a little tid bit to make my head stop thinking.....
what is the answer to life??? what is the question u would ask if u had one question to ask???? WHAT IS THIS LIFE FOR???
those 3 questions keep my mind remembering how vulnerable i feel sometimes. i answer them differently every time. but i always end up thinking about it until i fall asleep. hardly ever remember my responses, but at the end of a good day i answer them so fast i sleep. on a bad day they remind me that i am only human. life is worth it even if u f*** it up. the sun will always shine, especially after the storm.
Melissa, You're going to wind up with ulcers, and needing a stress test.
Moi a Doctor? No thank the green earth.....O.K. this is how ya do this....there is only NOW....in this moment....right this second...you can't bring back tomorrow, and try it all over, and who the he*l knows if tomorrow will ever even get here....PLUS easier said than done BUT worrying about it won't change it...a solution maybe or a search for one....worrying pffff....nada.
You need to quiet the mind....which I find impossible....but supposedly bliss can be obtained....well sans heroin or other opiates....through meditation.
Try if you can or haven't already read "Autobiography Of A Yogi"....book will change your life....if it don't at least a little peace within self-realization.
Did I read it...yep....is my mind quiet...I am a scattered mess....on heroin or off heroin chaos reigns...meditation....I really try I do.....but all that stuff....it just runs through my head....won't shut up....so yeah I like giving out advice when I myself am a nut case.....always been good at that...LOL...nah really cool book that book....read it three times.
Moi a Doctor? No thank the green earth.....O.K. this is how ya do this....there is only NOW....in this moment....right this second...you can't bring back tomorrow, and try it all over, and who the he*l knows if tomorrow will ever even get here....PLUS easier said than done BUT worrying about it won't change it...a solution maybe or a search for one....worrying pffff....nada.
You need to quiet the mind....which I find impossible....but supposedly bliss can be obtained....well sans heroin or other opiates....through meditation.
Try if you can or haven't already read "Autobiography Of A Yogi"....book will change your life....if it don't at least a little peace within self-realization.
Did I read it...yep....is my mind quiet...I am a scattered mess....on heroin or off heroin chaos reigns...meditation....I really try I do.....but all that stuff....it just runs through my head....won't shut up....so yeah I like giving out advice when I myself am a nut case.....always been good at that...LOL...nah really cool book that book....read it three times.
I just re-read my post....duh.....I says "You can't bring back tomorrow...see.
I'm not right....can't change tomorrow....well I guess not...I meant yesterday, but at this point....I will never unclutter me....stay clean yeah...but chaos reigns.
I'm not right....can't change tomorrow....well I guess not...I meant yesterday, but at this point....I will never unclutter me....stay clean yeah...but chaos reigns.
funny u mention yoga. tried it a few weeks ago cuz i thought it would be good for me. they asked me put to put on a tee shirt for the school n i had been shooting up so i declined it. they went into this whole disiplinarian thing, about how yogis live a way of self discipline, well, i had no excuse, so i left my thermal shirt on. the instructor told me the same thing again, so i had to leave. i was embarassed. they were right. self discipline would be nice, but i couldnt exactly go that way. and my dumb a** did sum s*** first class (b4 i had to wear the school shirt) so i was a shaky mess. nodded off while we were relaxing. its not funny, but the entire scenerio kinda was ironic. i do need to stop thinking, but ima writer, ima singer, ima dreamer. thinking is what i do. stress test...perfect canidate for VALIUM MANAGEMENT. but... its how i cope. its how i justify. its works for me. workd for a long time. re-evaluation sets me straight sometimes. i need to remember sometimes that im human, vulnerable, nieve, yet worth it.
