Hey I am not new to this board as I did try to quit about 6 months ago and was doing quite well for about a month. I do see some names from the past and I am glad so many people are doing well. Well I will be going for another try. However I am not quite ready yet. Yes I do have a script for Lortab and I know I can't flush them or do without them. So I plan on setting a due date to my quitting. What I really wanted to say is for all you out there who are in the worst of your w/ds or even just in the craving stages DON'T GIVE UP JUST HOLD ON!!!! I don't know what made me go back. My grandfather got a prescription and he just offfered them to me and then my husbands friend had back surgery and gave me his whole prescription I even had it refilled!!!! It just seemed like I was being tested and I failed miserably. I have used some type of pain medication usually not higher than Lortab for over 15 years. When I did not have Lortab I used 222s which I could easily get from Canada. I normally take 10 222s 2-3 lortabs and now my newest addiction 3 somas a day. When I quit 6 months ago I was not taking this much but I seem to have upped my tolerance and am now far worse than I ever was before. Why the hell did I restart???? So do you hear me people those that are hanging on by a string don't give up it will only get worse if you go back. And don't think you can just take one and get that instant energy and high because it won't end there. Hopefully I can stop someone from a relapse and maybe you can help me when I begin my recovery again. I will be back. Thanks
Welcome back Roxy.
Rachel
Thank-you Rachael
I hope to continue reading daily and set a date sometime close to Thanksgiving. It would be really nice to be clean for Christmas this year. My mood swings are nuts!!
I hope to continue reading daily and set a date sometime close to Thanksgiving. It would be really nice to be clean for Christmas this year. My mood swings are nuts!!
Oh I forgot my goal during this time is to read Oprahs book club book I forgot the name but I know it is about someone who was addicted and came out of it. Has anyone read it? Or heard about it? I think I will try to find out the name it might be something other could benefit from be right back.
James Frey, "A Million Little Pieces."
Thanks I just went to Oprahs site and read a bunch of excerpts. Have you read it?
Yes. I tend to read a lot, especially recovery stories.
I love to read. I am in a book club in fact we were supposed to meet tonight but it got cancelled. We just read East of Eden, one of the classics. I realy liked it and would never have picked it up had it not been for the book club. Our next one is a spirtual enlightment book. My favorite was the five people you meet in heaven.
I am going to start, "Father Joe" tonight.
Have you read the five people you meet in heaven it is a quick read and it had a profound effect on me. Never heard of Father Joe
No, I haven't read that but have heard very good things about it.
Hey Roxy,
Hang in there. Good to see ya back. 5 people ya meet in heaven was great.
Love,
pm
Hang in there. Good to see ya back. 5 people ya meet in heaven was great.
Love,
pm
PM
Are you now? pregnant that is? I love your signature how inspirational. I am going to try to remember that when I get sober. As it is now I am always forgetting things and I know it is the drugs. My mom and I are having a tarot card party soon I am hoping someone comes thru to shake me up. What the hell is wrong with me I have a wonderful life why do I need these damn pills?
Are you now? pregnant that is? I love your signature how inspirational. I am going to try to remember that when I get sober. As it is now I am always forgetting things and I know it is the drugs. My mom and I are having a tarot card party soon I am hoping someone comes thru to shake me up. What the hell is wrong with me I have a wonderful life why do I need these damn pills?
That's the kicker. You don't need those pills. You just think you do. You'll get there. Be patient. You will not do it one minute before you are ready. So get real sick and tired of it and soon it will fall away. I'm not pregnant any longer. Unfortunately, m/c the baby in march of last year. Some things are not meant to be. But still happy to have been pregnant. Now my baby is a puppy. (smile)
You take care. Keep my signature at the bottom on your frige so when you start going through w/d you can remember you are the light. It will work out.
Love yourself.
pm
You take care. Keep my signature at the bottom on your frige so when you start going through w/d you can remember you are the light. It will work out.
Love yourself.
pm
story of my life
Roxy I think I remember you.I want to say welcome back to you.You sound like you have your plans made.Please know that this board will support & work through it with you.If I can be of any help please let me know OK?,,,,,,mj
