Hey! I just wanna share my story with everyone about my addiction and I hope that it will help in some way. If I change one person's life, I'm happy. Ok, when I was 5 or 6 my parents started doing drugs: heroin, cocaine, anything they could get. So me and my brother had to move in with my grandmother. She was a wonderful woman and took very good care of us. Despite all the love and support that I got from her, however, I was still so sad that my parents didn't love me and my brother enough to change their lifestyle so we could be a family again. Well, my mom disappeared and we haven't seen or heard from her since 1992. My dad died of HIV when I was 14 and then my grandmother died when I was 15. So basically, I grew up very fast and had a lot of responsibilities for someone my age. I thought I was strong and could get through anything. Apparantly not. Because when I was 14 my doctor prescribed me lortab for my severe headaches, and from there it went to percocet and then from there it went to oxycontin. I've been taking 10-15 80mg oxy's a day and 10-15 2mg xanax a day for about 3-4 years. I started stripping to support my habit, which took time away from my daughter and fiance cause I was having to work 7 days a week just to support a $750 a day habit. I decided to stop the xanax and had a seizure in my car and wrecked. God willing, my daughter wasn't with me and no one got hurt but me. That was my rock bottom. I thank God for me being alive right now. So I went and talked to my dr and he gave me Suboxone and Clonapin. Excellent, excellent stuff. If you haven't tried it, talk to your doc. I can't stress that enough. It has completely changed my life for the better. I hope this helps someone. Good luck and be safe everyone!
OXY"S are a killer!!! beyond in my oppinion, thanks for the story!!
Pants
Pants
Thanks for sharing that, hopefully you'll be able to get something out of the board as well.
Are you doing anything in addition to the sub? Any kind of recovery program or counseling?
Hope you stick around.
Are you doing anything in addition to the sub? Any kind of recovery program or counseling?
Hope you stick around.
Thanks for sharing your story. I'm also on sub, 2mgs. I dont even think about using, not even pot, not anymore.
I have heard dreadful stories about coming off sub and have not yet started decreasing. I do worry that I have just replaced my addiction but without all the addict behaviour
Any thoughts on this would be welcome
Wendy
I have heard dreadful stories about coming off sub and have not yet started decreasing. I do worry that I have just replaced my addiction but without all the addict behaviour
Any thoughts on this would be welcome
Wendy
I dont want to sound scary or anything, but I had a terrible time coming off the sub last year. The half life is 38 hours and it takes 7 of them, thats 11 days/ IIm 3 weeks clean now, I went cold turkey this time
Remember with sub LESS is MORE, so please cut cut and cut. I jumped off at .5mg, so just a small piece of the 2 mg, break it in half and shave some off.
Good luck
ps- Klonopin is a benzo, just like xanex u can have seizures, why are u on them?
Night
Remember with sub LESS is MORE, so please cut cut and cut. I jumped off at .5mg, so just a small piece of the 2 mg, break it in half and shave some off.
Good luck
ps- Klonopin is a benzo, just like xanex u can have seizures, why are u on them?
Night
Yep.
I've heard a lot relapse so the w'drwls are so long
Wendy
I've heard a lot relapse so the w'drwls are so long
Wendy
they never end i would never ever do sub or any opiate again
Wow i feel sleep, this is weird, im gonnna try and get it before it goes away
NITE
Wow i feel sleep, this is weird, im gonnna try and get it before it goes away
NITE
Sleep well mate
Wendy
Wendy
karaluv
wow i thought i had it bad in my childhood....
i agree sub is wonderful! it has changed my whole attitude in life and i am not craving or playing my doctor,my liver has gotton a break, i have heard both sides of the story about quitting sub, when its time for me to go off i plan to do it over a real long period of time, very slowly....
keep up the good work and get a sponsor and work the program so we can change our "stinkin thinkin" its not all about just quitting pills, its learning how to live a new way and what we did wrong before. k-9
wow i thought i had it bad in my childhood....
i agree sub is wonderful! it has changed my whole attitude in life and i am not craving or playing my doctor,my liver has gotton a break, i have heard both sides of the story about quitting sub, when its time for me to go off i plan to do it over a real long period of time, very slowly....
keep up the good work and get a sponsor and work the program so we can change our "stinkin thinkin" its not all about just quitting pills, its learning how to live a new way and what we did wrong before. k-9
Yes I realize that clonapin is a benzo, but I'm only taking them so I don't have another seizure. I was taking 40mg a day of xanax and now am only taking .5mg a day of clonapin. Just enough to get me by. I'm afraid of coming off the sub. if what everyone says is true. Is it really bad or is there a way to do it pain free? Any advice would be appreciated.
all i gots to say is wow .
you are a lucky girl. God is certainly looking over you. welcome to the board, we have a nice little family here, i hope you stick around.
stac
you are a lucky girl. God is certainly looking over you. welcome to the board, we have a nice little family here, i hope you stick around.
stac
I agree about the oxys. I've gone from 200mg tid down to 60mg tid and less tomorrow. They have changed my life for the worse. I havent gotten into any trouble etc from them but I'm left only with the shell of the person I used to be.
Thank you for sharing your story.
hugs
bc
Thank you for sharing your story.
hugs
bc
Oxy is heroin in a pill. I went from 10mg as needed to snorting 100 eating 50-100 mg many percs in between the oxy made me so shaky i offset it with 20mg of benzos and alcohol.
without suboxone? well I would be quite dead. tried to go c/t could not do it. taper? no way not me sadly.
I did not take it to get high. I do not even remember 6months of my life.
today i am on serequel and suboxone for pain and doing real well. i am blessed
Jeff
without suboxone? well I would be quite dead. tried to go c/t could not do it. taper? no way not me sadly.
I did not take it to get high. I do not even remember 6months of my life.
today i am on serequel and suboxone for pain and doing real well. i am blessed
Jeff
I am on sub for the 2nd time. 1st time was may 05 was on for @3 months relapsed @ 3 days later..I totally freaked out and IMHO it was because i read to many horror stories @ people haveing a hard time comeing off of it and freaked myself out? so i went to rehab this past may and relapsed @20 hours home and RAN to a new sub dr. I didn't know what the hell else to do? sooo this time i am going to take it nice and slow. i started on 8 mg and am still at 8 (i was perscribed 24mg and knew better due to all the fine people here) good luck...sounds like you have had a real dose of sh*t luck but also some lucky ones too. nice to meet you and i am glad you found this wonderful site. WELCOME
