So I'm new to N/A. I have to admit I still am very uncomfortable and haven't really felt connected yet. I realize this is a problem on my end. Someone asked me if I wanted to say anything at a meeting. I said sure. I wasn't scared or intimidated. I'm not shy. But for some reason whenever I try to speak about myself to anyone I freeze up. I don't know what to say. It's hard for me to find words to describe what I want to say. I have so much to say. I have so many things kept secretly inside of me that I want to share so badly. I always acted like I was so open and honest with the people in my life but there is so much about my past that nobody knows. Sometimes I feel like two different people. Now that I'm starting to feel better about myself I want to open up and put it all out there. Everything. I don't know why I'm having such a hard time. I'm stuck and I want to move forward. I hope this makes sense. Maybe i'll try to explain more later.
Shelly
That was a pretty nice share you just did, Shelley.
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I second what Kat just said....
Thanks for sharing, Shelly and I could relate a lot to the feelings you just expressed. I found a sponsor and a couple of great friends in the fellowship that I took my guard down and shared with and what a freedom I was rewarded.....
Pray and ask your HP to guide you....
Big smooches,
Stacey
Thanks for sharing, Shelly and I could relate a lot to the feelings you just expressed. I found a sponsor and a couple of great friends in the fellowship that I took my guard down and shared with and what a freedom I was rewarded.....
Pray and ask your HP to guide you....
Big smooches,
Stacey
Good for you! It takes time to be in a zone where we feel we can share, doesn't it? I know I lurked here for years and now I can't stop posting, but, it took so long to feel comfortable and welcomed.
Great job!
Take care~Lucky
Great job!
Take care~Lucky
You're doing brilliant Shelly.When the times ready you will share what you need to.
Find a good sponsor, someone that you trust. I learned the hard way that anything you share at a meeting, be ready to have it repeated back to you by a stranger. Think of anything you say in a meeting is at a "group level."
Meaning, anything you share in the rooms may not always STAY in the rooms. My gf and I were just talking about this last night; things she shared came back through that person's best friend, etc.
I applaud your growth, but remember, these are human beings. I just don't want you to learn the hard way.
Meaning, anything you share in the rooms may not always STAY in the rooms. My gf and I were just talking about this last night; things she shared came back through that person's best friend, etc.
I applaud your growth, but remember, these are human beings. I just don't want you to learn the hard way.
See, that's another thing. Has anyone ever had something they said in N/A come back to them outside of a meeting? I think that's the lowest thing someone can do. Most of us have major trust issues to begin with and then to have that trust violated by someone who should be able to understand you the most is disgusting. I remember when I was in rehab years ago there were these two college students. The rehab I went to was in a college town so these two went to the same school but didn't know each other. One was a big time football player and the staff treated him like he was above everyone else there. The other was a quiet art student. I became friends with the girl and we decided to go to a meeting together after rehab. A couple weeks later she called me at home crying because she was walking on campus and the football player and some of his friends started calling her a junkie! I know these kind of things happen in the real world but as an addict I can't imagine calling out another addict and making fun of them.
