Sometimes I wonder when all is said and done What I and my life will be like. No pills,
no Sub, and no weekly Dr. visit. I dream of that day several times a day. There are so many things I want to do.
My husband and I want to have another baby, I think that is way I want that day to come so bad.
We want to move into another house, but right now we are just focused on trying to get heathly.
You know that song for Disney "When Dream's come true" that just popped in my head LOL.
What are some of your dreams when you are clean and sober ?
Marina...you're starting to live your dream. Be very proud of yourself and be very patient. It all takes time. You didn't get addicted over night, you won't be "cured" over night. Look how far you've come...
My dreams? Everything is so intertwined right now that I'm not sure. I just know that I want to be the person that I was suppose to be. The mom, the wife and the daughter that got lost.
Love you
Cowgirl
My dreams? Everything is so intertwined right now that I'm not sure. I just know that I want to be the person that I was suppose to be. The mom, the wife and the daughter that got lost.
Love you
Cowgirl
Oh, yes, remembering back fondly, I think I wanted to be... an addict - NOT! Sorry for the sarcasm, it's been a rough one. I always knew that I wanted to help people, I wasn't sure how and I really felt kind of uncomfortable, unaccepted around them (childhood insecurities-ha). I still want to help folks but sometimes I wonder if I'm to ever heal myself. I've been forced to re-think my plans and goals and it's terrifying - one hand hand I'm glad for the opportunity to re-invent myself, but I'm scared to death of what it'll take to get there. Maybe I'll train for a new profession - any ideas?
My counselor asked me today what my strengths and weaknesses are. I stumbled for words! I told him, I have no idea, because I am constantly under the influence.I have PERCEIVED strengths and weaknesses, but who knows what they will be when I am clean?
So my dream is to find out who I really am! I have confidence that I'll be ok.
Marina, I love that you have hopes and dreams in mind for your drug-free future. That inspires hope in us all.
So my dream is to find out who I really am! I have confidence that I'll be ok.
Marina, I love that you have hopes and dreams in mind for your drug-free future. That inspires hope in us all.
Thak you all !
Cowgirl I want you to know that your post about discovering why you started to
use pushed me into thinking about why I started to use. Ya, I know what it is
and when it dawned on me I felt sick to my stomach. I now can start to heal
the real problem. Thank for that post, you have know idea how you helped me.
Thank you from the very bottom of my heart.
Cowgirl I want you to know that your post about discovering why you started to
use pushed me into thinking about why I started to use. Ya, I know what it is
and when it dawned on me I felt sick to my stomach. I now can start to heal
the real problem. Thank for that post, you have know idea how you helped me.
Thank you from the very bottom of my heart.
You're welcome, honey. It's a painful process but one we need to do in order to heal on the inside.
Have a great day.
Cowgirl
Have a great day.
Cowgirl
Cowgirl ~
you too !
you too !
