Not much really..yest.i got my mdone from my clinic..met a good mate nearby..now i hadnt seen him in an age so i walk off chatting...guess were hes off to ..the needle xchange..i know if i was goin near there it might be trouble..but nonetheless walked up to it chatting away.We get there and at this xchange you can get yer works and have a turn on in the premises with all proper kit..yer given bout an hr.in yer compartment...so my hearts f***ing racing...i can see the dealers up the road ..im outside the bleedin xchange...will i wont i..f***!!!...then this really haggard looking girl bumps up..shes all jaundice and rough lookin...this just turned me right of...said brief goodbyes and speed walked to me bus.I know curiosity killed the cat and all that ..but only for that Hep C addict i probobly woudve had a score..i was liked on autopilot..just thinking bout the smack..lucky i snapped out..Take care all.....Davey
Good for you Davey. Its one of them crappy tests that life throws at ya and you passed it with flying colours. Well done you!!
You oughta be dam proud of yourself mate!! Its apparetly hard without it being right under your nose!!
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You oughta be dam proud of yourself mate!! Its apparetly hard without it being right under your nose!!
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yep totally agree x
Me too, proud of you Davey...
Da*n, Davey........that had to be tough........good on you being so strong.
That chick popped up for a reason........no co-inky-dinks in life.
Good ya shared too........I'll tell ya I don't know if I could have left.
****BTW, what is it with how ya can have a place to use.......I've read about that.
Like a legal place to do your dope...........I understand the needle exchange......and the good that does, but like how many people do up in them places?*****
Just wondering.......that always blew my mind.
That chick popped up for a reason........no co-inky-dinks in life.
Good ya shared too........I'll tell ya I don't know if I could have left.
****BTW, what is it with how ya can have a place to use.......I've read about that.
Like a legal place to do your dope...........I understand the needle exchange......and the good that does, but like how many people do up in them places?*****
Just wondering.......that always blew my mind.
You gotta remember how good you feel bout yourself for not snapping and how proud we all are of you. That's awesome to have been that close and walked away. :o)
Bryn...this place is a kinda pilot scheme...bring yer gear and dont be too out of it..get yer works,water ,citric,lil cookers with ready made cottons..the lot then downstairs...ive never been but i got a rough idea of the layout...all nice colours no dull hospital vibe..get yer cubicle and rubber tounaquet(sp)and youve got about an hr....so plenty of time for the dirty deed.
I think these places are great..theres some drug dealing goin on up the rd...but none outside the clinic...lots of homeless use it...as ya know banging up in mcdonalds aint ideal,...i dont think it makes anymore addicts than there already would be...its just harm reduction ...which has gotta be good.Take care .....Davey
I think these places are great..theres some drug dealing goin on up the rd...but none outside the clinic...lots of homeless use it...as ya know banging up in mcdonalds aint ideal,...i dont think it makes anymore addicts than there already would be...its just harm reduction ...which has gotta be good.Take care .....Davey
Just recently i was just about this - close to scoring. What turned me off was seeing my little cousin on the cornor thin and dirty his eyes all sunk in calling his dealer on the pay phone that alone was enough to make me think I really did not need it. Funny how that works huh. It is scary when you KNOW you are so close to doing it ....my chest gets tight you do kinda run on autopilot, Close call.
Wow, that sucks, ZG........your little cousin.
Davey, thanks for that info........I see now........harm reduction is right.
ZG, and Davey.........yo, really good on ya.
Davey, thanks for that info........I see now........harm reduction is right.
ZG, and Davey.........yo, really good on ya.
whoa-im so glad i only go to the clinic every 2 weeks--i remember going everyday--that was hard--people line up in the morning at the closest bus stop just askin--whatcha need-thats how i got into xanax--but lets not go there today :) autopilot--no kiddin. bryn is right-that chick was put there for a reason--i probably wouldve thought-dang i bet shes got an awesome hookup-haha by the time i was that close it wouldve been all over-that place sounds awesome-i wish it wouldve been around where i was when i was using-i remember manya time people bangin on the door causing me to miss my shot and getting a abscess-what does the community think of these places--are they close to houses or what--i cannot imagine a "good"spot for them but i like the idea--im sure if someone o.d.s theyd have abetter chance of making it than if they were under a bridge somewhere
ZG...i get ya with the tight chest...it was a close one and i know i can never go near the place again..coz in my heart i think i may give into temptation...just like Diff said its like opening a door that once fully open and off its hinges you can never close it fully again.
Thanks for the responses all of ya take care...........Davey
Thanks for the responses all of ya take care...........Davey
Amity..just to ans. yer Q?folks using this goverment funded shooting gallery have got two lovely nurses to take care of everyone...so if anyone looks like there in trouble they are on hand...harm reduction.Take care..........Davey
Hi Davey, it's good to be tested. The more you're tested, the less you respond to it. But, you can never let your guard down. I can handle stopping for a brief chat with some of my former using buddies, but I never let myself get in any deeper than that. The addiction is stronger than me, if we go head to head, so I have to always keep it at arms length. I still have lots of heroin dreams. I've been going through a spell where I've been having them every night. The beast never dies...
I generally find seeing old using friends a thoroughly uncomfortable experience. I get very nervous. I think about all the times I've been robbed or ripped off, and I get scared. I just want to get away. I know how easy it is to somehow get roped in on some kind of mission, and it's only gonna end one way. I just don't need that hassle.
So well done on walking away. You did right...
love
Diff xxx
I generally find seeing old using friends a thoroughly uncomfortable experience. I get very nervous. I think about all the times I've been robbed or ripped off, and I get scared. I just want to get away. I know how easy it is to somehow get roped in on some kind of mission, and it's only gonna end one way. I just don't need that hassle.
So well done on walking away. You did right...
love
Diff xxx
Just them blue bags.......seeing them tonight when I was walking.
When I see them around........I know dope is close by.
Yeah, I picked them up to trying to see the brand name on them.
I give you kudos Davey really.
When I see them around........I know dope is close by.
Yeah, I picked them up to trying to see the brand name on them.
I give you kudos Davey really.
When I first heard of these clinics I was like errmm hang on a minute is this not encouraging people but thinking about it, its a really good idea and its kind of protecting the public because the homeless normally use public toilets and stuff dont they??
Who thought of this idea?? very clever...am impressed!!
Who thought of this idea?? very clever...am impressed!!
I think those places to go and have your hit are a great idea. I mean, it's not like they're selling heroin, is it. And once you've got the gear, you're gonna do it in, somewhere, and anything that reduces the mortality rate has to be a good idea. I personally wouldn't have used them. I used to drive around and find a quiet place to have my hit, if I wasn't near home. But I made use of needle exchanges. In swansea, they had this place where you could go and they'd give you sterile water and little sachets of citric acid, and they were a good idea. I was never over-fussed on the water I used. As long as it hadn't turned green, I figured it was alright. And if I ran out of citric, or vit c, I'd make do with vinegar or lemon juice, and they can introduce fungal infections in the blood. And as for clean works, it never seemed to matter how many bags of needles I'd pick up, I was always running out, and then it was a case of cutting open the old sin bins, and fishing around for the least dodgy looking ones. Not so good....
love
Diff xxx
love
Diff xxx
Gotta agree with ya Diff...before people had these places it was a task of asking yer chemist for diabetic sryinges..if he beleived you in the first place...and it has gotta cut down the mortality and infection rates big time...getting clean everything..i used to love the lil cooking up spoons and the small cottons..they had thought of everything...so someone must have listened to some addicts concerns.As i said its a pilot scheme but its got mostly good press..its not in a residential area..so no concerned residents.The nurses there advise people how to do a good hit..not enchouraging but just a few safety tips...they will answer mostly any Q?.
They tried to bring in a scheme in prisons were prisoners could get tablets to mix with water that sterilised any works they had...basically realising the large scale abuse on smack in Irish prisons...but that was a step to far and it was no noed...but at least in most Irish prisons you can get Meth.d maintenance...which can be a relief to many...they also have detox wings ..were you get 10days on a detox taper of meth.and benzos....so compared to some countries our system is not bad...still at least 6wks for a meth. place and very few docs have experience with subs or unwilling to prescribe them over meth.Thats how it goes anyhow...take care all............Davey
They tried to bring in a scheme in prisons were prisoners could get tablets to mix with water that sterilised any works they had...basically realising the large scale abuse on smack in Irish prisons...but that was a step to far and it was no noed...but at least in most Irish prisons you can get Meth.d maintenance...which can be a relief to many...they also have detox wings ..were you get 10days on a detox taper of meth.and benzos....so compared to some countries our system is not bad...still at least 6wks for a meth. place and very few docs have experience with subs or unwilling to prescribe them over meth.Thats how it goes anyhow...take care all............Davey
