I've spoke a few times recently about different things that have happened to me which tell me its time to call it a day. Well today was the final straw, basically I should be homeless by now and I'm not. I'm the type of person that will push things to the limit until people have no option but to do something dramatic and final. Instead of living by the rules of my house I will bend them as much as I can, until things inevitably come on top. Last November I should have been kicked out for using but I was given another chance by the skin of my teeth. Instead of taking heed of this opportunity, again, I thought I had got away with things and decided to carry on as I was. So last week it came on top again, but rather than surrender I chose to fight it and luckily I am still here. It doesn't bear thinking about what would have happened if I got kicked out. I need to look at the various things that have gone on over the past 10 days and realise that I cannot carry on this way without things coming to a head. I'm not going to wait until I am homeless or on remand to correct the madness I am going to deal with this before it gets to that stage. It is my birthday this week and that seems like a good time to finally accept that drugs will win everytime and I just cannot compete. Peace
Never give up....Never, Never Give up. Wise words from Winston Churchill. Pray to your HP Listen for his answer but don't ever give up. You never know when you will actually break on through to the other side. I am making my self laugh with all my quotations. You can do this buddy don't give up. You've got a friend.
Jane
Jane
Danny- I want you to know why I respond to you. I have a beautiful friend that ended up dying while in jail detoxing from heroin. She is gorgeous, loving, caring and most of the world will never know what they lost when loosing her. I don't want one other sole to die that way. She is my best friend and I can't wait to see her again but I will. I chose to stop using because I saw the ultimate end if I stayed on the path I was on. Don't stay there. I may not know you personally but I believe you are a good person and have a reason to be on this earth. Stay here and post and try to get better don't lay down and let the drugs win.
jane
jane
Hi danny well by the sound of things you are feeling a little down dont be so hard on yourself man you can do this look even if you are still using the main thing is that you are thinking about giving up just been on the board shows that you are wanting to give up and you will when you are ready i hope it is soon as this crap takes too many lives take care anyway and keep posting you will get there sue
You know what I don't feel at all down, in fact at the moment I am feeling blessed. I give thanks to the both of you for taking time out to write me, furthermore, without a doubt my using is coming to an end. I've always been a touch sceptical when people talk about higher power, but the way things have gone recently I may have to reconsider. Anyway thanks again. Peace
