I posted a note that I was in trouble, but no one responded. Each hour I come closer to taking my life. If you think this is just an enpty threat, it isn't. The first time I attempted suicide was when I was 14, since then I have been hospitalzed for suicide attempts at least 20 times. On my last attempt, neither my husband or the doctors believed that I had taken 90 xanex and thought it was just another attempt for attention.
Let me telll you that no matter how sincere you are about taking your life, there is always someone to intercede and foil your attempts. I have been to a motel and hung the "do not disturb" sign outside my door. Someone comes when they not supposed to. I have been found in a rock bed by a dog and was unconscious. I swelled up twice my size, but they thought I was just another drunk. That time I bashed out my front teeth. Sometimes the body is overtakin by your brain and you're found wandering around the neighborhood with no clue where you are. They call the police. It is not easy to end your life. Someone always interferes, no matter how much you want to end your life.
I have a good husband. It would destroy him if I ended my life.
Things haven't worked out for me before. Now I have a new plan. Would someone be kind enough to tell me if 100 pills, 300 mg., of Welbutrin will end my life if I take them all at once? I would be so grateful for a reply.
There is no one to hear me. I have a second plan. Most of you don't know what macrame is (probably spelled wrong), but it's the art of knot tying. The one thing I remember about the craft is the hangman's noose. I would prefer to take my life with Wellbutrin, but either way would work.
Why are there so many people out there who cannot even offer me hope. How many people read this, probably none?
I am clinging to life by my fingernails. I only want my life to end. Please show me the way to end my life. I will be forever grateful. There is no hope for me, or any program. I've been through that. I take enough antidepressants to perk-up the pope.
I have been clean from amphetamines for two years now, and my life ended when I took my last pill. I don't want your sympathy, only to know how I can end my life. I have lots of pills. For some, the craving never fleaves for amphetamines, It never goes away. I spend most of my day looking at the television. There is nothing I do that brings me joy or satisfaction.
You don't have to answer. I know my future.
I have found the Salvation Army to be very helpful and non-judgmental. There is also an intervention girl named Donna at 1-322-658-5196 or 1-800-905-7655. The internet has any number of addiction recovery sites that can be helpful. My present situation with my daughter has gotten about as desperate as it can get. I am about to call the police because I CANNOT take what's going on here. I am scurrying like mad to keep up appearances; my husband is quite a bit older than myself and quite frail and I CANNOT have him find out what's going on here. But none of this works unless you commit to being helped. You have to make the move - there's a lot of good help out there - good luck...XXX OOO
This is to Julianne I have just read this site and hope that your okay I know that things can get pretty bad but taking your life won;t help think about your fammily and how they would feel I have never tried to commit suicide but I think that I was trying to kill myself with my addiction to H. and to girl; everyday I thhink about what I have done and I have to live with that but I know that life is worth living and it is worth living for you to I have had alot of friends die and when someone is gone they can,t be brought back so i hope that your okay and if you need someone to talk to i am usually around I just found this sitr about 2 days ago or I would have responded when you posted . ANGELL
Julianne, please post...I hope you are still around, it seems like you're one of the few that like me find no pleasure in this sober life style. I just want stop having the desire that makes my life hell if I give into it. I don't want to lose my family, job, etc. but what is the point to it all if you are ALWAYS miserable, desiring the one thing that could make you lose everything! I think about meth every day, how it would enhance my state of being. But then I remember the awful lows I felt after a binge and no matter how hard I tried (or how much I snorted) I couldn't get that high back. I have been in and out of the hospital since I was a teenager for suicide attempts. I wish someone could tell me that if i just wait it out and stay clean it will get better, because everyday i think about going back, and if i go back...i know i just want to o.d. and not have to go through the lows after the meth is gone.
Anyone with advice, please reply
Anyone with advice, please reply
hello,
i'm 14 & i just came onto this site to find out stuff about P cuz i think my mums on it. i stumbled across your post and it honestly made me cry, my soccer coach once told me that evrything will get better it may take a while but it will. please try 2 remember that-my prayers r with u
Hailey A
i'm 14 & i just came onto this site to find out stuff about P cuz i think my mums on it. i stumbled across your post and it honestly made me cry, my soccer coach once told me that evrything will get better it may take a while but it will. please try 2 remember that-my prayers r with u
Hailey A
