What happened?
No one is going to attack you for relapsing, and if they do, they're wrong. When did you last use? Have you reached out to a local F2F program (NA, AA, whatever)? I'm concerned about you, you're at a critical point right now, as addiction is a progressive disease and taking just a few can quickly snowball into a nightmare.
Like i said before Pam,
How can we help?
I know that you have learned an valuable lesson, but if there's anything I can do or say to help you, I'm all ears!
Love you sweetie!
How can we help?
I know that you have learned an valuable lesson, but if there's anything I can do or say to help you, I'm all ears!
Love you sweetie!
Pam:
I am happy you posted this morning. I am glad I saw your post through all of the garbage. What is going on?
Rachel
Pam,
I agree with Matt (and everything else he said), no one will attack you for relapsing. Yo DO need to get back on the horse, and get back on NOW. as stated this can quickly snowball.
Remember a problem shared is a problem halved.
Regards,
Tom
I agree with Matt (and everything else he said), no one will attack you for relapsing. Yo DO need to get back on the horse, and get back on NOW. as stated this can quickly snowball.
Remember a problem shared is a problem halved.
Regards,
Tom
Pam:
I know this does not seem like a very safe place right now but please know there are people who really care about you here.
Rachel
Pam darlin...I just read your email and you said you didn't feel safe posting here about your relapse and then you did...well, good for you. Takes big balls to do that...and you didn't even have to borrow mine!
Tell others what happened hon. Get it out and let people help.
Love you
Lisa
Tell others what happened hon. Get it out and let people help.
Love you
Lisa
Hi Pam,
First let me say I admire your courage and honesty. That took alot of guts. It took me a few monthes to get honest when I relapsed. Noone will attack you for relapsing. I was scanning through the bs in that thread just now and saw your post. I was about to click it off till I saw your post. I know how your feeling right now but once you get clean that feeling will pass. I promise. I saw no way out didnt think I was ever gonna get clean. I practically was resigned to the fact that I was just gonna use till I died. Today I am glad I got honest and am back. It does get better. take care....my email is at the bottom use it whenever .....
gi
First let me say I admire your courage and honesty. That took alot of guts. It took me a few monthes to get honest when I relapsed. Noone will attack you for relapsing. I was scanning through the bs in that thread just now and saw your post. I was about to click it off till I saw your post. I know how your feeling right now but once you get clean that feeling will pass. I promise. I saw no way out didnt think I was ever gonna get clean. I practically was resigned to the fact that I was just gonna use till I died. Today I am glad I got honest and am back. It does get better. take care....my email is at the bottom use it whenever .....
gi
Pam I to am sorry to hear about your relapse... All you can do now is get back into a meeting and try again. Hang in there you know what you have to do..NOBODY is going to attack you or make you feel bad about relapsing. I have done in the past a few times... Just don't allow it to get out of control before you do something about it. It took a lot of courage to come here and admit that. I admire you for that. Hang in there and we are all here to support you... Rae
pam,
relapse is part of the disease, we are all human and we all make mistakes. the cool part is that we learn from them. so pick yourself up and try and figure out why this happened so that you can be better prepared in the future. no one has any right to judge you. we are all in this together. it can happen to anyone of us at anytime. one day at a time.
terrianne
relapse is part of the disease, we are all human and we all make mistakes. the cool part is that we learn from them. so pick yourself up and try and figure out why this happened so that you can be better prepared in the future. no one has any right to judge you. we are all in this together. it can happen to anyone of us at anytime. one day at a time.
terrianne
God Ya'll I am really crying hard. Tears are just pouring down my face. Well, all of you or most of you know that I have major pain issues and I have a legit script for Lortabs, 7.5 mgs. Anyhow, my husband kept them for me and just gave me one here and there whenever my pain was intense. So, he left and went out of town last Friday and he had to leave my bottle of pills with me. He thought that I would be okay and so did I. My bottle says to take 2 pills every three to four hours. I DID NOT do that, I have been taking 4-6 a day and sometimes 8 at the most. For instance, first thing in the morning I take two pills, then 4 hours later 1 then 4 hours later 1 more. Anyhow, yesterday, I took 1 and 1/2 when I got up at 6am or 630am, then at 10am I took 1/2 of one then at 1pm I took another 1/2 then right before bed at 7pm I took another 1/2 of one and then I woke up at 230am and had severe diarrhea, I didn't even make it to the bathroom in time, how embarrassing, but I'm telling ya'll the truth and this is what it is all about. Okay, so after the diarrhea bout, I took another 1/2 and went back to bed. This morning when I got up at 630am I took 1 and 1/2 and then at 1030am I took 1/2 of a pill and then a few minutes ago I just went and took a whole pill........So there it is..... My husband knows all about this as I have spoken to him on the phone. I just am lost, I don't know what to do. I'm tired of suffering with pain and I'm tired of taking meds so what other damn options do I have. The pills DO NOT give me energy, they really don't make me feel good at all. I don't want to talk or see anyone, I just want to curl up, go to bed and die. It is that plain and simple. Thank you all for listening and taking the time to talk to me and thank you for not hating me and jumping on my case and attacking me. I'm really beginning to wonder if Suboxone is the answer for me. I just don't know anymore.........I really don't look forward to w/d cold turkey as I've been down that road three times in the past five years, so I am really trying to taper down from this little stint that I've been on for about two weeks. The last week being the worst. Again, THANK YOU ALL.
I'm really beginning to wonder if Suboxone is the answer for me.
I think your right on target Pam because also you have pain issues. I have not taken it but in your case I would really consider it. Meaning I would take it. Hell if I relapsed and i do not have pain issues I would consider it.
I think your right on target Pam because also you have pain issues. I have not taken it but in your case I would really consider it. Meaning I would take it. Hell if I relapsed and i do not have pain issues I would consider it.
Pam see my post under the Flipper thread, Talk when you return..
Pam
Sorry you relapsed. What are you going to do different so it doesn't happen again? Hang in there, it's not the end of the world, just a new beginning.
Sorry you relapsed. What are you going to do different so it doesn't happen again? Hang in there, it's not the end of the world, just a new beginning.
Pam First of all forgive yourself.When you have real pain issues it is such a thin line we walk.Ill be totally honest with you.I was offered Oxys last week by a so called old friend,I can be honest & say if it wasnt for my Sub I may of been really tempted.I know that Sub is NOT a cure all but for me I can live my life without pain(mental & physical)I think in your case it would be worth looking into.Like I said for people like us who have pain issues it is SO darn hard to NOT over use.With the sub I guess you could over use but youd feel like crap for doing it.
So on that note do some research,look up all you can about the Sub & than deside if its for you.like I said for me it is my ONLY choice & I can live without being doubled over or eating 20 Ultram.Take Care sweety...mj
So on that note do some research,look up all you can about the Sub & than deside if its for you.like I said for me it is my ONLY choice & I can live without being doubled over or eating 20 Ultram.Take Care sweety...mj
Hey Lisa, she said the same to me regarding afraid to post, How sad is this.
Addictions Recovery Board, and people are afraid to post.
I know I was. Still cautious about what I post.
Not ignoring you babe, just thinking about a few things.
Pam the thread got locked and may be removed; I know you are on the road, so you may miss it.. I love you to death, our friendship has become one I cherish. You make me laugh and not too many people can do that.
Brook
You're right Sharon (Brook), it's so sad that this board has become something other than what it was intended.
We all have responsiblity and accountablity in our actions. Work on those, not those of others. We all have our own personal demons to slay and it won't get done if we continually tell others what they have done wrong. We all need to take a real close look at ourselves and check our motives and egos at the door.
Pammy, I'm here for you as are those that truly care about you and recovery. That's why we started a search for help on the net and ended up here. I've made some amazing friends here and will cherish them for a life time. I care about each and everyone of you, even then ones that don't beleive it. Because we're all in this together.
For my part, I will never address those that have nothing in mind except to cause trouble, again. I suggest (and yes, it's only a suggestion) that the rest of you do the same. Post to those that need your hope, experience and strength. Leave the rest. In the whole big scheme of things, ask yourself, does it really matter if so and so cares what I think? Probably not.
Have a safe trip Pam darlin.
Brook..you have to log in on another name...just write at the bottom that you are formerly known as Brookshire....Carol and a couple of others have done it and it worked out fine. We know who you are. You speak volumes and people listen.
XXX
Cowgirl
We all have responsiblity and accountablity in our actions. Work on those, not those of others. We all have our own personal demons to slay and it won't get done if we continually tell others what they have done wrong. We all need to take a real close look at ourselves and check our motives and egos at the door.
Pammy, I'm here for you as are those that truly care about you and recovery. That's why we started a search for help on the net and ended up here. I've made some amazing friends here and will cherish them for a life time. I care about each and everyone of you, even then ones that don't beleive it. Because we're all in this together.
For my part, I will never address those that have nothing in mind except to cause trouble, again. I suggest (and yes, it's only a suggestion) that the rest of you do the same. Post to those that need your hope, experience and strength. Leave the rest. In the whole big scheme of things, ask yourself, does it really matter if so and so cares what I think? Probably not.
Have a safe trip Pam darlin.
Brook..you have to log in on another name...just write at the bottom that you are formerly known as Brookshire....Carol and a couple of others have done it and it worked out fine. We know who you are. You speak volumes and people listen.
XXX
Cowgirl
Pam:
Whatever has been said, I hope you don't beat up on yourself for your relapse.
Most, if not all of us have and more than once - more than 50 times for me, I'm sure.
I wish you nothing but the best in your recovery and hope and pray that you will keep posting and reading, this board sounds like it used to and this board as a whole and will be a big help for you along with your other support.
Best wishes,
Jean
Whatever has been said, I hope you don't beat up on yourself for your relapse.
Most, if not all of us have and more than once - more than 50 times for me, I'm sure.
I wish you nothing but the best in your recovery and hope and pray that you will keep posting and reading, this board sounds like it used to and this board as a whole and will be a big help for you along with your other support.
Best wishes,
Jean
Pam...as you know I also had a lot of pain issues..relapsed and picked myself up again..the pills didn't make me feel good either...just zoned out and not wanting to do squat...chronic pain really sucks..is it the fibro or migraines? Elavil is working really good for me...are you on cymbalta or an Ad? Don't despair..do you know how many relapses I've had? I can't even count...feel better....love, Sharonn aka turkey legs(c'mon....laugh)
I'm laughing Turkey legs...lol
and I'm going to the dr to get some of that T-cream, so I will like sex again...lol
and I'm going to the dr to get some of that T-cream, so I will like sex again...lol
Hey...if you can put up with the acne and thinning hair....testosterone works...the elavil kills my libido, but using the cream helps...BTW...I live with a 50 year old man who will "die" w/o daily sex..Gotta keep him happy, so I might as well enjoy the ride(no pun intended)
