I am only 21. I spend all of my money on weed. I waste all of my time high. For these reasons I am teatering on the edge of flunking out of university. I smoke 1/8 oz a day and have for years a long time. Everyone in my family does too (brothers sisters even mom and dad occasionally).
Last spring when I was able to stay at my moms place for the summer semester, I quit smoking pot. For more then 3 months. I felt great. Hadn't gone 24 hours without smoking in probably 5 years so i felt proud of myself.
Now I live with a bunch of pot smokers because they are my family and i have no choice. I have relapsed into smoking 1/8oz a day again. I have to quit.
I have to quit smoking weed for good. I dunno how I am going to do it. Should I make it a new years resolution? Should I quit tomorrow?
Last time i quit I got depressed and ended up taking an SSRI called celexa. I don't know if it helped.
I can't get away from my family members who will smoke joints one room away from me if I try to quit. That just makes it harder.
I am stressed to the max trying to keep up with my pot smoking habit. I am afraid if I don't quit its going to ruin me.
Mr. B. it must be so hard living with it all around you. You're stronger than it or them though...you really are. Pick your date and live life the way you KNOW you want to...free and clean. I feel for you though. Not many young adults have to deal with their families doing it right under their noses. You do have a choice though..and I believe you can do this regardless. I'll be waiting to hear what your stop date is...okay? You seem to know what you want and this isn't it. Make your own life, Mr. B. You deserve it.
I feel kind of funny about coming to a message board for this kind of advice.
but at this point I think I just need some encouragement.
I know there must be life after pot.
Thanks for the reply
but at this point I think I just need some encouragement.
I know there must be life after pot.
Thanks for the reply
Good luck to you Mr. B. You have the first step down, you recognize that you have a problem and that your life might be better off without pot. It can be very hard to quit, it has been for me. Get it set in your mind that you want to quit and want to try something different in your life. Wait for the opportunity. Marijuana is the careless disease, recognize that you are sick of being careless. Something will happen to shake you up, grab that opportunity. In the beginning, getting straight can almost be "like a high". It feels so different, everyday is different and you will be living in a new world when straight. Give it a try. Who wants to be addicted to something day in and day out. Each of us has a soul and is a special gift to this world. You are not giving us the gift of whom your really are. Please share yourself with the world.
Now here is a good candidate for sacred time! Eh, jojo?
What is sacred time?
Here is the deal with my family. They all smoke. But they are smart people. My older brother and sister are two professional people with degrees and decent jobs (my brother is a wealthy business man) . My Dad just retired from psychiatry after 35 years. They've all managed to keep things togeither ontop of smoking too much (to say the least).
For myself and my younger brother things seem to be falling apart at the hinges. He seems to think his life is perfect sitting around doing nothing but smoking all day long, its sad. I can't help him though. It just makes it harder to help myself in this environment. I live in a house with my youger brother and my older sister.
My Dad scares me though. I beleive he sincerely wants us all to get this monkey off our backs. But he himself is a lifetime of failed attempts to get straight and clean. He tells stories about smoking in the washrooms of med school. I don't know how he did it. He wants nothing more then for me to do well in university
When I quit for 3 months he also tried to quit.. he lasted only 3 weeks. Now he won't smoke infront of me... Even though he knows I smoke again. He will still "dissappear" into the basement or the backyard in the evenings tho.
Here is the deal with my family. They all smoke. But they are smart people. My older brother and sister are two professional people with degrees and decent jobs (my brother is a wealthy business man) . My Dad just retired from psychiatry after 35 years. They've all managed to keep things togeither ontop of smoking too much (to say the least).
For myself and my younger brother things seem to be falling apart at the hinges. He seems to think his life is perfect sitting around doing nothing but smoking all day long, its sad. I can't help him though. It just makes it harder to help myself in this environment. I live in a house with my youger brother and my older sister.
My Dad scares me though. I beleive he sincerely wants us all to get this monkey off our backs. But he himself is a lifetime of failed attempts to get straight and clean. He tells stories about smoking in the washrooms of med school. I don't know how he did it. He wants nothing more then for me to do well in university
When I quit for 3 months he also tried to quit.. he lasted only 3 weeks. Now he won't smoke infront of me... Even though he knows I smoke again. He will still "dissappear" into the basement or the backyard in the evenings tho.
For information on "sacred time" go read the post "whatever works is good (edited)"
if you can't find it, let me know and I'll bump it up for you.
if you can't find it, let me know and I'll bump it up for you.
>...I spend all of my money on weed. I waste all of my time high...<
Your very honest and thats the key to your recovery. The word waste is exacty what we do as potheads. We waste time, we waste our youth, we waste clarity, we waste our future. Your decision to stop the cycle so young is admiral. It took 30 years and lots of $$ before I was able to finally become clean & sober. It is important that you are recovering for you, not what dad wants for you.
I think you are in the right place to start, but a one on one program can do wonders. You will learn about you, and what you will need to know to sucessfully recover. With everyone smoking around you, don't try to do this without some support. Seems you have very little sanctuary, whether your at school or at home. A safe place is a must. Good Luck!
Your very honest and thats the key to your recovery. The word waste is exacty what we do as potheads. We waste time, we waste our youth, we waste clarity, we waste our future. Your decision to stop the cycle so young is admiral. It took 30 years and lots of $$ before I was able to finally become clean & sober. It is important that you are recovering for you, not what dad wants for you.
I think you are in the right place to start, but a one on one program can do wonders. You will learn about you, and what you will need to know to sucessfully recover. With everyone smoking around you, don't try to do this without some support. Seems you have very little sanctuary, whether your at school or at home. A safe place is a must. Good Luck!
i hope you read about 'sacred time' it works wonders and worked for me. if you can't find the post i will find it for you. it's worth it and you do it yourself. and when you do you feel so powerful, not powerless. no need to surrender yourself to anything..... just let it go. you will find the majority of us here do not advocate 12 step programs for many reasons. if you go that way we will support you in your efforts as well. getting clean is what is important. how you get there ..... we have a motto.... "whatever works is good!"
good luck, let us know how you do.
best, jojo
good luck, let us know how you do.
best, jojo
Hey, Mr. B, glad to see you back. Listen to your heart. It sounds like you know this isn't working for you. Just because others were able to smoke and get by doesn't mean that everyone's the same or that chemicals affect everyone the same. it's not working for you..and you know it. I would take a wild stab and say that it sounds like "depression" runs in your family and that's why they keep returning to the smoke. There's other ways to beat depression. I have every confidence that you can make the right choice for you. Just think of it as if you once loved pea soup...you ate so much it made you sick. now you want nothing to do with it...but the rest of the family's still eating it..if they asked if you want some, you'd say "No. Don't like it anymore." It's that simple, Mr. B. I have a feeling nothing would make your dad happier than to know his son could beat this addiction..and you'll be twice as happy. Hope to hear from you again.
FYI about 12 step programs. Alcoholic Anonymous is for alcoholics. Now our courts seem to send every druggie there whether or not they have a problem with alcohol or not, but they really don't belong there. It weakens the fellowship that was created for alcoholism. You should be an alcoholic to attend, unless you are just checking yourself out. I have attended many AA meeting and it saved my life back in the 80's when I recovered from alcoholism. I do completely understand that the majority of alcoholics these days have a secondary addiction and that is part of their problem. Pothead only, not for you.
Narcotics Anonymous is just that. I don't place pot in the category of a narcotic and my own personal opinion is that a pothead like me is better off staying away from chronic heroin, cocaine and pill users. The less I know the better.
There is Marijuana Anonymous and I have some of their literature coming in the mail. For me, the closest meeting is 2 hrs away and it is just not realistic for me to attend. I talked to a fellow recovering marijuana addict and he lived on Long Island with good access to MA and he said they were very helpful. I wish I could go. Nothing better than the strength you get from sitting around a room with people all trying to do the same thing and recover together. Support grouops are very helpful, that is what this online thing is all about.
Narcotics Anonymous is just that. I don't place pot in the category of a narcotic and my own personal opinion is that a pothead like me is better off staying away from chronic heroin, cocaine and pill users. The less I know the better.
There is Marijuana Anonymous and I have some of their literature coming in the mail. For me, the closest meeting is 2 hrs away and it is just not realistic for me to attend. I talked to a fellow recovering marijuana addict and he lived on Long Island with good access to MA and he said they were very helpful. I wish I could go. Nothing better than the strength you get from sitting around a room with people all trying to do the same thing and recover together. Support grouops are very helpful, that is what this online thing is all about.
Well its January 1, a day for resolutions. My moment is now.
Wish me luck
Straight (finally) Mr.B
Wish me luck
Straight (finally) Mr.B
1 day is a start anyway. i think it takes about 3 days for the big fog to lift and then gradually clarity increases more. I am 7.5 weeks out and and finally starting to feel good. I had anxiety like my eyes were popping out of my head, blood pressure up. THis past week that has all let go and I am feeling pretty relaxed. Sometimes, I have a problem with what to do with my time. If i was smoking today, and off, I'd be at it all day, and that would give me "something to do" and my selfish mind would be occupie with the level of my high throughout the day. It's smooth sailing now and that is kind of dull! But that pushes me to get involved in other activities. No doubt I am more aware of things straight, huh -I though it was the opposite on pot, but I am able to figure things out better and keep things in better order. Already, there have been some very positive changes in my life. Okay, so here we go, let's see who can do it for 2006, all the way through!
hardchargher you sound good
-Mr B wrote
> Well its January 1, a day for resolutions. My moment is now.<
I hope you made it through day 1, may you never have to do that again. Seems you have gathered some good support advice, if I may add-
Try to keep your mind on the physical; the mind only wants to be occupied, there will be plenty of time later for self reflection. The mind also likes to be right, so dont dwell on what youre giving up, but what you will gain. The Lung Association says one joint is equal to one pack of cigarettes; the health benefits alone are enormous. Keep your routine simple.
You can take on the world later <smiling>.
-hardcharger wrote
> No doubt I am more aware of things straight, huh -I though it was the opposite on pot, but I am able to figure things out better and keep things in better order.<
Excellent observation, I used to tell folks that my pot use allowed my mind to slow down enough to see the trees through the forest; to see the beauty in people, etc. What a falsehood, I am more in tune now than I ever was high, congratulations on your continued recovery and personal growth, may 2006 bring you happiness.
> Well its January 1, a day for resolutions. My moment is now.<
I hope you made it through day 1, may you never have to do that again. Seems you have gathered some good support advice, if I may add-
Try to keep your mind on the physical; the mind only wants to be occupied, there will be plenty of time later for self reflection. The mind also likes to be right, so dont dwell on what youre giving up, but what you will gain. The Lung Association says one joint is equal to one pack of cigarettes; the health benefits alone are enormous. Keep your routine simple.
You can take on the world later <smiling>.
-hardcharger wrote
> No doubt I am more aware of things straight, huh -I though it was the opposite on pot, but I am able to figure things out better and keep things in better order.<
Excellent observation, I used to tell folks that my pot use allowed my mind to slow down enough to see the trees through the forest; to see the beauty in people, etc. What a falsehood, I am more in tune now than I ever was high, congratulations on your continued recovery and personal growth, may 2006 bring you happiness.
>hardchargher you sound good
fooled you, i'm a sick man, stuff has a strong hold on me
fooled you, i'm a sick man, stuff has a strong hold on me
so you are a good actor, sorry for the compliment. your sick, your sick.
Mr. B-
So did you cut down on the way to your quit date, or did you smoke like a fiend, fearing the end? Or did you just keep up your normal routine?
Just curious.
So did you cut down on the way to your quit date, or did you smoke like a fiend, fearing the end? Or did you just keep up your normal routine?
Just curious.
Honestly, I didn't really cut back. Things were pretty normal with my smoking habit. And on new years eve, I didn't go out and buy any mainly because I was tight on money.
Don't get me wrong if I hadn't planned on quitting I would have just smoked that night and skipped the bars. After all, I am a student who is ALWAYS low on money and in the past NEVER low on pot (maybe now this will reverse).
Cheers!
Still Straight Mr, B
Don't get me wrong if I hadn't planned on quitting I would have just smoked that night and skipped the bars. After all, I am a student who is ALWAYS low on money and in the past NEVER low on pot (maybe now this will reverse).
Cheers!
Still Straight Mr, B
