Reddog

BTW - Sorry your post got hijacked that way. Please hang in there. Just think of all the options available to you. One way or the other you CAN and WILL beat this thing.
Red, you are just having a bad bad day, they will come and go. If it would make you feel better, go to your PCP and get a CBC and Complete Physical. Tell them your fears. I am pretty positive you don't have Cancer, just drug related issues. I really think it would clear your mind of the negative thoughts about another illness going on.

Big Hug
Hope you had a good meeting tonight Red. Like Brooke says, hang in there...it does get better.

Take care bud
Lisa
reddog, relax babe.
i have finals, too right now - and it's got me all whacked out. did u register for next semester yet?

you've come a long way babe! and congrats for that.

Don't let that negative thinking trick you into thinking your life sucks.

Cant sleep so im back on. Yea I registered for next semester. I am only taking one class though. I am going to join a gym in two weeks and hit it every night. I think it will be an important step for me feeling better,

I got finals in two weeks skeeter. Boy i cant wait until they are done. I got three weeks clean tomorrow
Reddog:

You are doing great! I am always in awe of the action you are taking in your recovery. Keep on keeping on. You are a miracle.

Rachel
Keep on keeping on huh. I like the saying fake it until i make it.

I really think im going to write a book on my experiences, unlike one million little pieces my story is true. I never got arrested like the guy in that book but boy try going to accounting class full blown withdrawls and going to the board in front of 20 people. I dont know how i did it, i really dont

Red:

I always liked, "Suit up and show up." You definitely own the market on that one :-)

Rachel
what do you mean rachel, going to class sick as heck lol. Yup I did it, no idea how. Its a miracle. Boy im tired, maybe i will sleep now
Red:

I hope you sleep well, my friend. Sweet dreams.

Rachel
Yea pray for me, I need it

Night everyone, im signing off