Dear paisleydaisy,
I LOVE the name! Glad to see you're getting an identify for on here.
WOW! One month of recovery under your belt! I'm proud of you for doing this for yourself, girl!!!! I'll bet you're proud of yourself too! I'll keep praying for you to keep strong in your battle against temptation and wish you the best in your endeavor.
Oh my goodness! I'm sure I don't deserve all those kind words (from the sister of heroin addict thread) but thanks so much for saying them. It's very kind of you! A prayer my sister shared with me has helped me to see where people are in need of help. I'll share it with you in case you didn't see me post it on here earlier. He has no hands (feet, voice, etc.) but ours.
Lord Jesus, I give you my hands to do your work.
I give you my feet to go your way.
I give you my eyes, to see as you see.
I give you my tongue to speak your words.
I give you my mind that you may think in me.
I give you my spirit, that you may pray in me.
Above all, I give you my heart, that you may love in me your Father and all humankind.
I give you my whole self, that you may grow in me, so that it is you, Lord Jesus, who live and work and pray in me.
I hand over to your care, Lord, my soul and body, my prayers and my hopes, my health and my work, my life and my death, my parents and my family, my friends, my neighbours, my country and all people, Today and always. Amen.
It is a POWERFUL prayer!
Keep up the good work! :)
Love,
Susan
Hi Susan (sorry to butt in P-D), how's tricks? I do pop in from time to time still, and I see that you are still unselfishly helping others, being there for people who are struggling. You are such a star! I'm doing great, haven't looked back really since coming off the subs, getting a little stronger every day. Well, sometimes it's two steps forward and one step back, but life was never meant to be perfect, was it? But I've steered clear of trouble, stayed away from temptation, and I'm not missing heroin or the subs.
Love to you, and please pass on my best wishes to Harry.
love and hugs
Diff xxxx
PS - Paisley Daisy - well done on your month! And in case you hadn't already realised it, our Susan here, is an absolute angel, who never stopped having faith in me, throughout all my many ups and downs over the past couple of years. She's known me at my very worst and my best, and she never gave up on me ;-)
Love to you, and please pass on my best wishes to Harry.
love and hugs
Diff xxxx
PS - Paisley Daisy - well done on your month! And in case you hadn't already realised it, our Susan here, is an absolute angel, who never stopped having faith in me, throughout all my many ups and downs over the past couple of years. She's known me at my very worst and my best, and she never gave up on me ;-)
Dear Diff,
It was so good to hear from you. You made my day! Bless your heart! You sound so strong and clear headed. You know what you want and what you don't want. I'm so VERY PROUD of you!!!! YOU GOT YOUR LIFE BACK!!!! It wasn't easy but it was so worthwhile. I'm beaming with pride over here as I know your mom would be if she knew!
Thanks for all your kind words. You're right....life isn't perfect...but it sure is a heck of a lot better without drugs! I will NEVER give up on you, Diff, you have a very special place in my heart.
Could I ask you a favor? Would you please pray for my mom...for whatever is best for her? She has advanced dementia but in addition to that she now is battling cancer in several areas of her body...both are terminal illnesses. Thanks, sweetie. Please keep in touch.
Love,
Susan
It was so good to hear from you. You made my day! Bless your heart! You sound so strong and clear headed. You know what you want and what you don't want. I'm so VERY PROUD of you!!!! YOU GOT YOUR LIFE BACK!!!! It wasn't easy but it was so worthwhile. I'm beaming with pride over here as I know your mom would be if she knew!
Thanks for all your kind words. You're right....life isn't perfect...but it sure is a heck of a lot better without drugs! I will NEVER give up on you, Diff, you have a very special place in my heart.
Could I ask you a favor? Would you please pray for my mom...for whatever is best for her? She has advanced dementia but in addition to that she now is battling cancer in several areas of her body...both are terminal illnesses. Thanks, sweetie. Please keep in touch.
Love,
Susan
Yes, Paisley......good for you lady.....one month is kewl beans missie....be very proud of yourself.
Susan, if you are not the most compassionate and thoughtful person in the world than nobody is.......that was very kind of you to remember paisley...I wish you lived near me Susan.......I would take you to the dinner for lunch.....cause you're a dear mom, grandmom, and a dear friend to us.
Keep going paisley....just keep going.
Susan, if you are not the most compassionate and thoughtful person in the world than nobody is.......that was very kind of you to remember paisley...I wish you lived near me Susan.......I would take you to the dinner for lunch.....cause you're a dear mom, grandmom, and a dear friend to us.
Keep going paisley....just keep going.
thank you all for kind words and support..
people keep telling me im foolish for working this alone and even more
so an addict cuz i refuse treatment, that
it will never work unless i get medical assistance, but i have so
far- proven to myself that i can beat it any way i want, as long as i have
the willpower and determination to do so. =)))
physical withdrawal is gone and psychological withdrawal
is a daily battle but i am doing the best that i can do.
makes me feel good to know inside what i am doing
is RIGHt for ME. i get enough support from you all,
and all the cheerin' on keeps me motivated to
stay clean and do right!!!
also, my boyfriend is a week and a few days clean as well!!
we talk everyday and i can tell by his voice and conversation
that he wants us to kick this and work towards a happy
ever after. no better feeling than knowing your significant
other has shown an effort to prepare for a better future,too.
even though we are states apart, it feels like my move
has done nothing less than strengthen our love
and devotion to one another. =))))))))
time will change, and so will we- and i feel much goodness will come
of this.
people keep telling me im foolish for working this alone and even more
so an addict cuz i refuse treatment, that
it will never work unless i get medical assistance, but i have so
far- proven to myself that i can beat it any way i want, as long as i have
the willpower and determination to do so. =)))
physical withdrawal is gone and psychological withdrawal
is a daily battle but i am doing the best that i can do.
makes me feel good to know inside what i am doing
is RIGHt for ME. i get enough support from you all,
and all the cheerin' on keeps me motivated to
stay clean and do right!!!
also, my boyfriend is a week and a few days clean as well!!
we talk everyday and i can tell by his voice and conversation
that he wants us to kick this and work towards a happy
ever after. no better feeling than knowing your significant
other has shown an effort to prepare for a better future,too.
even though we are states apart, it feels like my move
has done nothing less than strengthen our love
and devotion to one another. =))))))))
time will change, and so will we- and i feel much goodness will come
of this.
Dear Bryn,
Thanks so much for your sweet words! I wish I lived near you too! It would be great to meet you! Who knows? Maybe some day.
Dear Kasey,
I wish you all the best and I'll keep praying for you. Please keep us posted. I don't see that it would hurt for you to go to some meetings and meet some nice people, but of course it's your choice. I find great support from people going through what I am going through...whether here, at meetings, or both. Just think about it, okay?
Love,
Susan
Thanks so much for your sweet words! I wish I lived near you too! It would be great to meet you! Who knows? Maybe some day.
Dear Kasey,
I wish you all the best and I'll keep praying for you. Please keep us posted. I don't see that it would hurt for you to go to some meetings and meet some nice people, but of course it's your choice. I find great support from people going through what I am going through...whether here, at meetings, or both. Just think about it, okay?
Love,
Susan
Hi Susan, I am sorry to hear that your mom isn't well. I have said a prayer for her, and hope that it is heard. I prayed for her peace and happiness. It does feel a little alien to me, praying, but I have my mothers voice (she is a "believer" and a scientist - taught physics and biology at a Catholic school until she retired - never envied her, teaching sex education at a Catholic school! ) echoing in my head, as she quoted Karl Popper at me, telling me that since we don't actually know whether or not if God exists, it's best to cover our backs and believe, coz we may regret it if we end up in eternal damnation!
love as always
Diff xxx
love as always
Diff xxx
Paisleydaisy
Congratulations 1 month clean thats brilliant well done keep it up
Emily
Congratulations 1 month clean thats brilliant well done keep it up
Emily
Dear Diff,
I can't begin to tell you how much it mean to me that you said a prayer for my mom! Thanks so much!
I just went to see a play (my daughter treated me for my birthday) called "Behold the Lamb." No one who goes to see that play can doubt God's love for us or the promise of eternal life. During the crucifixion, I just cried my eyes out! It makes you realize how much our sins hurt God. The one message that "Jesus" shared in the play that had the most effect on me was when he asked us to be open to God changing our hearts. It brought to mind the prayer my sister had shared with me and a song we used to sing at a prayer group I was a part of. It went like this....
Change my heart, oh God.
Make it ever true,
Change my heart, oh God.
May I be like you!
You are the potter,
I am the clay.
Mold me and melt me,
This is what I pray.
Change my heart, oh God.
Make it ever true,
Change my heart, oh God.
May I be like you!
It is AMAZING what he can do with us when we open up to Him!
Thanks again for your prayer. I don't mean to sound preachy. Just sharing how God has worked in my life...and continues to. He has brought me pretty far, but I still have far to go.
Love you very much!
Susan
I can't begin to tell you how much it mean to me that you said a prayer for my mom! Thanks so much!
I just went to see a play (my daughter treated me for my birthday) called "Behold the Lamb." No one who goes to see that play can doubt God's love for us or the promise of eternal life. During the crucifixion, I just cried my eyes out! It makes you realize how much our sins hurt God. The one message that "Jesus" shared in the play that had the most effect on me was when he asked us to be open to God changing our hearts. It brought to mind the prayer my sister had shared with me and a song we used to sing at a prayer group I was a part of. It went like this....
Change my heart, oh God.
Make it ever true,
Change my heart, oh God.
May I be like you!
You are the potter,
I am the clay.
Mold me and melt me,
This is what I pray.
Change my heart, oh God.
Make it ever true,
Change my heart, oh God.
May I be like you!
It is AMAZING what he can do with us when we open up to Him!
Thanks again for your prayer. I don't mean to sound preachy. Just sharing how God has worked in my life...and continues to. He has brought me pretty far, but I still have far to go.
Love you very much!
Susan
Whoah, can't beleive I missed this one! One month already!?!? Go Paisley! (I'm getting out some pom poms and cheerleading for you now, ow! Can't get my leg up there, oh well!) You're working through the hardset part here darling, and doing a great job at it!
hehe thank you all very very much =)))))
i am doing very good- although something very strange happened to
me tonight. in fact, the entire day has been very odd.
i can not talk much about it, but if you will keep me
in your prayers and send happy, peaceful energy vibes thisa- way,it
would do me a great deal of goodness.
(i am still clean- do not fret, my pets!) just keep me in your thoughts =)))
i am doing very good- although something very strange happened to
me tonight. in fact, the entire day has been very odd.
i can not talk much about it, but if you will keep me
in your prayers and send happy, peaceful energy vibes thisa- way,it
would do me a great deal of goodness.
(i am still clean- do not fret, my pets!) just keep me in your thoughts =)))
You've got my prayers, mystery girl. I'm so glad to hear you're still clean!
Love,
Susan
Love,
Susan
My dear Susan, I need your prayers right now. I don't really want to talk about it much, but I'm suddenly in a dark place. My Falling Kingdom. I only know two ways out of here. Fire and Ice, and I don't like either of them. I wish I knew how to get out the way I got in. But that's why it's a Falling Kingdom. Sorry if I give no context, but that's the nature of feeling lost, isn' it?
love as always
Diff xxx
love as always
Diff xxx
Dear Diff,
I'm so sorry to hear about this dark place you are in. I hope that my prayers for you shine a light down to you to lead you out of it safely. For some reason, these words to one of my favorite songs came to mind....
And He will raise you up on Eagle's wings.
Bear you on the breath of dawn.
Make you to shine like the sun.
And hold you in the palm of His hand.
Diff, I KNOW you can battle this. You have great strength within you. Reach down deep and find it! Please keep in touch!
Love,
Susan
P.S. Here are all the words of the song in case something in there helps you...
You who dwell in the shelter of the Lord,
Who abide in His shadow for life,
Say to the Lord, "My Refuge,
My Rock in Whom I trust."
Refrain
And He will raise you up on eagle's wings,
Bear you on the breath of dawn,
Make you to shine like the sun,
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.
The snare of the fowler will never capture you,
And famine will bring you no fear;
Under His Wings your refuge,
His faithfulness your shield.
Refrain
You need not fear the terror of the night,
Nor the arrow that flies by day,
Though thousands fall about you,
Near you it shall not come.
Refrain
For to His angels He's given a command,
To guard you in all of your ways,
Upon their hands they will bear you up,
Lest you dash your foot against a stone.
Refrain
I liked these words too...
For to His angels He's given a command,
To guard you in all of your ways,
Please climb out, Diff!
I'm so sorry to hear about this dark place you are in. I hope that my prayers for you shine a light down to you to lead you out of it safely. For some reason, these words to one of my favorite songs came to mind....
And He will raise you up on Eagle's wings.
Bear you on the breath of dawn.
Make you to shine like the sun.
And hold you in the palm of His hand.
Diff, I KNOW you can battle this. You have great strength within you. Reach down deep and find it! Please keep in touch!
Love,
Susan
P.S. Here are all the words of the song in case something in there helps you...
You who dwell in the shelter of the Lord,
Who abide in His shadow for life,
Say to the Lord, "My Refuge,
My Rock in Whom I trust."
Refrain
And He will raise you up on eagle's wings,
Bear you on the breath of dawn,
Make you to shine like the sun,
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.
The snare of the fowler will never capture you,
And famine will bring you no fear;
Under His Wings your refuge,
His faithfulness your shield.
Refrain
You need not fear the terror of the night,
Nor the arrow that flies by day,
Though thousands fall about you,
Near you it shall not come.
Refrain
For to His angels He's given a command,
To guard you in all of your ways,
Upon their hands they will bear you up,
Lest you dash your foot against a stone.
Refrain
I liked these words too...
For to His angels He's given a command,
To guard you in all of your ways,
Please climb out, Diff!
Diff not sure what happening but hope your O.K
Jeff
Jeff
Dear Jesus,
Please help Diff right now. She needs your light to lead her out of the darkness. She has worked so hard and come so far, please help her in her time of need. Renew her strength to fight whatever is taking her into the darkness. In your name, Jesus, I rebuke any and all evil spirits lurking in and around her and command that they return to the pits of hell where they belong. Surround Diff with your love and lead her out of her "Falling Kingdom". And if you don't mind, Lord, please wrap your arms around her and give her a BIG HUG from me. In your name I pray. Amen.
Love,
Susan
Please help Diff right now. She needs your light to lead her out of the darkness. She has worked so hard and come so far, please help her in her time of need. Renew her strength to fight whatever is taking her into the darkness. In your name, Jesus, I rebuke any and all evil spirits lurking in and around her and command that they return to the pits of hell where they belong. Surround Diff with your love and lead her out of her "Falling Kingdom". And if you don't mind, Lord, please wrap your arms around her and give her a BIG HUG from me. In your name I pray. Amen.
Love,
Susan
Dearest Susan, your love makes me cry.
love
Diff xxx
love
Diff xxx
Dear Diff,
I'm so relieved to hear from you and know at least for that moment you were okay. I started a separate thread (Please pray for Diff) to alert people to be praying for you. There are some words of support and wisdom there for you.
Diff, if we open a door to the dark side, the evil one will come rushing in. Try to figure out where or when you might have opened yourself up to the dark side and close that door! He will go away if we close our hearts to him and ask Jesus or positive vibes (if that's your thing) to come into our heart. I might be totally way off base in saying this, but I felt moved to so I did. I hope you don't get upset with me. My son used to get upset with me because I would tell him that some of the music he listened to opened the door to the dark side. People can be so unaware of it....sometimes it comes creeping in and little by little gets a hold of you. I think my son's music has been part of his downfall.
One thing you said on the Naked Lunch thread concerned me. It was something like..."human creativity is borne of human pain." That is true if you put the word "sometimes" before it because sometimes it is borne of joy and love....not always pain.
Let me see some of your literary talent talking about something you're joyful about.
I love you dearly, Diff. Please try to close that door. My prayers are still coming to you. Look for the light!
Love,
Susan
I'm so relieved to hear from you and know at least for that moment you were okay. I started a separate thread (Please pray for Diff) to alert people to be praying for you. There are some words of support and wisdom there for you.
Diff, if we open a door to the dark side, the evil one will come rushing in. Try to figure out where or when you might have opened yourself up to the dark side and close that door! He will go away if we close our hearts to him and ask Jesus or positive vibes (if that's your thing) to come into our heart. I might be totally way off base in saying this, but I felt moved to so I did. I hope you don't get upset with me. My son used to get upset with me because I would tell him that some of the music he listened to opened the door to the dark side. People can be so unaware of it....sometimes it comes creeping in and little by little gets a hold of you. I think my son's music has been part of his downfall.
One thing you said on the Naked Lunch thread concerned me. It was something like..."human creativity is borne of human pain." That is true if you put the word "sometimes" before it because sometimes it is borne of joy and love....not always pain.
Let me see some of your literary talent talking about something you're joyful about.
I love you dearly, Diff. Please try to close that door. My prayers are still coming to you. Look for the light!
Love,
Susan
Yes Susan is a very helpful woman who sometimes ignores her own issues but never others. Make sure you spend some Susan time now and again ok.
Thanks for caring, Hurt Dad. It's part of being a mom. I just happen to have a LOT of kids....my biological three and the ones who have won their way into my heart. I did take some Susan time tonight. I had to watch my American Idol! :)
Love,
Susan
Love,
Susan
