Hi all, I just posted this over on C/C board too..
I am a recovering alcoholic and addict. I've just returned from the Women's Stag meeting I attend Thursday evenings. I cried all the way thru it...there wasn't an opportunity me for share, in fact it is a "timer" meeting. With a little over two years of sobriety and working the Steps I am sitting in pain tonight. Emotional pain. Sometimes it feels like I am trying to walk up the down hill escalator. Between dealing with financial insecurity (debt), my daughter's upcoming court date and basically just walking in fear things...about most things in life right now...I am having trouble just turning it over...I've taken the action as directed by my Sponsor, but it's just not working for me right now. I have no desire to drink or use...the obsession and craving was removed for me, thank God...but quite honestly I'm feeling down and feel like a big loser right now. I needed to share and I thank you reading my post. Tomorrow is a new day and things change, thank goodness.
VW,
You have mail.
You have mail.
VWgirl maybe your new goal can be working on making a little more money for yourself. There are many way you can do this.
Don't give up hope God will provide for you. With a little effort on your part you can slowly overcome these problems.
Don't give up hope God will provide for you. With a little effort on your part you can slowly overcome these problems.
VW,
Sometimes we have to feel the pain and fear. It means we are growing. When I get like that; letting the fear out with tears can be very healthy.
Do you remember what you told me when i was feeling like this a few weeks ago? You told me they were just feelings. That it was just emotion and it would pass.
This is such a big part of recovery- feeling the pain and working through it using the tools to make our way through it- together.
You have been so kind to me- seems like we are working on livening up the alcohol board!!
Allow your self to go through this, share,write it out, post , and pick up the phone.
The good news is that you are working one hellva program- you are an inspiration to me and everyone here, you have just hit a speedbump.
I try to address the fear- "Fear- I acknowledge you are here". It sounds weird but it works!
Your doing so good babe, go share at a meeting!
I garantee(sp) that this too shall pass. You might feel s***** for a little bit, but you'll come out in the sunlight ,I promise.
love,
Carolyn
Sometimes we have to feel the pain and fear. It means we are growing. When I get like that; letting the fear out with tears can be very healthy.
Do you remember what you told me when i was feeling like this a few weeks ago? You told me they were just feelings. That it was just emotion and it would pass.
This is such a big part of recovery- feeling the pain and working through it using the tools to make our way through it- together.
You have been so kind to me- seems like we are working on livening up the alcohol board!!
Allow your self to go through this, share,write it out, post , and pick up the phone.
The good news is that you are working one hellva program- you are an inspiration to me and everyone here, you have just hit a speedbump.
I try to address the fear- "Fear- I acknowledge you are here". It sounds weird but it works!
Your doing so good babe, go share at a meeting!
I garantee(sp) that this too shall pass. You might feel s***** for a little bit, but you'll come out in the sunlight ,I promise.
love,
Carolyn
Aw, VW, don't let it get to you. It's just life crap. How do you feel today?
Hi, VW girl, I still read this board sometimes though I don't post much but I just wanted to say you are not a looser at all. You are a great person who helps people out alot. You seem to be pretty well off professionally too so I don't really don't see why you would think that anyways.
Anyway I hope you work it out.
Cailyn
Anyway I hope you work it out.
Cailyn
Hi VW girl, I hope your ok today. I understand how you feel, and it's ok to feel that way for a little while, as long as you can snap out of it the next day, which it seems like you can. You've helped me by answering my posts, and thank you so much for doing that.
Thank you everyone for your posts. I went to a meeting at noon today and am actually starting to feel better. I shared with my Sponsor how I've been feeling lately and she reminded me I need to put the Program into action in my life. I had a commitment at this meeting, otherwise I might have blown it off. My Sponsor gave me some direction and I will take it....things change and I've so much to be grateful in my life, however I rested on my laurels, got bored and got complacent....negative thinking set in and thank God I'm moving through it. I'm okay today, just today, because that's all Ireally have and I can choose how I react to situations and I can start my day over at anytime and as many times as I need to...have a wonderful evening.
Hi VW Girl,
I just read your post now, I havent been home lately,You are not a loser girl!
You are a strong person who has helped me sooooooooo much!
These things will pass in time, as someone said to me the other day at work when I was annoyed at someone, in 1 yrs time will it still bother you, if not dont let it get to you now,
I know words are easy to say but you will pull through!!!!
I hope you are feeling better now,
Take care my friend,
Your friend Ginge
I just read your post now, I havent been home lately,You are not a loser girl!
You are a strong person who has helped me sooooooooo much!
These things will pass in time, as someone said to me the other day at work when I was annoyed at someone, in 1 yrs time will it still bother you, if not dont let it get to you now,
I know words are easy to say but you will pull through!!!!
I hope you are feeling better now,
Take care my friend,
Your friend Ginge
Ginge, Thanks for the post. I am feeling better today...however, looking at the financial wreckage that I caused and and seeing what I lost, I lost sight of what I gained. Thankfully, my gratitude has been restored. You see, for the last 20 years of my 28 years of drinking and using all that I wanted was a clean and sober life...the more $$ I made and the material stuff I achieved didn't give me the peace and serenity I experience most times during my sobriety, I had all the money, chalk and marbles but I was a hopeless alcoholic/addict woman. Today, I am a dignified and sober woman! Can't wait to get the card...glad you're back!
Hi VWgirl.
A little late but better late than never.
Ive been away for a couple of weeks with no access to a computer .So its good to be back home if only for a day or two and catch up.
There are a few things I like to read or remember when I am going through emotional growth. And one thing is.Nothing comes to stay in recovery it all comes to pass. The good times, mad times, sad times and bad times. They will all pass. The only permanent thing is change.
I some times forget I am human and will never be perfect though I pretend to be at times in front of family and others.. One of the reasons I like going to AA meetings and one of the reasons I think AA works is because where not all mad on the same day and I am amongst people who understand an can relate to what I am going through.
One other thing I like to remember or read when I am not travelling to good is in How it works just after the 12 th step where it says.
Many of us exclaimed, "What an order! I can't go through with it." Do not be discouraged. No one among us has been able to maintain anything like perfect adherence to these principles. We are not saints. The point is, that we are willing to grow along spiritual lines. The principles we have set down are guides to progress. We claim spiritual progress rather than spiritual perfection.
My sponsor says to me. Doors will open. And they will also open for you and all the promises will also materialise for you .Youre a very spiritual person whos been a lot of help to a lot of people here myself included. So look after yourself give yourself a Hug (((((((VWgirl))))))).Youre Wanted, Needed and Loved. God Bless. Lionel.
PS I havent seen that word escalator for awhile it reminded me of a quote or clich I read. The escalator to sobriety is broken. Please use the steps. LOL
A little late but better late than never.
Ive been away for a couple of weeks with no access to a computer .So its good to be back home if only for a day or two and catch up.
There are a few things I like to read or remember when I am going through emotional growth. And one thing is.Nothing comes to stay in recovery it all comes to pass. The good times, mad times, sad times and bad times. They will all pass. The only permanent thing is change.
I some times forget I am human and will never be perfect though I pretend to be at times in front of family and others.. One of the reasons I like going to AA meetings and one of the reasons I think AA works is because where not all mad on the same day and I am amongst people who understand an can relate to what I am going through.
One other thing I like to remember or read when I am not travelling to good is in How it works just after the 12 th step where it says.
Many of us exclaimed, "What an order! I can't go through with it." Do not be discouraged. No one among us has been able to maintain anything like perfect adherence to these principles. We are not saints. The point is, that we are willing to grow along spiritual lines. The principles we have set down are guides to progress. We claim spiritual progress rather than spiritual perfection.
My sponsor says to me. Doors will open. And they will also open for you and all the promises will also materialise for you .Youre a very spiritual person whos been a lot of help to a lot of people here myself included. So look after yourself give yourself a Hug (((((((VWgirl))))))).Youre Wanted, Needed and Loved. God Bless. Lionel.
PS I havent seen that word escalator for awhile it reminded me of a quote or clich I read. The escalator to sobriety is broken. Please use the steps. LOL
Lionel, Loved the quote! I'm in a better place this week, so far. Thank for the reminders, I needed them. Hope you are doing well. Got an email msg from Ginge and he is back too! Take care! PS-I forget that the Promises are coming true for me...heck just me not drinking and using is a miracle in itself!
