Things have only gotten worse here. He comes home from work and either goes to sleep or makes plans to go hang out with friends. I spend all my time either at home alone with the kids or at work. Our only car is broken so unless it's nice out I just sit in the house with the boys. My mother brings me to work and watches the kids. Even when my husband doesn't have to work he lies about it to me so that I don't have my mom send the kids back home. He tells me he has only gotten meth like four times since I caught him using again but when I was cleaning a couple weeks ago I found like ten of the little baggies it comes in. I don't even know if he has a job anymore. He always has an excuse and if I push it further he freaks out because I don't believe him. I don't know how much longer I can handle this life. It is not at all like I expected it to be. I have no hope and no one else in my life knows that he is using again. I really wish I could tell someone close to me but if I did they would most likely just call the cops. I have no one because the one person I used to count on is too busy smoking meth. I really just want it to go away. I can't go to the alonon meetings because then I would have to have my mom watch my kids and she would need to know first off why he can't watch his own kids at night and second where I was going. I for sure don't want her to know because she will make me pack up the kids and leave. I don't know what to do to make him see what he is doing. He acts like doing Meth is no big deal. Like it is as common as having a drink after work. It's nice to just be able to put these feelings online every once in awhile.
I truly sympathize with you. I wish your family nothing but the best. Don't ever forget that nobody can force an addict into sobriety.. The best thing you can do is to stop enabling. If he is hurting your family maybe it's time to think about letting him go. Take care..
Here are harsh, but rationalized thoughts.
It's all going to get worse, before it gets better or goes away.
Nothing changes unless something is changed.
How do you know when an addict is lying ? Their lips are moving.
If you're stuck in the mudd, spinning your wheels may only get you deeper.
The weakest link most likely will fail.
I'm sorry, try to prepare for the worst, do your best, make a run for it ?
Easier said then done, and I know, still struggling.
Good Luck
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It's all going to get worse, before it gets better or goes away.
Nothing changes unless something is changed.
How do you know when an addict is lying ? Their lips are moving.
If you're stuck in the mudd, spinning your wheels may only get you deeper.
The weakest link most likely will fail.
I'm sorry, try to prepare for the worst, do your best, make a run for it ?
Easier said then done, and I know, still struggling.
Good Luck
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