Hi Ruby, How are things with your cravings? You have already proved how strong you are by resisting joints when others are smoking. I hope you're giving yourself a lot of credit for that. I have days that are not too bad and then I have days where the cravings are so intense. After dinner is the worst time for me. When I'm angry or in pain with a headache are also difficult. I feel good about being in therapy again. I knew I needed it but just didn't want to go through giving my history to a new counsellor one more time. I'm being tempted with my weight watchers routine. It's my birthday next week and I've decided to allow myself a triple chocolate ice cream. My sis and I went out last night but I didn't go too wild. The cats are a big comfort to me. My 2 girl cats sit in my lap in the evening and give me their "kitty healing rays." I'm going through a med change for the migraines so I'm expecting to be a bit woozy for the next 2-3 weeks. Hoping the new med won't have such severe side effects. Hope all is going well with you.
Hi Rachael, Thanks for your concern. I am still here, still hanging in there and still having good days and bad days. Week 14 and still counting!
The last weekend was awful. My worst times for some reason are when I wake up in the morning. I am absolutely dying for a joint then, by the evening I have practically forgotten about it.
I had hoped that by week 14 I would be 'over it' but I guess that after 15+ years of smoking it is going to take some time to re-programme my brain. Am glad to hear that counselling is working out well for you. I have wondered recently whether I should go, I have dabbled with it in the past and had mixed experiences. I am still in the mind set that this is my problem and I will jolly well sort it out myself and that issues to do with my past have absolutely nothing to do with my greed for weed!
Oh and Rachael, snap! - it is my birthday next week as well. I shall be 36 on 24th October. I am celebrating by going out for a meal with my partner and some friends. In the past I would have started my day with a big fat one.........but I guess I just need to get over it eh? ;-)
Anyway, that's all from me for now, I am still around and still not giving in and still trying my best to keep as busy as possible to take my mind off things.
Best wishes
Ruby
The last weekend was awful. My worst times for some reason are when I wake up in the morning. I am absolutely dying for a joint then, by the evening I have practically forgotten about it.
I had hoped that by week 14 I would be 'over it' but I guess that after 15+ years of smoking it is going to take some time to re-programme my brain. Am glad to hear that counselling is working out well for you. I have wondered recently whether I should go, I have dabbled with it in the past and had mixed experiences. I am still in the mind set that this is my problem and I will jolly well sort it out myself and that issues to do with my past have absolutely nothing to do with my greed for weed!
Oh and Rachael, snap! - it is my birthday next week as well. I shall be 36 on 24th October. I am celebrating by going out for a meal with my partner and some friends. In the past I would have started my day with a big fat one.........but I guess I just need to get over it eh? ;-)
Anyway, that's all from me for now, I am still around and still not giving in and still trying my best to keep as busy as possible to take my mind off things.
Best wishes
Ruby
Hi Ruby, I'm glad to hear from you. You're doing great! I hope the good days continue to out number the bad ones. I'll be 52 on Oct 23. I saw my therapist yesterday and told her about my relationship with pot. She included some suggestions in my hypnotherapy session. When I think about a joint I'm supposed to give my mind a short, sharp message, "Forget it." She also encouraged me to bring my husband a long to therapy since most of my anger issues are relationship oriented. She asked me not to spend time in the evenings on this board. She said it would be better to do something unrelated to drugs. So I won't be posting as much. Only in the morning before work. I'm still having a bad run of headaches. I'm telling myself the next 2 weeks while I'm changing meds I'm bound to be a bit woozy. Spent most of the day yesterday reclining under a cool cloth. That's what helps the most. Keep up the good work.
Hi Rachael, great to hear that you are hanging in there.
I guess I have not been posting as much either because I want to stay away from all things related to drugs! I have had a good couple of days although the weekend is looming again!
Interestingly I had a dream about pot last night. I have been dreaming about it for weeks and in my dreams I smoke a lovely joint or find some on the pavement and can't believe my luck. In last night's dream a friend gave me a joint and I smoked half of it and then said '"actually I don't want the rest of this". I hope that this is some kind of sign that I am breaking free from the stuff!
Next week is week 15 for me and I cannot believe how far I have come. One thing that has changed for me is that in those first few weeks of quitting I did not think that I would ever look forward to or enjoy anything again. Well, I have proved myself wrong and am getting sooooo excited about Christmas, bonfire night and my birthday meal next week. So I guess it can be done and I am healing. Things are not quite the same but I am managing to find enjoyment with special occasions.
Good luck for the weekend, stay strong.
Ruby
I guess I have not been posting as much either because I want to stay away from all things related to drugs! I have had a good couple of days although the weekend is looming again!
Interestingly I had a dream about pot last night. I have been dreaming about it for weeks and in my dreams I smoke a lovely joint or find some on the pavement and can't believe my luck. In last night's dream a friend gave me a joint and I smoked half of it and then said '"actually I don't want the rest of this". I hope that this is some kind of sign that I am breaking free from the stuff!
Next week is week 15 for me and I cannot believe how far I have come. One thing that has changed for me is that in those first few weeks of quitting I did not think that I would ever look forward to or enjoy anything again. Well, I have proved myself wrong and am getting sooooo excited about Christmas, bonfire night and my birthday meal next week. So I guess it can be done and I am healing. Things are not quite the same but I am managing to find enjoyment with special occasions.
Good luck for the weekend, stay strong.
Ruby
Hi Ruby, Good on ya for continued strength and progress! That's great that pot doesn't seem as appealing now, even in your dreams. I am still in that phase where I'm having difficulty accessing joy and wondering if I'll ever be able to without the weed. Speaking of dreams, I had a doozy. I dreamt I was at a New Year's Eve party and Elvis was there. It was the young Elvis but he did have on a white suit and everything. He was hitting on me and I was starting to think I might go home with him. Then some people came in (no one I knew) who had pot and they were going outside to smoke a joint. I went with them. So I stayed with them outside even though I knew that would blow my chances with Elvis. I never did get a smoke and when I went back inside there were lots of women who had taken my place at Elvis's table. I was frustrated when I woke up but it did give my sister and I a big laugh....... I had my second hypnotherapy session last week and my counsellor gave me a tape that she made during our session. I've been listening to it after dinner when my cravings are the strongest. The weekends still seem to be the toughest for me. I had a serious desire to call my connection last night, so I put on the tape and gave my mind "that short, sharp message, Just Forget It." I did feel better afterwards. My husband D put me to the test too. He likes to spend when he's in his hypo-manic phase. I told him we only had money for groceries and petrol. He came home with books, maps and Xmas presents. I said, "Didn't you hear me when I explained that we don't have money for this?" His response was, "I put it on the credit card." I felt very angry. This was the credit card I had taken all of our savings to pay down. I told him I was upset but didn't act out. I'm hoping we can have a therapy session together in 2 weeks. My therapist told me he needs to be on an allowance. Hopefully she can help us sort that out. I hate to be his keeper and only let him have the eftpos card when he needs petrol or goes grocery shopping but it looks like that is what is going to happen.... I'm going in to town to see a movie and have dinner with D. We're celebrating my BD a couple of days early. I'm still saving that treat of a triple chocolate ice cream for the day. Sometimes chocolate gives me a headache but I haven't had any since I started weight watchers in March. So I'm willing to risk it. I'm switching to the new migraine med and hoping it will be an improvement. Have a good week and keep up the good work.
