Wow I just cant shake this. I have not been in so much pain in a long time.
My sister and my nieces and BIL arrived today for a visit to see my dad. He is suffering badly as he is in the worst part of his recovery and will not take any pain meds.
This weather just keeps getting worse. I had to triple my cortisone and now i AM ALL JUICED UP.
I guess I got spoiled. This is the first flair I cant control. I wish I had some morphine.
Rather take that then deal with the prednisone. But I chose the prednisone.
I hate this stuff.
Oh well hopefully this cold front will be the last.
Was supposed to get my girls. This is the first time ever that my kids are not here when there cousins visited.
I made up a story and hopefully I will be better next weekend as my family will be here until next Sunday.
I feel like crap and it gets worse. Pain like this is really hard to describe. Its ugly
Well i am going to ride this out.
Jeff
Take care Jeff
Jeff you will get thru this.I hate that you are having such a hard time.Just saw on the news tonight that it would be in the 20's in Daytona tonight .It is pretty damn cold here in NC now too.I use to have a terrible time when it was cold.Whew I couldnt even get out of bed.Try going back to those hot showers or baths and try to stay as relaxed as possible .I have faith in your recovery,dont doubt yourself.Hell you made it to work today Kudos to you for showing up when you feel so rough.Love ya man,Cris
What I need is a real deep tissue massage. Or a gun.
Chris let me know when you have a e-mail address. How is your knee?
Man i am so happy your back.
Learn anything?
Big Hug--JEFF
Man i am so happy your back.
Learn anything?
Big Hug--JEFF
God is good to the idiots most importantly!!! I sure did learn that.The streets are no place for me these days seriously I dont know how I am still alive some times and you know that crap has NO MERCY on your soul.What can you do? If u r lucky enough to make it back you dust off and start doing the right thing.Back to 90 in 90 for me trying to forget everything I thought I already knew.Thanks Jeff ,missed u too....I had to get a new email address todayt and still have your old one so I'll shoot u an email by the a.m.Alrighty.You just hang in there right now,that weather can make your bones feel like they r about to friggin break especially if the toilet seat is cold haha!! Gotta hate that! Love you though and very humbly back I might add!!!!!! Cris
I am going to get into bed. I look forward to hearing your story.
Talk to you tomorrow--Jeff
Talk to you tomorrow--Jeff
Jeff-I am sorry you're feeling bad.I hope when you wake up this morning you have some relief.
I want to read you something out of my Tao meditation.I hope it helps.
Manure
Manure makes excellent fertilize
Life had ordure
"Everything is only borrowed.The same is true of misfortune,failures,and disappointments of life.If we understand the importance of manure,we understand that nothing is truly wasted.Everything can be useful if correctly applied.Therefore,even the bad things in life may become fertilizer that will help us grow and become strong."
I want to read you something out of my Tao meditation.I hope it helps.
Manure
Manure makes excellent fertilize
Life had ordure
"Everything is only borrowed.The same is true of misfortune,failures,and disappointments of life.If we understand the importance of manure,we understand that nothing is truly wasted.Everything can be useful if correctly applied.Therefore,even the bad things in life may become fertilizer that will help us grow and become strong."
Sorry Jeff....I definitely understand....it sucks and we still have to function anyway.Feel better. Sharonn
Jeff, I hope you have a better day today...Hopefully it will warm up down there for you. I just came in from outside and it is much warmer here today than it has been all week. Sending some warm weather and love your way...Have a good one man...
Jeffrey - I'm so sorry to read that you are in such pain. But hey - below is the 10-day outlook for Boca. You have to admit it's getting better, it's getting better all the time... .
Today
Feb 17 Sunny
65/51 0%
Sun
Feb 18 AM Showers
64/45 30%
Mon
Feb 19 Mostly Sunny
69/58 0%
Tue
Feb 20 Scattered Showers
74/66 30%
Wed
Feb 21 Partly Cloudy
78/64 10%
Thu
Feb 22 Partly Cloudy
78/60 10%
Fri
Feb 23 Mostly Sunny
75/64 10%
Sat
Feb 24 Scattered Showers
80/68 30%
Sun
Feb 25 Mostly Cloudy
81/69 0%
Gentle hugs, sweetie ~
Sammy
Today
Feb 17 Sunny
65/51 0%
Sun
Feb 18 AM Showers
64/45 30%
Mon
Feb 19 Mostly Sunny
69/58 0%
Tue
Feb 20 Scattered Showers
74/66 30%
Wed
Feb 21 Partly Cloudy
78/64 10%
Thu
Feb 22 Partly Cloudy
78/60 10%
Fri
Feb 23 Mostly Sunny
75/64 10%
Sat
Feb 24 Scattered Showers
80/68 30%
Sun
Feb 25 Mostly Cloudy
81/69 0%
Gentle hugs, sweetie ~
Sammy
If its not 80 on Saturday Your in big trouble Sammy.
Its amazing how fast the prednisone works--I feel much better but wired and got the munchies. Ate 2 orders of cappellini caprese from last nights dinner early this morning and watched Cry freedom. Pretty good flick. Woke up and got double shot added to my caffe latte and man I was off the races.
Sammy I have my sister my nieces and BIL flew in out of the blue for this week. My dad is really struggling -he is O.K but this is the worst part of the recovery PAIN PAIN PAIN--and he will take Nothing.Allergic to opiates. They make him sick. Demerol is the only thing he can tolerate but he will not take it in pill form. Only in the hospital in a shot. Says the pills dont work.
Man I just don really understand why this weather makes me so sick? Even with the steroids I am so stiff---
Oh well guess this caught me off guard.
Jeff
Its amazing how fast the prednisone works--I feel much better but wired and got the munchies. Ate 2 orders of cappellini caprese from last nights dinner early this morning and watched Cry freedom. Pretty good flick. Woke up and got double shot added to my caffe latte and man I was off the races.
Sammy I have my sister my nieces and BIL flew in out of the blue for this week. My dad is really struggling -he is O.K but this is the worst part of the recovery PAIN PAIN PAIN--and he will take Nothing.Allergic to opiates. They make him sick. Demerol is the only thing he can tolerate but he will not take it in pill form. Only in the hospital in a shot. Says the pills dont work.
Man I just don really understand why this weather makes me so sick? Even with the steroids I am so stiff---
Oh well guess this caught me off guard.
Jeff
Jeff-
Just wanted to say I hope you get to feeling better soon.
Surely warm weather is on the way, I hope at least. We are buried under about 16 inches of snow right now, but I will say it is gorgeous to look at.
Get well Jeff.
Hugs.
Just wanted to say I hope you get to feeling better soon.
Surely warm weather is on the way, I hope at least. We are buried under about 16 inches of snow right now, but I will say it is gorgeous to look at.
Get well Jeff.
Hugs.
Hi Java Thanks for he well wish but there is another cold front coming. It was 36 degrees here last night.
I took a bunch more meds or i will end up all night and it aint worth it.
Tonight its not going to go that low but it just really screws me up. Timing kinda sucked as my sister flew in for the week and I usually have my kids -to spend time with there cousins. But not this trip.
Yea i heard about this storm. I call all over the country. Spoke to a prospect on Friday. I am like hey how you doing. His answer was 3 ft of snow around the hotel.
Man this has been a weird winter.
Enjoy your snow--
Have a good night Java--Jeff
I took a bunch more meds or i will end up all night and it aint worth it.
Tonight its not going to go that low but it just really screws me up. Timing kinda sucked as my sister flew in for the week and I usually have my kids -to spend time with there cousins. But not this trip.
Yea i heard about this storm. I call all over the country. Spoke to a prospect on Friday. I am like hey how you doing. His answer was 3 ft of snow around the hotel.
Man this has been a weird winter.
Enjoy your snow--
Have a good night Java--Jeff
Jeff
Sorry you are in pain...OMG that is my worst nightmare to have that level of pain come back again..I can't even let myself think of it too long..
IMO however, if the pain gets totally uncontrolled and your ready to kill yourself, which i completely know the feeling, then you need to see your Dr. and let him know..No one- addict are not deserves to suffer unbearable pain..
One of my pain Drs from a Large pain clinic used to tell me that they have some serious addicts that they treat with narcotics but are passionate they are doing the right thing...they feel very strongly that they shouldn't be treated less then human just because they are/were a heroin addict.... The patients had AIDS from heroin/dirty needles and were turned away from their own Drs because of their history even though they were in the final stages of HIV and were dying....
im just saying that if your pain is unbearable you still deserve the dignity of living life not surviving life, and you should feel no shame if you were forced to take something stronger then the prednisone...you should just make yourself accountable, have someone else give them to you etc..
last resort i know..but just wanted you to know if that were to happen no one should ever judge you.
How is your Father doing??? is he managing alright? Is your Mom handling his recovery well? Make sure she takes time off for herself too...the caregivers so often are the last to do so..
Hugs
Ali
Sorry you are in pain...OMG that is my worst nightmare to have that level of pain come back again..I can't even let myself think of it too long..
IMO however, if the pain gets totally uncontrolled and your ready to kill yourself, which i completely know the feeling, then you need to see your Dr. and let him know..No one- addict are not deserves to suffer unbearable pain..
One of my pain Drs from a Large pain clinic used to tell me that they have some serious addicts that they treat with narcotics but are passionate they are doing the right thing...they feel very strongly that they shouldn't be treated less then human just because they are/were a heroin addict.... The patients had AIDS from heroin/dirty needles and were turned away from their own Drs because of their history even though they were in the final stages of HIV and were dying....
im just saying that if your pain is unbearable you still deserve the dignity of living life not surviving life, and you should feel no shame if you were forced to take something stronger then the prednisone...you should just make yourself accountable, have someone else give them to you etc..
last resort i know..but just wanted you to know if that were to happen no one should ever judge you.
How is your Father doing??? is he managing alright? Is your Mom handling his recovery well? Make sure she takes time off for herself too...the caregivers so often are the last to do so..
Hugs
Ali
yea you got that writ, omg, im in so mush pain, in my back from suergery, i can,t sleep 4days no, since suergery, i don,t now how some people do it, with out pain meds, and thats not even taken away, the pain, i have to try and wene myself , our im in big trouble, there is not enuff pain meds to take this pain away, in my back, i just pray the suergery went well, i won,t be able to tell, till, im out off the pain, its good to be able to chere this with someone, good luck, thanks karen.
