In all my years of smoking crack i have never done any real bad things or bizzar untill , when i slipped last week, after 3 months of sobriety..i found myself with a prostitue (which i have never done) it was the only way i could find someone to smoke with (i dont smoke alone). and this pros. said that if i have gay sex with her friend she would let me smoke with her all night for free...i declined, but after about 25 minutes of actually conteplating this.. i am a straight male and have never had any kind of fantasies about a homosexual relation. but because this damn drug has such a rope on me i almost lost control.i am very ashamed of what i had almost done.. so if my near mistake can help anyone else from slipping back into drugs, than it was worth me telling yall..
Thanks alot for sharing that, you are brave. I did alot of things in my addiction that I cannot even think about it is so painful. I did things that now thinking about it, I can't even imagine doing them. I am glad you were able to share with us. God Bless.
i myself did a few things i would NEVER sharem when I WAS an addict. I give u alot of credit. hang in there!
Notice how one disease (addiction) leads to other diseases? I'm not saying that sex in itself is a disease, but prostitutes and promiscuity cab certainly put you in contact with a lot of them.
I'm glad you're shaken by the sad reality that cocaine can make you want to compromise your morals. Cocaine compromises everything--including sanity and peace. Remember your experience as a springboard for courage. Don't go there again, or you might be fighting more than one disease. I wish you peace.
I'm glad you're shaken by the sad reality that cocaine can make you want to compromise your morals. Cocaine compromises everything--including sanity and peace. Remember your experience as a springboard for courage. Don't go there again, or you might be fighting more than one disease. I wish you peace.
Biggbbs... i give you props for sharing your experience. Thank you.
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Lox
THANKS FOR YOUR HONESTY - PLEASE DO NOT BEAT YOURSELF UP- enough people out there do it enough for you and to you - so take the pressure off yourself, hell you are an addict, who is powerless over the drug as well as the OUTCOME of what can happen while doing the drugs - REMEMBER! So what did you expect to happen? Anyway...HANG IN THERE! KEEP POSTING.
PUCK YOURSELF BACK UP AND THE GUILT AND SHAME WILL LEAVE - as you stay clena and keep in RECOVERY AND DRUG FREE!
I have done many things I said I would NEVER DO myself and things I NEVER thought capable, things that never have entered my mind! I have let myself off the hook. I have found myself in some situations WHERE I DID NOT HAVE A CHOICE OR A WAY OUT IN THE MATTER AS WELL.
I am glad I am clean!
PUCK YOURSELF BACK UP AND THE GUILT AND SHAME WILL LEAVE - as you stay clena and keep in RECOVERY AND DRUG FREE!
I have done many things I said I would NEVER DO myself and things I NEVER thought capable, things that never have entered my mind! I have let myself off the hook. I have found myself in some situations WHERE I DID NOT HAVE A CHOICE OR A WAY OUT IN THE MATTER AS WELL.
I am glad I am clean!
