free?
I am 48 years old, and I will tell you that by the time we reach 50 our odds of making sustained changes in our lives begins to diminish. We become "set in our ways," as my grandmother used to say. You may have a rare chance here to salvage your life. The question is, are you really willing to surrender your sense of control and give it a try?
You can read all about my story on various threads on this site. Feel free to ask questions. I will tell you straight up that if you think you can get clean by simply reading abut addiction in front of a computer screen, you are sadly mistaken. It is going to take a greater effort and a greater commitment than that.
Good luck.
August
August i want my live back and my wife.i dont no if it is possable.but i am willing to fight for it.have not smoked in 5 weeks,my emotions are running wild no sleep. work is so far all right.lots of energy their but other things are at play.wife found some one to talk to on a holliday and now has feelings for him hes in bermuda.shes going back in 3 wks.have told her father the truth about my addiction.what i dont understand is how to get on with my live and not let her feeling get in the way of mine.we talk like never before things are so much clearer but i dont no if im seeing things right .i no what hell i put her through and pushed her to do things that she wouldnt have done.i have these feelings of guilt,letting down my family ,missing out on our lifes and i no thats wear shes at.i cant type fast enough or spell , but im trying .moveing to new house this wk .my wife found a house with my help 4 blocks away. good for the kids.14 an15 yrs old.she needs my help ,but its getting harder all the time to help.because i think things will change.but inside i no that might not be possible, want to shut her out, but no that is not right.we split up after she got back so things have been comeing pretty fast.with her going back to visit her brother and new friend.its been difficult the moveing and my addiction. feels good to talk with her, but starting to feel just today that i should be talking to aa or something.i have nobody to talk to.have always been thier for my kids.just feel really f***ed up ,but deserve it.got to go MARK
