Hi,
I am still on this ridiculus high from being down to 12 pills and actually feeling like I am going to do this. With each day I have things that I am doing to keep happy and motivated and the w/ds aren't bothering me as much. I found that drinking camomile tea really helps with that pulling feeling on the internal organs. I am sooooooooo happy, which is not too suprising as I was a pretty happy person before the drugs 2yrs ago, my old feelings are returning with the decrease of the drug. My friend who knows is coming over today to spend the day with me so I have no worries about using today and will take my doses on schedule. I know i will probably run into a hiccup here and there but I am thinking positive and will deal with it when it gets here. I am almost thinking that all the negative thoughts and images that we conjure up when we quit is the worst part of wd and the part that keeps us from getting there. I will check in later. Thanks for your support.
pets
I have to admit I was scared to go off methadone because I hate feeling bad. There were a few times I went a day without them and totally freaked out..But now that I have been off them for 2 months now, I look back and yeah it was hell for a few weeks, and I know I will never go back on them, but now I amtrying to work with my pain and come up with other plans on how to deal with it.. I am going in for another MRI and may end up having surgery..but it beats being on the meth..,after all the hell I have caused well being on them..
Good for you, I am so glad you are off. I also have back pain which was the reason for the pills but I will find another way to deal with it, I talked with one lady who uses TENS machine and says it works well for her so maybe I'll try that. Keep your head up everyday without a pill is a good one and I can't wait to get there.
pets
pets
Hello, it sounds like you've got a great head upon your shoulders. Getting off the drugs is hard, especially when we've told ourselves we're going to do just that because the other side of the brain is always eaves dropping and that is when it cuts in and tries to screw us up.
I remember when I tried to quit, I was going to be positive. I started doing the dishes and the glass I was washing broke and cut my pinky open. After I banadaged it up I through some clothes in the wash but my washer had broken and there was water all over my floor and the heating eliment decided at that time to go out in my dryer. Then, to make matters worse I got into a fight with my mother in law and that was the straw that broke the camels back so the drugged side of my brain convinced me that this was God's way of saying it was not a good idea to quit. lol. Okay, it's not at all funny, but while thinking back now, it actually is. I must have looked really pathedic with no clean clothes, a cut up finger and no clean dishes because of it and a mother in law with her finger in my face.
Basically I'm trying to say don't get discouraged. No matter what is thrown your way because there is a part of our brain that will take anything to be a sign to go ahead and use or over do it.
Take care and I wish everyone well and great success in recovery.
Jessie
I remember when I tried to quit, I was going to be positive. I started doing the dishes and the glass I was washing broke and cut my pinky open. After I banadaged it up I through some clothes in the wash but my washer had broken and there was water all over my floor and the heating eliment decided at that time to go out in my dryer. Then, to make matters worse I got into a fight with my mother in law and that was the straw that broke the camels back so the drugged side of my brain convinced me that this was God's way of saying it was not a good idea to quit. lol. Okay, it's not at all funny, but while thinking back now, it actually is. I must have looked really pathedic with no clean clothes, a cut up finger and no clean dishes because of it and a mother in law with her finger in my face.
Basically I'm trying to say don't get discouraged. No matter what is thrown your way because there is a part of our brain that will take anything to be a sign to go ahead and use or over do it.
Take care and I wish everyone well and great success in recovery.
Jessie
Living without opiates is SO DOABLE. IF you really want to be done with them, the rest is not that bad. Again, youve had the flu and survived, this is the same thing. Youll be sick a few days and YOU WILL SURVIVE. I cannot tell you how good it feels to know I got this monkey off my back. Hang in there.
