I will always love my daughter and support her in every way I can. I believe in the power of love and a desire to be clean. As much as we hurt as parents when we find out our children are using - our love for them is so much stronger.
LOVE CONQUERS ALL
Do you know, child of mine, how you broke my heart.
Do you know, child of mine, why did you ever start?
My insides quivered, please let this be a lie!
Not again, I can't do it; please help me stand.
My soul aches so, pain permeates inside.
Dear child of mine, wish you would have ran.
Another night with little sleep, can't shut off my mind.
Thoughts tear at my dreams, refusing me peace.
Wish I could just turn back time, just push rewind.
Stop all this grief, close my eyes, lose the beast.
Oh, dear God, I can't pick myself up any more
You gotta help, my legs are weak, my spirit broke.
Just taking my next breath is a deathly chore.
Sorrow is just too hard to take, I can't stay afloat.
I close my eyes and try to remember yesterday,
I held you in my arms and you smelled so sweet
Happy child, beautiful girl, then life got in the way.
You ran into a merciless drug you couldn't beat.
I wait now for the track lines to disappear,
I wait now for your sweet spirit to return.
Trying so with all my soul to hide my fear.
Praying so hard my knees begin to burn.
Will the light shine for us again tomorrow?
It hurts to see you so wounded and scared.
Very soon, there will be no more sorrow.
Your momma's here, I'm not going anywhere.
God hears a mother's plea on bended knee,
He feels our pain and sees our tears.
He hears my pleas, I know He won't let it be.
Love conquers all, and will set you free.
Do you know, child of mine, how you lifted my heart.
Do you know, child of mine, I loved you right from the start.
Beautiful! Thanks for sharing! How well I remember those sleepless nights!
Love,
Susan
Love,
Susan
Beautiful.
brought tears to my eyes
It's just so sad, isn't it? HERoin has stolen my son from me. He is sick. He is unable and unwilling to leave HERoin. There is nothing I can do. It eats my soul. I keep telling myself "I'm ready." Ready to let him fall deep and hard. I've lost ten years. I may lose a life(time). I have to trust the process. I have to believe that one day he will not only fly, he will soar! I just hope, for my sake and the sake of all others that love him, that he will still be physically present on this earth. That I will be able to look into his eyes and see them sparkle. That his grin will spread ear to ear with a new found joy for living free from HERoin. I have to believe.
Ohhhh, I wish i would not have read this at the office, but i did and tears running down my cheeks. I just want to see my daughter, is she alive? First time in her sweet life she wasn't home for Christmas. Your words are my thoughts, thank you for sharing. I wish you luck and I wish we could connect. Strength in numbers.
Beautiful. It brought tears to my eyes as well. I don't know what it's like for my mom to watch me live day by day hour by hour. We chase the same demon together. The only time we ever had a relationship is now but only because we use together. I want to break this chain of addiction so that my only child doesn't have to watch me belittle myself in drugs and she won't have to follow in my footsteps and become an addict herself. My heart goes out to u.
I hope it's okay that I copied my poem here from the Crack forum. I just want to let you know that not all of us are clueless to the pain we cause. Most of us are in a vicious vicious cycle. We have so much guilt and are so humiliated by our choices and the only way we know how to deal with them is to hide - we use. Then we feel so much guilt and are........etc. We stop using. Get sober. Then we screw up and think "We'll, I've failed and disappointed everyone again." Feel guilt......etc. And we're right back. I certainly am not saying that this is everybody's experience but there are a plethora of us that do. I did write another poem. It's in the crack forum. One day they will find out where this misfiring in our brain comes from and help us. I hope. Addictions are Huge money makers. I'm so sorry for your pain. So sorry. I pray for you is for the peace that passes all understanding.
Please Lord Please
I hear the cries in my head from family and friends. '
Please Lord please help her don't let her life end.
Please Lord please lift her from this decent into hell.
Please Lord please help her I know you can tell.
Please Lord please hear as we pray.
Give her victory dear Lord, take her addictions away.
You hear her beg, plead and barter with You.
Her decent into hell is something we all view.
Release her dear Lord these are things we all pray.
Please Lord please take her addictions away.
We love her too much to watch her decend,
further into this hell let the healing begin.
These things dear Lord we lift up in prayer.
You are the great Healer the triune the three in one and not just breath in the air.
With one touch, one moment with ease
You can heal her give her victory from this dreaded disease.'
I pray this for your son
Please Lord Please
I hear the cries in my head from family and friends. '
Please Lord please help her don't let her life end.
Please Lord please lift her from this decent into hell.
Please Lord please help her I know you can tell.
Please Lord please hear as we pray.
Give her victory dear Lord, take her addictions away.
You hear her beg, plead and barter with You.
Her decent into hell is something we all view.
Release her dear Lord these are things we all pray.
Please Lord please take her addictions away.
We love her too much to watch her decend,
further into this hell let the healing begin.
These things dear Lord we lift up in prayer.
You are the great Healer the triune the three in one and not just breath in the air.
With one touch, one moment with ease
You can heal her give her victory from this dreaded disease.'
I pray this for your son
