Recovery seems to be so complex,or is it? Do we tend to analyze the crap out of our lives until we don't know what is up or down? We run around wanting to do the right things to recover from this aweful mess we find ourselves in.Then we have so many people who tell us..This is what you do...This is what you don't do.Then the same people will tell you that everyone is different and not everything will work for everyone.IT GETS CONFUSING!!!!
I do know that since I've had some mental health issuses that I am now pill free.I don't take one prescription or over the counter medication.Maybe because I wasn't on methadone that long or that high of dose for my pain,but I didn't have a difficult time at all stopping.Same thing with the anti-depressant I was on.I'm not saying others don't have difficult times,but I was rather fortunate not to have.
I will never say that someone else doesn't need pain medication...or an anti-depressant...or even medication for insomnia or anxiety.What I am saying is that I am an individual and I am choosing to go through the rest of my life without the aids of medications.
I found myself to be very lazy when it came to taking care of myself. I was on medication for type 2 diabetes...blood-pressure...cholesterol...chronic pain...depression....all because I wouldn't eat better and take care of myself. It was easier for me to take a pill than it was to take care of myself.I had become very lazy in my life style.
I turn 48 this month!!!! I don't know where the time has gone.I haven't been making very good choices for a long time now.I believe you can teach old dogs new tricks and my goal is to make the next 10 years so much better than the last 10.
We are all striving to make our lives better here.Don't be hard on those that struggle more than you do,but rather be grateful for what you have and keep trying to help those struggling.
HEY THUMPER.....I found humility once again.I'm gonna do my best to keep it this time!!!
Thank you to those of you that have kept me in your thoughts and prayers,especially over these past several months.I have been doing much better and have not had an episode in awhile.I continue to work with my doctors and therapist.
Kevin
It sure is nice to see you post Kevin...
For me it's simple. Keep it simple. Try not to over think it too much and do what others suggest. If I overthink and get koo-koo over it, it doesn't work.
For me it's simple. Keep it simple. Try not to over think it too much and do what others suggest. If I overthink and get koo-koo over it, it doesn't work.
Hey Cowgirl....so what is simple???...LOL.I have a very simple life style.IT"S my head that gets me in to trouble sometimes!!! LOL.
I have been spending alot more time at my mother and sister's place.My Mom is 80 and her health is not well.I want to make sure I spend some good qaulity time with her while I can.I don't want to be one of those people that wish they would of.
I'm saving my pennies so I can go and spend a month down in Nashville with my daughter.It's been a long time since we have been able to spend alot time with each other.Besides...I have yet to go down and see where she lives and works.IT"S ABOUT TIME I DID! As cold as it's been up here,I wish I was down there now!
I hope all is well with you and your family.I've been so caught up in my own drama that I forget about others situations and struggles.You seem to be doing well after your heart attack.That's some scarey stuff Lisa,so I am so happy that you are doing so well.
Keep up the good fight,
Kevin
I have been spending alot more time at my mother and sister's place.My Mom is 80 and her health is not well.I want to make sure I spend some good qaulity time with her while I can.I don't want to be one of those people that wish they would of.
I'm saving my pennies so I can go and spend a month down in Nashville with my daughter.It's been a long time since we have been able to spend alot time with each other.Besides...I have yet to go down and see where she lives and works.IT"S ABOUT TIME I DID! As cold as it's been up here,I wish I was down there now!
I hope all is well with you and your family.I've been so caught up in my own drama that I forget about others situations and struggles.You seem to be doing well after your heart attack.That's some scarey stuff Lisa,so I am so happy that you are doing so well.
Keep up the good fight,
Kevin
What's simple?
I go to meetings, I work the steps, I talk to my sponsor every day. It's really easy.
We are human so of course we allow the water to get muddy once and awhile, but hey, it's progress not perfection.
You sound good Kevin. I'm glad to know that you're spending quality time with your family. My family drives me nuts but I wouldn't trade them for the world. Well, maybe my sister...lol
I am doing just fine. I had open heart surgery (I don't know if you knew that or not) to repair the hole in my heart and I'm better than new. That was about 7 weeks ago. Glad it's over.
Take care of yourself,
Lisa
I go to meetings, I work the steps, I talk to my sponsor every day. It's really easy.
We are human so of course we allow the water to get muddy once and awhile, but hey, it's progress not perfection.
You sound good Kevin. I'm glad to know that you're spending quality time with your family. My family drives me nuts but I wouldn't trade them for the world. Well, maybe my sister...lol
I am doing just fine. I had open heart surgery (I don't know if you knew that or not) to repair the hole in my heart and I'm better than new. That was about 7 weeks ago. Glad it's over.
Take care of yourself,
Lisa
WOW....Yah know Lisa...I might of read that you had surgery but I just forgot. I really was more in a fog then I had realized at the time.MAN...I wish I could of been more supportive at that time.I am so happy that you have family and friends that love you and support you.
One thing I am so glad for is that I was not abusing painpills when all this started happening to me.They would of blamed it all on the abuse and that would of been it.I gotta say I have never been drug tested more than the past several months. I did qiut the methadone first because they were questioning me on wether I was abusing or not.Can't tell you how pissed off this made me...LOL. For me it was a good choice.Then I started on all the meds.and said no more.
I need to lean more on my faith.I'm slowly getting back to that.Humans are funny beings...I knew what it was like to put my faith and trust in Christ,but still try and do it all myself. Well...it won't matter in a 100 years will it? The fight will be over...AMEN.
Thanks for your love and concern Lisa,
Kevin
One thing I am so glad for is that I was not abusing painpills when all this started happening to me.They would of blamed it all on the abuse and that would of been it.I gotta say I have never been drug tested more than the past several months. I did qiut the methadone first because they were questioning me on wether I was abusing or not.Can't tell you how pissed off this made me...LOL. For me it was a good choice.Then I started on all the meds.and said no more.
I need to lean more on my faith.I'm slowly getting back to that.Humans are funny beings...I knew what it was like to put my faith and trust in Christ,but still try and do it all myself. Well...it won't matter in a 100 years will it? The fight will be over...AMEN.
Thanks for your love and concern Lisa,
Kevin
Kevin!
hugs my dear friend.........
missed you...........
.......thumper
LOVE YOU
hugs my dear friend.........
missed you...........
.......thumperLOVE YOU
Hey Thumper, You haven't been posting to much lately. Is everything o.k. You might be watching I love New York but just wanted to see to say hi. Shantel
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YES !!!!!!!!!!!
iam watching it..........
i hurried and got in the shower and i was trying to wash my hair so fast !
so i could watch it......
ha ha
i love NEW YORK........
i really love this show.......
it makes me happy and laugh !!
thank you for thining of me.......
((((((((((((((((((shantel))))))))))))))))))))))
thumper
YES !!!!!!!!!!!
iam watching it..........
i hurried and got in the shower and i was trying to wash my hair so fast !
so i could watch it......
ha ha
i love NEW YORK........
i really love this show.......
it makes me happy and laugh !!
thank you for thining of me.......
((((((((((((((((((shantel))))))))))))))))))))))
thumper
