Thinking of you today. I know it must be a tough day for you.
I'm sorry for all you've been through yet hopeful for your future.
Take care, Amy.
Loving you too Amy. Today and tomorrow, know you and yours are in my heart and prayers.
xxoo my dear, Beck
xxoo my dear, Beck
Amy, YGM
xoxoxo my dear friends.
Thank you for remembering our warrior.
Amy,
I just wanted you to know, that you are in my thoughts and prayers today.
Michelle
I just wanted you to know, that you are in my thoughts and prayers today.
Michelle
Hi Amy,
I have been contemplating posting to you for days now. I decided to go ahead and let you know that you are in my thoughts and I so admire your courage.
Sometimes words can't even begin to tell you how much I wish I could ease your pain. It seems that no matter what I say could minimize your deep heart ache about your beautiful baby boy Jack your Jack....your warrior.
I will never say that I know how you feel or even understand it. I don't and I don't think anyone really can unless they experience a loss like that.
One thing that I do believe with all my heart is that your little man is with you always and he watches over you and helps you in so many ways.
Mothers Day for most of us is a reflection upon our triumphs and sorrows with our kids....this day must be so bittersweet for you.
I just want you to know that I am in complete and utter awe of your strength and you have such grace and I don't believe for a moment that we will ever forget your story. Such strength and hope.
God bless you Amy....I think of you often! Your kids are so lucky to have you.
PS. My Daughter just got engaged over the weekend to a man named Jack....I immediately thought of you and your family. I will be honored to welcome this man with your boys name into my family:-)
I have been contemplating posting to you for days now. I decided to go ahead and let you know that you are in my thoughts and I so admire your courage.
Sometimes words can't even begin to tell you how much I wish I could ease your pain. It seems that no matter what I say could minimize your deep heart ache about your beautiful baby boy Jack your Jack....your warrior.
I will never say that I know how you feel or even understand it. I don't and I don't think anyone really can unless they experience a loss like that.
One thing that I do believe with all my heart is that your little man is with you always and he watches over you and helps you in so many ways.
Mothers Day for most of us is a reflection upon our triumphs and sorrows with our kids....this day must be so bittersweet for you.
I just want you to know that I am in complete and utter awe of your strength and you have such grace and I don't believe for a moment that we will ever forget your story. Such strength and hope.
God bless you Amy....I think of you often! Your kids are so lucky to have you.
PS. My Daughter just got engaged over the weekend to a man named Jack....I immediately thought of you and your family. I will be honored to welcome this man with your boys name into my family:-)
Amy...
I don't have words, just know how much I admire and love you....
You and your family are in my prayers...I'm here for you, anytime...
(((soft hugs)))
xoxo
Stacey
I don't have words, just know how much I admire and love you....
You and your family are in my prayers...I'm here for you, anytime...
(((soft hugs)))
xoxo
Stacey
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Amy))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Me too Amy....(((((((HUG))))))
Ditto
again, xoxo to everyone.
Jack touched so many people, and as his mother I am so proud of that. At only 6 months old he did that. Just Jack and his strength did that.
Jack was dubbed Warrior for a reason. He made it through the most impossible of odds, he came 3 months early and made a liar and a believer out of every doctor that doubted him. Do you know he NEVER experienced apnea? Very often in preemies they stop breathing, especially as premature as Jack was. Nope, not Jack, he took every breath there was to take. He was a true Warrior.
I might offend some here, but really I don't care any more. It wasn't Jack that went away...no, it was God that took him, the selfish b******. Why? Don't know. Never ever will but will always wonder. We have mothers instint...from the day he was born so early I knew he would get through, every inch of me knew it. I knew he would survive. What I didn't know was Gods plan.
I'm not strong Kee Kee, I'm full of bitterness and resentment. I have no choice but to keep waking up every morning. I so appreciate you honoring Jacks name.
They say life goes on, and it does....its just a life I never imagined.
Gina, please speak Jacks name. As his mother, I am honored. I know I duck and weave with e-mails, its because I get so caught up with what I'm unloading on you....and I know I don't ever have to explain. Your patience is the true meaning of grace.
Jack touched so many people, and as his mother I am so proud of that. At only 6 months old he did that. Just Jack and his strength did that.
Jack was dubbed Warrior for a reason. He made it through the most impossible of odds, he came 3 months early and made a liar and a believer out of every doctor that doubted him. Do you know he NEVER experienced apnea? Very often in preemies they stop breathing, especially as premature as Jack was. Nope, not Jack, he took every breath there was to take. He was a true Warrior.
I might offend some here, but really I don't care any more. It wasn't Jack that went away...no, it was God that took him, the selfish b******. Why? Don't know. Never ever will but will always wonder. We have mothers instint...from the day he was born so early I knew he would get through, every inch of me knew it. I knew he would survive. What I didn't know was Gods plan.
I'm not strong Kee Kee, I'm full of bitterness and resentment. I have no choice but to keep waking up every morning. I so appreciate you honoring Jacks name.
They say life goes on, and it does....its just a life I never imagined.
Gina, please speak Jacks name. As his mother, I am honored. I know I duck and weave with e-mails, its because I get so caught up with what I'm unloading on you....and I know I don't ever have to explain. Your patience is the true meaning of grace.
hey there, Miss Redd.
I want to extend you a belated mother's day.
I recently read some research on SIDS, and it was related to apnea. Sometimes, when the neurological processes in the brain don't form, sids occurs. It usually happens between a certain age, and when the breathing centers in the brain never fully develop, they just don't breath again. The article stated that there is a certain time period for the part of the brain that tells us to breath develops, and sometimes, that doesn't form all of the way.
It could have been just one of those things that goes wrong, and no one is to blame. I know that God admires and respects you enormously, and would never hurt anyone intentionally.
You are my hero, and I hope that you have found some peace.
Huge fat hugs.
Kerry
I want to extend you a belated mother's day.
I recently read some research on SIDS, and it was related to apnea. Sometimes, when the neurological processes in the brain don't form, sids occurs. It usually happens between a certain age, and when the breathing centers in the brain never fully develop, they just don't breath again. The article stated that there is a certain time period for the part of the brain that tells us to breath develops, and sometimes, that doesn't form all of the way.
It could have been just one of those things that goes wrong, and no one is to blame. I know that God admires and respects you enormously, and would never hurt anyone intentionally.
You are my hero, and I hope that you have found some peace.
Huge fat hugs.
Kerry
I know Kerry, believe me when I say I've done my fair share of research on sids. I meant Jack never experienced apnea early in his struggle, his whole hospital stay. I thought that was behind us, he was blossoming into a beautiful little boy....a long long way from being so premature.
I should not have brought this up here. My head hears you Kerry, my heart does not.
I love you Amy! {{{{{{{{{{{{monster hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}
You have every right to voice your thoughts, here and anywhere.
I miss Jack too, I look at his picture alot...like you, wondering what could have been.
Know that he is watching over you and your family with the Angels...know that he loves you so much too.
Anger is still okay honey...don't let it all consume you though.
Don't forget to love those that can still feel your embrace.
God bless you sweet Warrior Jack!
God Bless You Amy!
You have every right to voice your thoughts, here and anywhere.
I miss Jack too, I look at his picture alot...like you, wondering what could have been.
Know that he is watching over you and your family with the Angels...know that he loves you so much too.
Anger is still okay honey...don't let it all consume you though.
Don't forget to love those that can still feel your embrace.
God bless you sweet Warrior Jack!
God Bless You Amy!
Amy, I don't blame you one bit for the harbouring those feelings of resentment and anger. How could you not? I can only imagine, I have suffered loss...but never on a level as you have.
You have a right to those feelings, I guess what I mean is that you do feel like that but you do go on for your family. That is the opitamy of strength.
God bless you sweetheart.
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You have a right to those feelings, I guess what I mean is that you do feel like that but you do go on for your family. That is the opitamy of strength.
God bless you sweetheart.
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Amy,
Our relationship with God is a very personal and specific one; just as our relationships with our earthly fathers are different for each of us, and indeed different for two siblings in the same family, We've been dealt different hands in this life and I wouldn't expect you to feel about your God as I do my God, any more than I would expect you to love your father or not because of how I feel about mine.
Don't worry about "ducking and weaving." It's difficult to maintain an air of attentive listening via email, so that's why I drop you the occasional line. Never feel you have to answer or explain. That's not why I write you. I just want to do what little I can to help you get to a point where life is possible, then bearable, and perhaps someday, also contain moments of clarity, peace and joy. In YOUR time, not mine.
I want to ask you something, but if you don't want to do this, I understand completely. I've never seen a picture of you holding Jack. If you would be willing to share, either here or in email, I'd very much like to see you two together.
Love,
Gina
Our relationship with God is a very personal and specific one; just as our relationships with our earthly fathers are different for each of us, and indeed different for two siblings in the same family, We've been dealt different hands in this life and I wouldn't expect you to feel about your God as I do my God, any more than I would expect you to love your father or not because of how I feel about mine.
Don't worry about "ducking and weaving." It's difficult to maintain an air of attentive listening via email, so that's why I drop you the occasional line. Never feel you have to answer or explain. That's not why I write you. I just want to do what little I can to help you get to a point where life is possible, then bearable, and perhaps someday, also contain moments of clarity, peace and joy. In YOUR time, not mine.
I want to ask you something, but if you don't want to do this, I understand completely. I've never seen a picture of you holding Jack. If you would be willing to share, either here or in email, I'd very much like to see you two together.
Love,
Gina
I dare one person to deny you the right to voice your feelings here Amy. You keep talking. It's about time kiddo.
xxxooo
xxxooo
