Okay, so the weekend was awesome and I managed to get a few things done, get to some meetings, relax, etc., and today I wake up just plain restless, judgemental, and fully prepared to take your inventory. And I recognize it. And it won't friggin' go AWAY!!!
I'm closing in on a year--and yes, I know you are tired of reading/hearing it because I am tired of TALKING ABOUT IT for chrissakes!! JEEZE! I know it's not going to make one bit of difference the day before, the day of, or the day after, but I've been waiting for this for a damned YEAR! When I was one week I wanted a month; when I was a month, I wanted two. I want to be PAST the damned year so I can get on with living already! Don't tell me "One Day At A Time," because I KNOW it. It's like I need more meetings at this point than ever before! And THAT is cutting a swath across my serenity, too. Grrrr.
This TOO, shall pass... Like a FREAKIN' barbed-wire turd!
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............it's pefectly o.k.It's called life.I can think about all the times I woke up like that and didn't recognize it.
Some days I'm a b****.On those days I try and avoid any situation that I might have to clean up later.It doesn't always work but it's a hell of a lot better.
I'm not the Dali Lama.I'm having a human experience and it's not always graceful.
You know the drill................gratitude list.
Have a nice day.........That should really put you over the edge.Too bad I can't post a smiley face.LOL
skg.Thank you for sharing. Be grateful,be thankful, for you have done a lot for the people who come to this board and don't ever lose sight of that. I can't speak for everyone but I am NOT tired of reading about your sobriety and the amount of time you have in. It gives me courage and strength to continue with my recovery. Take care and calm down.
SKG...thank you for being humble enough to share this. To think I thought you were "cured". :) Your disease is pissed you are coming up on a big milestone! Hang in there, keep sharing, double-up on meetings if you have to, and no matter what...just don't drink. :) You know, all the good wisdom you've shared with me.
Hugs.
Hugs.
Smooches, SKG...
LMAO...I awoke restless, irritable and discontent myself and to be honest, it's been this way for a few days now. And, I too KNOW what to do but I guess I like sitting on the pity pot because I wouldn't take action and use the tools I have and do the things necessary to get out of SELF. So, I surrendered this morning, I prayed more, then I asked for help, I did a gratitude list, I just called another alcoholic and I am going to call a few more so I can share what I am going through right now.
For me, I get comfortable and when these feelings of restlessness come on, I have found from experience by getting into action, by reaching out to others, especially my sponsor and helping a newcomer or two, these feelings disappear quickly......Faith without works is dead....
Call your sponsor and then find a newcomer to reach your hand out to and ask your HP to help you stay in today....
xoxo
Stacey
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LMAO...I awoke restless, irritable and discontent myself and to be honest, it's been this way for a few days now. And, I too KNOW what to do but I guess I like sitting on the pity pot because I wouldn't take action and use the tools I have and do the things necessary to get out of SELF. So, I surrendered this morning, I prayed more, then I asked for help, I did a gratitude list, I just called another alcoholic and I am going to call a few more so I can share what I am going through right now.
For me, I get comfortable and when these feelings of restlessness come on, I have found from experience by getting into action, by reaching out to others, especially my sponsor and helping a newcomer or two, these feelings disappear quickly......Faith without works is dead....
Call your sponsor and then find a newcomer to reach your hand out to and ask your HP to help you stay in today....
xoxo
Stacey
Well, you'll all be happy to know that I've gone to a meeting--there were over 40 people in there today (usually we have about 20+ on Mondays)! After sharing some ESH about today's Daily Reflections, a couple of the regulars came up and we chatted, and things are better. Some days I'm REALLY grateful for meetings, but this one I NEEDED. MY HP talks to me using other peoples' lips and words or actions sometimes--I suspect He/She/It always did, but there are some times when the message is more poignant that others, you know what I mean?
So a new person came in (directly out of rehab) sharing about how ALLOWING her HP in has show her so many new ways that He/She/It communicates with her and I had to smile. I guess I forget how absolutely AWESOME and life-changing that first realization is: That MY HP IS there for me if I'll just ask--and let Him/Her/It take the wheel..
I am SOOOO blessed to have found AA.
Thanks, everyone.
So a new person came in (directly out of rehab) sharing about how ALLOWING her HP in has show her so many new ways that He/She/It communicates with her and I had to smile. I guess I forget how absolutely AWESOME and life-changing that first realization is: That MY HP IS there for me if I'll just ask--and let Him/Her/It take the wheel..
I am SOOOO blessed to have found AA.
Thanks, everyone.
I find that sitting on the porch and throwing rocks at passerbys works. LOLOL...Kidding. Violence never solves anything. :-)
Hope you are feeling better.
Hope you are feeling better.
Don't tell me "One Day At A Time," because I KNOW it.
OK then, how about TIME TAKES TIME.
Everyone gets bad days whether they're in recovery or not. I'll tell you what I used to tell my BFF...quit whining.
then I'd say smooches to make it better.
OK then, how about TIME TAKES TIME.
Everyone gets bad days whether they're in recovery or not. I'll tell you what I used to tell my BFF...quit whining.
then I'd say smooches to make it better.
Glad you went to a meeting, Shane and found some peace...funny how God speaks through so many different people and all we have to do is be open and willing to hear the answers.....
Ahhhh, and Miss Katbird sharing her words of wisdom should make anybody feel better
You are exactly where you are supposed to be and I do believe we go through the dips so we can really appreciate the ups....
xoxo
Stacey
Ahhhh, and Miss Katbird sharing her words of wisdom should make anybody feel better
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You are exactly where you are supposed to be and I do believe we go through the dips so we can really appreciate the ups....
xoxo
Stacey
Gidday Skg
Just allow yourself to enjoy the day for what it is a great day of your recovery....the jump up and shouter in you wants to celebrate sobriety and the humble AAer wants to one day at a time the day,..... just be you and if that means a little dance or two good on ya
The thing is if you keep holding the two approaches to the day then after it you may have 1 resentment about the day eg i allowed myself to celebrate or no one acknowledged the day for me etc
Im not saying all this will happen im just saying what i have seen happen and experienced
Whatever happens you deserve a pat on the back for a job well done
light and love Zac
Just allow yourself to enjoy the day for what it is a great day of your recovery....the jump up and shouter in you wants to celebrate sobriety and the humble AAer wants to one day at a time the day,..... just be you and if that means a little dance or two good on ya
The thing is if you keep holding the two approaches to the day then after it you may have 1 resentment about the day eg i allowed myself to celebrate or no one acknowledged the day for me etc
Im not saying all this will happen im just saying what i have seen happen and experienced
Whatever happens you deserve a pat on the back for a job well done
light and love Zac
I think it's brilliant that you felt that way, recognised it, owned it, shared it and didn't give in to it.
