i use heroin, not pain pills, but this board seems to be the most active, and i really, deperately need some help.
i have been using about once a week for quite a while, and i really want to stop the cycle. i can get up to about 7 days, and then i break and use again. i never go through withdrawals, and i think this only makes things worse, because i have no consequence to deal with after i am finished using.
i don't know if this seems severe or not, but i feel like hell about it and i keep going over and over in my head why i can't seem to just stop. why i can't just go two weeks instead of one, or three weeks, or four.
also, i have been doing this with my boyfriend and i am afraid he is going to end up like me if we keep doing this together. i think that that alone should be enough to make me stop, but for some reason, it isn't.
i love him with all my heart but still i can't seem to stop doing drugs, even if it is to save him. i want to quit for good and i NEED to quit for good but i just can't seem to get over that one week hump. i think i need something else to occupy my head space, but i don't know what that something is.
please, someone help. this is driving my crazy and i don't know what to do.
i can't tell my parents because they would be crushed and i can't afford to go to a therapist.....i'm afraid of going to NA meetings because my father attends them regularly and i don't want to risk seeing him at one.
please help.
anyone.
thank you
k
Hi Kal,
Just jumped on the website, and read your post. I used heroin many years ago. I had a pretty good habit going. But thank God some people intervened, and put me in a rehab. I have not been clean since, but I have never used heroin again. I am clean now though.
My question is, what is your drug problem? If you only use once a week, you have no habit to speak of. I don't mean to sound as if it's okay to use heroin once weekly, when in fact, it only takes one overdose to kill a person, but you sound like you just want to party once a week. It isn't hard to stop using when you aren't addicted, and only use occasionally. That's why I question, what's the problem with your stopping? Just stop. I wish for me that I had your problem.
But explain, please, so maybe I'll understand.
Thanks,
Susan
Just jumped on the website, and read your post. I used heroin many years ago. I had a pretty good habit going. But thank God some people intervened, and put me in a rehab. I have not been clean since, but I have never used heroin again. I am clean now though.
My question is, what is your drug problem? If you only use once a week, you have no habit to speak of. I don't mean to sound as if it's okay to use heroin once weekly, when in fact, it only takes one overdose to kill a person, but you sound like you just want to party once a week. It isn't hard to stop using when you aren't addicted, and only use occasionally. That's why I question, what's the problem with your stopping? Just stop. I wish for me that I had your problem.
But explain, please, so maybe I'll understand.
Thanks,
Susan
