I, KNOW IN THE BEGINNING OF MY PROCESS I DID NOT KNOW
WHAT TO DO WITH MY TIME ( THE VOID) WHAT WAS I TO DO WITH ALL
THIS TIME IF I WERE'NT DOING WHAT I'VE DONE FOR SO LONG. ON
A DAY TO DAY BASIS. IT WAS NOT CLEAR TO ME UNTIL I HEARD A
FELLOW MEMBER SAY " STICK WITH THE WINNERS." THIS MEANT TO ME
THAT I HAD TO GET WITH PEOPLE WHO WERE NOT USING, AND WHO
HAD FOUND A NEW WAY OF LIFE THROUGH RECOVERY.SINCE THE
BEGINNING I'VE LEARNED WHAT SURRENDER MEANS! !!!!!!!!!!!!! (THAT I
DO NOT HAVE TO FIGHT ANYMORE ) !!!!!! TODAY AND JUST FOR TODAY
I'M AWARE OF THE PEOPLE,PLACES,& AND THINGS I SURROUND
MYSELF WITH, AND THATS ONLY THROUGH UNDERSTANDING THAT I
MUST BEAWARE OF MY CHOICES AND ASK FOR MY HIGHER POWER
TO GIVE ME THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE.
MARCH 8,2006 CLEANDATE IS 6/28/04 MERLE BANKS
I WOKE UP THIS MORNING FEELING GREAT!!!!!
I GUESS THE FEELING REALLY CAME OVER ME WHEN I WENT OUTSIDE
TO SMOKE MY MORNING CIG.THEN IT HIT ME THE GRATITUDE I HAVE
FROM BEING FREE FROM ACTIVE ADDICTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I COULD ACTUALLY FEEL THE BREEZE FLOWING OVER ME. I COULD SMELL THE AIR, AND JUST WATCHING THE THE PEOPLE DRIVING TO WORK AND GOING ABOUT THEIR DAILY ACTIVITIES.IT JUST REMINDED ME THAT I DID NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THE CHASE TODAY. LIKE I'VE DONE FOR SO LONG, RELYING AND TRUSTING THE PROCESS HAS WORKED WONDERS IN MY LIFE. MY HIGHERPOWER HAS REALLY BEEN GOOD TO ME THAT'S WHY I KEEP COMING BACK ON THE DAILY BASIS.
THE MESSAGE IS HOPE AND THE PROMISE IS FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!