ya know, I just realized its been well over a month, probably boardering on two since my last minor relapse, that only lasted a few days. since i moved, i tried to keep any contacts extremely limited, & that has helped a lot.
Some say a geographical doesn't work, but I think it helps. I haven't done H in years, & I used to "treat" myself to a bag when i went back to Buffalo every year or so. A couple years ago, i was tempted, but i resisted & it was gone. Last year, i went to the spot, and amazingly after years & years of non stop operation, it was gone. I was dissapointed, but I didn't go looking & later i was glad & by the next day i wasn't even thiinking about it.
Last minor relapse someone had something at a real good price, (pills not h), so I bouht them all, for a future emergency. I can't t remember what the emergency was, but it must have been a big one, cause less then a week later the pills were all gone. When I called for more, they couldn't get any, & I called 1 other person & knew & he couldn't. Even after using only a week or so, (& some of it might be in my head, cause once u go thru wds, & recognize them, well then any symptoms scare the h.. out of ya.) I went thru minor wds, mostly severe apathy ( worse then my regular apathy) & depression for a couple weeks, no real sickness.
But my point is, I no longer know where to get things firsthand (kept that barrier), and have no access whatsoever without a lot of work & complete awareness to get what is mostly poisonoss (sp) to me. Its not a cure, for sure, but it is a help and gives you time to think of what ur doing, cause if it was readilly available last time, i don't think i would have stopped for a while. Yes, yes, I know, why did I get them in the first place, but thats a whole other issue.
The day I SERIOUSLY decided to quit taking pain pills, I erased all of my "contact's" phone numbers out of my cell phone.... I know I could still find these pills if I wanted to or could call my doctor at any time, but taking the ease out of being able to just call and have those pills delivered has made it a little easier for me.
Browndog,
My husband and I have been talking about you post all morning. He is scared to go back to work because of where he works. His job put him in the middle of one of the worst drug areas in our half of the state. He said it is like a disease....The good people that live there get suck into it and those coming in from outside to buy drugs feed it. I am also worried knowing that he can walk less than a block and find any drug he wishes......He is trying now while he is off to change his position at work so that he won't have to be there all day long.
Stay Strong.......
Tina
My husband and I have been talking about you post all morning. He is scared to go back to work because of where he works. His job put him in the middle of one of the worst drug areas in our half of the state. He said it is like a disease....The good people that live there get suck into it and those coming in from outside to buy drugs feed it. I am also worried knowing that he can walk less than a block and find any drug he wishes......He is trying now while he is off to change his position at work so that he won't have to be there all day long.
Stay Strong.......
Tina
Mistyeyes, you husband has it rough. One time when i was mostly clean for about 2 years ( i was on methadone maintenance, & for the most part stopped with opiates , cause unless u do a lot, it blocks em, & i wanted to be clean). Well I left a stuctured job that i couldn't stand, and got me own business started, & it was a good thing. Of course success brings its own unique challenges to people like me (i never really understood the sabotage factor), but the real point of this is that my supplier was only a few blocks from the hood. The temptation became overwhelming, & ultimately, though i was on methadone, i ended up for a few years regularly using c & h again. even now, as much as i want to stay clean, having it regularly available, would be a big problem i think. A fight with my wife, a problem or extreme frustrations at work, or things going extremely well, and the ready availibility, might be to much for me. I hope he gets transferred or finds a new job, though I have known of some real real hard core guys who have made it. I'm just not that tough, or resiliant. God Bless & I wish u well
Dog, they say that geographical cures don't work but I am beginning to think otherwise. In some instances, I think that it might save some peoples lives.
Sometimes, I think the mental association with the places we are using might be a really hard one for some people.
I think that they can work, to a point, if you do the needed work on yourself after you make the move. Once you realize that you are an addict, it might make it easier to start over as long as you follow a recovery program once you get there.
Just my humble opinion.
kerry
Sometimes, I think the mental association with the places we are using might be a really hard one for some people.
I think that they can work, to a point, if you do the needed work on yourself after you make the move. Once you realize that you are an addict, it might make it easier to start over as long as you follow a recovery program once you get there.
Just my humble opinion.
kerry
Misty, your husband does have it rough. That is going to be so hard. He is really lucky (like I said before) to have support like you. I was in a similar situation, but when I saw how stupid the guy looked loaded, and how good I felt, it helped for a while.
kerry
kerry
