During my teen years, I smoked pretty heavily; (I first tried marijuana at twelve and by fourteen, I was doing it daily). When I met my husband at 16, I quit. Amazingly, I was able to do it. I got pregnant, had my daughter, and didn't touch the stuff for three years. Then, shortly after having my daughter, I got into touch with an old childhood friend, and that's where the problems began. She turned out to be a major pothead and being around her, it was irresistable.
I started going behind my husband's back and would do almost anything to see her and smoke and it started to cause problems in my marriage. My husband just knew she was a bad influence. Then I started to buy it from her and hide the bags at home and would smoke when he was at work or sleeping. Eventually, I got caught, but my husband started smoking with me, although mad that I hid it from him.
It's been over a year since he caught me smoking and began to smoke with me. We have been smoking on a daily basis and heavily. We need "the good stuff" just to feel anything and it is costing us a fortune. I don't even know how much we spent on bags, but I bet it's alot. I started attending college last fall and I'm in my second semester and somehow managed to pull of straight A's last semester, but the weed is really affecting my memory and seems to be getting worse and worse.
I can't remember anything I learned last semester and I'm struggling with these hard tech classes this semester. I just feel so clouded and I forget things that happened just minutes before, not to mention how hard it is to learn being a complete pothead.
I am positive I have developed psychological disorders from my years of smoking. I have SEVERE social anxiety and almost passed out in a class last semester, just from walking in the room on my first day. I have no social skills anymore and it's hard for me to even go in a grocery store. I was diagnosed with bi-polar at 16 and it's worse than ever.
A few months ago, I tried quitting and didn't smoke for two months. I suffered like I've never suffered in my entire life. I was having panic attacks every few hours. I ended up in the hospital because of it. I started getting sharp pains radiating throughout my entire body and especially the left side of my head. I became very anxious and would get startled at every little noise. I couldn't sleep.. I became a complete hypochondriac and was convinced I was dying and had something serious, like MS or a brain tumor. Then I started to have problems with my vision. I would go blind at times and couldn't see for brief seconds. Often, it seemed like someone was flickering the lights or a strobe light effect. I started having problems controlling the muscles in my eyes. Then I started having tremors in certain body parts and uncontrollable twitching.
I eventually noticed my pupils were completely different sizes, and not just on a rare occassion. I checked every day and one was always HUGE and the other tiny. It was the scariest time in my entire life. I felt like I was losing my sanity and it was so scary. I would sit and cry at night. Completely helpless and scared. I also had no health insurance (and still don't), so I couldn't get help for anything.
I am only 21... I shouldn't be in this bad of shape, but I am because of weed. I want to quit desperately, but I am so scared I am going to lose it again and going through all that.. I can't.. the stress from that alone, felt like it was killing me. I read about marijuana withdrawal symptoms and found NOTHING describing what I am going through. They usually list mild symptoms and say that most of them go away within a week and aren't all that serious or threatening to your health.
Well, I quit for two months and was having these symptoms up to the day I couldn't take it anymore and began smoking again and I definately think ending up in the hospital constitutes, "severe and life threatening", so I'd really like some answers... or advice?
People need to know how this junk really affect you, because from my internet search on the withdrawal symptoms, they make it seem like no big deal .... and it is a big deal.... People need to know it's strong link to mental illness too.. and those symptoms never go away... your stuck with a damaged brain for your entire life and people need to know this...
Hi,
I just want to let you know that I am going through a lot of similar symptoms. I have been clean for one week and I have been going through one of the toughest times of my life. I never thought quiting weed would be this tough. I was smoking 5-6 times a day at the least for the last year and before that, 1-2 times a day for 4-5 years. I have turned myself into a complete hypocondriac too, but I am doing everything I can to get this under control. I am feeling slightly better and I attribute a lot of my progress to exercise, eating healthy, getting lots of rest, drinking so much water I can hardly take another sip. Your body needs to get rid of the toxins and the only way this is going to happen is if you drink tons of water and sweat out the toxins. Believe me I still feel like s***, but with my parents support, my family support, and beliving in myself I am optimistic that I can come out of this. FYI...I still am having panic attacks, but they aren't quite as bad esspecially when I exercise. I am eating, but not nearly as much as I used too. I went to the doctor and he didn't seem very concerned about my health. I will continue to fight this battle and I am going to win and so are you! I don't think going back on weed is the answer. The best thing I can recommend for you is exercise and lots of water. Please keep me updated with how you are doing because I feel like we are going through a lot of similar issues. I will keep you updated too. Lastly have faith, say a prayer every night. I think this helps. It sure can't hurt. STAY STRONG. WE WILL WIN THIS BATTLE.
I just want to let you know that I am going through a lot of similar symptoms. I have been clean for one week and I have been going through one of the toughest times of my life. I never thought quiting weed would be this tough. I was smoking 5-6 times a day at the least for the last year and before that, 1-2 times a day for 4-5 years. I have turned myself into a complete hypocondriac too, but I am doing everything I can to get this under control. I am feeling slightly better and I attribute a lot of my progress to exercise, eating healthy, getting lots of rest, drinking so much water I can hardly take another sip. Your body needs to get rid of the toxins and the only way this is going to happen is if you drink tons of water and sweat out the toxins. Believe me I still feel like s***, but with my parents support, my family support, and beliving in myself I am optimistic that I can come out of this. FYI...I still am having panic attacks, but they aren't quite as bad esspecially when I exercise. I am eating, but not nearly as much as I used too. I went to the doctor and he didn't seem very concerned about my health. I will continue to fight this battle and I am going to win and so are you! I don't think going back on weed is the answer. The best thing I can recommend for you is exercise and lots of water. Please keep me updated with how you are doing because I feel like we are going through a lot of similar issues. I will keep you updated too. Lastly have faith, say a prayer every night. I think this helps. It sure can't hurt. STAY STRONG. WE WILL WIN THIS BATTLE.
You're not alone, my friend. I range from being depressed to wanting to pick a fight with the next person I see. (Just wrapped up day 3 of sobriety) My hands are shaky, and I feel "spaced out" at work at times.
But I think this is normal. I was a bouncer for 8 years, so I look at things in terms of a fight. Right now I'm fighting pot. It's throwing everything it has at me. It's punching me in the face. It's kneeing me in the gut. All these withdrawl symptoms I feel is the marijuana trying to kick my a** to make me return it it.
But I won't do it this time. The pain I feel is the sign I'm winning the fight. Each time I face the symptoms and don't bow down to the relief of smoking just one more time, it's like punching the THC square in the face. Soon I'll back it into it's corner and reign down blows. The ref will pull me off, and I'll be pot free.
But right now, I'm in the early rounds, and just like Rocky, I'm battered and bruised. So I look to my adversary and say.... is that all you got???
But I think this is normal. I was a bouncer for 8 years, so I look at things in terms of a fight. Right now I'm fighting pot. It's throwing everything it has at me. It's punching me in the face. It's kneeing me in the gut. All these withdrawl symptoms I feel is the marijuana trying to kick my a** to make me return it it.
But I won't do it this time. The pain I feel is the sign I'm winning the fight. Each time I face the symptoms and don't bow down to the relief of smoking just one more time, it's like punching the THC square in the face. Soon I'll back it into it's corner and reign down blows. The ref will pull me off, and I'll be pot free.
But right now, I'm in the early rounds, and just like Rocky, I'm battered and bruised. So I look to my adversary and say.... is that all you got???
