i have not been here in alittle while,tonight iam despret i am going through hell.i just took a 20mg oxicontin hoping to ease the pain iam over my limit for today i did not no what ele to do.I have tears in my eyes because im afraid i cant beat this,please help is all i could think of i will be here for awhile so i will respond.Ty for the concern Brent
Brent,
How long have you been taking Oxy? Are you a chronic pain patient wanting to stop or using for other reasons??? Tell us some more.
pm
How long have you been taking Oxy? Are you a chronic pain patient wanting to stop or using for other reasons??? Tell us some more.
pm
I have been using for about 5 yrs.It started just wanting to get high i have no issues with pain.I am seeing a doctor for this but at times i need more than that.My wife is a big help but never used i would like somone who has been there so they no exactly what im going through.Thank you very much for the response Brent
Brent,
Well hopefully someone addicted to Oxy who uses to get high or has in the past will chime in and offer you some support. Don't give up. Sometimes Friday nights are sort of quiet. I hope you get the help you need to get off. I have gone through Oxy w/d but I didn't use them to get high. I was physically addicted to them. I do know what w/d is like and it sure bites. I hope you get the support you need and get clean. You deserve free from the monkey on your back!
peace,
pm
Well hopefully someone addicted to Oxy who uses to get high or has in the past will chime in and offer you some support. Don't give up. Sometimes Friday nights are sort of quiet. I hope you get the help you need to get off. I have gone through Oxy w/d but I didn't use them to get high. I was physically addicted to them. I do know what w/d is like and it sure bites. I hope you get the support you need and get clean. You deserve free from the monkey on your back!
peace,
pm
you headed for Hell Bud, How you get from a doc without pain
Hey Brent.
I was just wondering about you earlier today. As a matter of fact, if you look down the page a little further, I started a thread asking about you. Just hang in there, okay? It is slow on here sometimes during the weekend. Never quit asking for help. I am learning that myself. Be grateful for your loving wife. To have her stand by your side through this says so much about your character and hers. You are lucky to have each other.
Take care, Brent.
I was just wondering about you earlier today. As a matter of fact, if you look down the page a little further, I started a thread asking about you. Just hang in there, okay? It is slow on here sometimes during the weekend. Never quit asking for help. I am learning that myself. Be grateful for your loving wife. To have her stand by your side through this says so much about your character and hers. You are lucky to have each other.
Take care, Brent.
hmmm,you say your in pain,then you have no issues with pain,is it that your over your limit taking the med,as if overdose,or your over your limit with your addiction stress,im not getting this to clear,but if you overdose,which an extra 20mg doubt do much ,but if your concerned bout goin cold turkey,gettin high on those for 5 yrs ,well yea your in your a hell of a ride,but ya gotta want it,be well
I am not here to judge why you got addicted, just know that we have or are all going through in different ways and stages. You are not alone. If you want to wd ct then read all you can, if you want the help of a dr, there are ones that can help you with sub. whatever, it is good that you are reaching out!!!
You can do it!!!! All the Best .....Shel
You can do it!!!! All the Best .....Shel
the doc that iam seeing he is a therapist he is the 1 who is weaning me.Prior to that i had a dealer not a doc,the pain i was refering to was WD.Roger i dont know if you where trying to be hurtful or helpful.But please understand that I love every1 in my life including the ones on this site who are trying to help.I am struggling all the time with WDS and iam tierd of hurting every1,so if i come across confused its because iam.Thank you all, Brent
Hi and sorry to hear you are feeling bad, all part of the process, depression etc. Only way to get rid of it is as we all know and that is to stop.
Please try and stop worrrying about it just now, while you are high, it's not worth it because you cannot do anything about it at the time. The time to worry about it and think about stopping is when you are straight, You might as well just go with it as it is now. Worrying will make it worse, I used to worry and plan to stop using once I was high. That was no good, it was when I was straight I had to drill it in my head, the damage I was doing and what I could do. I did my own head in thinking about all the bad. So please just try and ignore all the bad feelings and go with it. Hope I am right, it worked for me anyway. Take care, be happy and be alright.xxxx
Please try and stop worrrying about it just now, while you are high, it's not worth it because you cannot do anything about it at the time. The time to worry about it and think about stopping is when you are straight, You might as well just go with it as it is now. Worrying will make it worse, I used to worry and plan to stop using once I was high. That was no good, it was when I was straight I had to drill it in my head, the damage I was doing and what I could do. I did my own head in thinking about all the bad. So please just try and ignore all the bad feelings and go with it. Hope I am right, it worked for me anyway. Take care, be happy and be alright.xxxx
Hey Brother!!!
Man,hang in there dude.I am on day 7 of cleanliness.I just went thru my "hell week".And make no mistake,it was hell.Oxy WD.But I had to live it,feel it,and as I am seeing more clearly by the day,just DO it!.IThe only way out of it is thru it.Clarity will come,symptoms WILL go,and life you will find is still there to live.Do you have anybody you can lean on for help,outside of this site. We don't know each other from Adam,but I am prayin for you.And although the reality of what you are going thru is exclusive to you,I can relate.Hang tough Bro,you CAN,when you are ready.
Joe
Man,hang in there dude.I am on day 7 of cleanliness.I just went thru my "hell week".And make no mistake,it was hell.Oxy WD.But I had to live it,feel it,and as I am seeing more clearly by the day,just DO it!.IThe only way out of it is thru it.Clarity will come,symptoms WILL go,and life you will find is still there to live.Do you have anybody you can lean on for help,outside of this site. We don't know each other from Adam,but I am prayin for you.And although the reality of what you are going thru is exclusive to you,I can relate.Hang tough Bro,you CAN,when you are ready.
Joe
hey brent,i know how you feel bud ive been were your at way to many times,oxycontin was my drug of choice also,what your going through makes me just cringe to even think about it because i know all to well how it feels,personally if you can do it just quit cold turkey take your a** wopin and be done with it,i know thats not what you want to hear but thats the only way to do it as far as i'm concerned,just keep telling yourself this is the begging of a new life and this pain [wd] that im going through is just a step in the right direction,i had to learn the hard way to so don't think your alone,also your mind is going to try to play tricks on you,just stay foucsed and you will be alright..................vinny.
Brent Im just making a suggestion.Im pn suboxone & it has worked great for me.There are a couple on here that used that as a tool in getting recovery.Its not a cure all but for some people it gives them that extra help so they can get a support system in place.I am going to suggest looking it up on the net,.get all the info that you can,than talk it over with your Dr & THAN deside if its for you.I could never taper(i always cheated)& C/T well I wont even go there.....mj
Joe,thanks for the reply this is my2 time doing this last time i went CT and it was hell.Now im being weaned by a doc because iam so scared of going through that again but im starting to wonder if that is the way to go.Everyday i want more and i have some control on when i get them and that does not help.Iam 32 been with my wife since iwas 14 she is a god send to me she is my rock i lean on her everyday and never been turned away.I have 2 daughters who are my life and motivation they are 12 and 6.And pepole like your self continue to give me hope.I wish nothing but the best for you and yours Thank you so much, Brent
Things happen for a reason,man.YOUR HISTORY AND SITUATION SOUNDS ALMOST PARALELL TO MINE!!!!!!I am 36,single Dad of 3 girls,and have tried to ween recently myself.Of course,as you can relate,to NO AVAIL. I FINALLY grabbed my will,had enough,called my boss,told him what was up,and got a weak to Detox.I am grateful for the fact he gave it to me,and he appreciated my honesty.Hopefully,something close to my boss can be there for you.
Now I am broke,but I am further along than I have been in quite some time.Still hurts,I still get scared for no reason,but as I said,the only way out of it is to go thru it.And I am going thru it.
Lean on those you can,trust in those that truly love you,and keep in mind,it is OK to make yourself vulnerable,ask for help.Look for help,cause if you do not seek,you will not find.I stumbled on this website tonight,and our paths crossed!
Again,we don't know each other,but we are linked by this deadly diseases that we cannot get rid of. But we do have the power within to control.DON'T GIVE UP!
Joe
Now I am broke,but I am further along than I have been in quite some time.Still hurts,I still get scared for no reason,but as I said,the only way out of it is to go thru it.And I am going thru it.
Lean on those you can,trust in those that truly love you,and keep in mind,it is OK to make yourself vulnerable,ask for help.Look for help,cause if you do not seek,you will not find.I stumbled on this website tonight,and our paths crossed!
Again,we don't know each other,but we are linked by this deadly diseases that we cannot get rid of. But we do have the power within to control.DON'T GIVE UP!
Joe
