What do you suggest I do for tomorrow. I have to go to the big "Family Dinner". For me to think about doing that is so hard. And since tomorrow is a holiday, no doctors are open. - and I am still not sure if I want to go to a doctor yet. I work in the medical field ( not anywhere where I can access drugs), and I don't want to let anyone know what is going on with me, also I am afraid my insurance won't pay for me to get help.
So I am looking for a little advice on how to get through tomorrow, and I just don't want to feel like this anymore. I keep thinking if I only had a few more, then I could cut myself back to where I wouldn't feel like this the next time I stop. But I do that every time I get more. I make a plan on how many I am allowed per day - but I NEVER stick to it. It's like I make myself believe that I deserve more for many reasons.
Last night I was soooo tired, I went to bed @ 8pm then woke up at 3am and could not fall back to sleep. I am also wondering if I should take the ambien I have. I rarley take it, but will that help with the sleeping, or just make the whole process much worse???
thanks - britney
Britney,
I heard the Ambien is good for sleep. I have a script for it but I have never filled it so I don't know much about it but it wouldn't hurt to try and get some much needed rest this evening for you Big Day tomorrow! If you don't want everyone to know tomorrow what you are going through just tell everyone that you aren't feeling well and maybe you can get out of the festivites early and beable to rest. I understand you are worried about it as I have been where you are on several different occassions and it is no fun. The lack of energy is always the hardest for me. It is all part of the process it just has to take it's toll on your body and it will be gone in due time. Hopefully, it won't take as long as you may think. I know it is miserable to think about being social tomorrow and other than a flu therapy over the conter I don't know what to suggest. I took Comtrex cold and flu and it really helped, the night time pills are great and work like benadryl. Some others may have some suggestions but the main thing is just getting your rest and taking it easy tomorrow. It is a struggle and it totally su**s. Hang in there girl everyday is a new day and a step closer to being "FREE" again... Someone suggested a doctor and I know tomorrow is Thanksgiving would be hard to find one but if you do on friday and you can get some subutex-sp? Or Clonodine-Catapress patches that would be the way to go.... You will make it be strong and take some vitamins they help! Rae
I heard the Ambien is good for sleep. I have a script for it but I have never filled it so I don't know much about it but it wouldn't hurt to try and get some much needed rest this evening for you Big Day tomorrow! If you don't want everyone to know tomorrow what you are going through just tell everyone that you aren't feeling well and maybe you can get out of the festivites early and beable to rest. I understand you are worried about it as I have been where you are on several different occassions and it is no fun. The lack of energy is always the hardest for me. It is all part of the process it just has to take it's toll on your body and it will be gone in due time. Hopefully, it won't take as long as you may think. I know it is miserable to think about being social tomorrow and other than a flu therapy over the conter I don't know what to suggest. I took Comtrex cold and flu and it really helped, the night time pills are great and work like benadryl. Some others may have some suggestions but the main thing is just getting your rest and taking it easy tomorrow. It is a struggle and it totally su**s. Hang in there girl everyday is a new day and a step closer to being "FREE" again... Someone suggested a doctor and I know tomorrow is Thanksgiving would be hard to find one but if you do on friday and you can get some subutex-sp? Or Clonodine-Catapress patches that would be the way to go.... You will make it be strong and take some vitamins they help! Rae
Hi Britney - As others have said you are not alone! We've been there, and it is not pretty. But you have 2 days already, please try to hang on...most importantly, IMO, tell your husband. Don't keep this in! Talk it out and then decide the best course of action. You need and deserve support and care right now. When I went thru wd's a couple of months ago I was miserable too. One thing I did to help get thru it was attending NA meetings. Just a thought.
Give yourself a break on Thursday and as others mentioned either skip out early or pass entirely. Get well.
Whatever you decide to do my thoughts and prayers are with you. There is a better life without these awful pills! Stay strong!
Jim
Give yourself a break on Thursday and as others mentioned either skip out early or pass entirely. Get well.
Whatever you decide to do my thoughts and prayers are with you. There is a better life without these awful pills! Stay strong!
Jim
Thank you all so much. This is really what I need to hear. This morning as I was taking my shower, I just thought there was absolutley no hope. But ever since I have found this chat group - I kind-of see a small light.
All day today, whenever I would start to think about not having any pills, I would thinkemack17@aol.com of coming here, and talking with people who have done it. When every one says it is better to live with out them, it makes me feel really good and hopeful. But a part of me keeps thinking that I will never get there again, and that I am always going to feel like I need some vicodin. This makes me very sad. I can't tell you how many times I have cried today - and there are tears coming down my face now.
I keep looking at my 4 year old son, and I am thinking that he does not deserve this - any of it.
But I do still have a few questions:
-has anyone experienced weight loss durring withdrawl?
-frequent urination?
-_dhiarea (i can't spell) :)
please let me know. Thanks. - britney
All day today, whenever I would start to think about not having any pills, I would thinkemack17@aol.com of coming here, and talking with people who have done it. When every one says it is better to live with out them, it makes me feel really good and hopeful. But a part of me keeps thinking that I will never get there again, and that I am always going to feel like I need some vicodin. This makes me very sad. I can't tell you how many times I have cried today - and there are tears coming down my face now.
I keep looking at my 4 year old son, and I am thinking that he does not deserve this - any of it.
But I do still have a few questions:
-has anyone experienced weight loss durring withdrawl?
-frequent urination?
-_dhiarea (i can't spell) :)
please let me know. Thanks. - britney
Britney,
Yes, everything you mentioned is a symptom of withdrawl and then some.Frequent trips to the bathroom,urination, diahrrea, nausea, weight loss( I lost a lot weigh when I was coming off methadone),fatigue, insomnia, restless legs, charlie horses, loss of appetite, headaches, abdominal cramps, moodiness and any "FLU LIKE"symptoms you can think of.These are just a things off the top of my head. I am sure a lot of people can name a bunch more but that DOES NOT mean you will get all of them..Let's hope not. I have been exactly where you are today and I can honestly tell you that you WILL feel better very soon. It takes time for your body to re-adjust but it WILL happen but you have got to want it for you and you've got to get the "mental part of it" under control on your own. We can all help you here but it is something you have to work hard at. It isn't easy but it will get easier.I heard some people on here mention a meeting, I for one have never gone to one but I do believe it helps a lot of people and it is a wonderful thing--Just not for me. I struggled with it at home but I was in an 8 year marriage where my husband was getting pills to and was just as wrapped up in it as me and we went through the detox of methadone together.. Which stunk cause I didn't have his support to help me cause he was to busy trying to help himself and I didn't admit it to my mom and family that I had been taking them for 2 1/2 years until I was like 10 days clean. You sound like you have a great husband maybe he can help you deal with this if you just tell him. If he loves you he will help you and that is great when you have someone there to lend you a hand,especially when you have children.Well I am off to bed, try and have a nice holiday tomorrow....Remember,One hour at a time,one day at a time and time heals all... Rachel
Yes, everything you mentioned is a symptom of withdrawl and then some.Frequent trips to the bathroom,urination, diahrrea, nausea, weight loss( I lost a lot weigh when I was coming off methadone),fatigue, insomnia, restless legs, charlie horses, loss of appetite, headaches, abdominal cramps, moodiness and any "FLU LIKE"symptoms you can think of.These are just a things off the top of my head. I am sure a lot of people can name a bunch more but that DOES NOT mean you will get all of them..Let's hope not. I have been exactly where you are today and I can honestly tell you that you WILL feel better very soon. It takes time for your body to re-adjust but it WILL happen but you have got to want it for you and you've got to get the "mental part of it" under control on your own. We can all help you here but it is something you have to work hard at. It isn't easy but it will get easier.I heard some people on here mention a meeting, I for one have never gone to one but I do believe it helps a lot of people and it is a wonderful thing--Just not for me. I struggled with it at home but I was in an 8 year marriage where my husband was getting pills to and was just as wrapped up in it as me and we went through the detox of methadone together.. Which stunk cause I didn't have his support to help me cause he was to busy trying to help himself and I didn't admit it to my mom and family that I had been taking them for 2 1/2 years until I was like 10 days clean. You sound like you have a great husband maybe he can help you deal with this if you just tell him. If he loves you he will help you and that is great when you have someone there to lend you a hand,especially when you have children.Well I am off to bed, try and have a nice holiday tomorrow....Remember,One hour at a time,one day at a time and time heals all... Rachel
What do you suggest I do for tomorrow. I have to go to the big "Family Dinner". For me to think about doing that is so hard. And since tomorrow is a holiday, no doctors are open. - and I am still not sure if I want to go to a doctor yet. I work in the medical field ( not anywhere where I can access drugs), and I don't want to let anyone know what is going on with me, also I am afraid my insurance won't pay for me to get help.
So I am looking for a little advice on how to get through tomorrow, and I just don't want to feel like this anymore. I keep thinking if I only had a few more, then I could cut myself back to where I wouldn't feel like this the next time I stop. But I do that every time I get more. I make a plan on how many I am allowed per day - but I NEVER stick to it. It's like I make myself believe that I deserve more for many reasons.
Last night I was soooo tired, I went to bed @ 8pm then woke up at 3am and could not fall back to sleep. I am also wondering if I should take the ambien I have. I rarley take it, but will that help with the sleeping, or just make the whole process much worse???
thanks - britney
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precious britney -
the truth of the matter is you are going to do whatever it is you want to do. i can only share my experience, strength and hope with you and in doing so, maybe something i say you can find a similarity with.
for years i knew i "needed" to stop the insanity of my addiction and enter a program of recovery. i found that it wasn't until the pain of the consequences of my addiction and the pain of why i felt the need to abuse drugs became too severe to live with, did i want recovery.
there is a big difference between my wants and needs. i'm grateful to have finally realized that there is a solution out of the swirling abyss of insanity i found myself while addicted.
i hope you take it easy on yourself today. when addicted we are sick - physically, emotionally, and spiritually. if you had cancer (another potentially fatal disease) would you force yourself to limits that are not beneficial to your health?
be still, be still, be still my friend. quiet your mind and go within and listen to voice that urging you to do the next right thing. i believe this "voice" is our higher self - that most sacred holy part of our spirit that nudges us to do what is in our best interest.
i wish you a peaceful and blessed day.
please write soon.
love -
sammy
So I am looking for a little advice on how to get through tomorrow, and I just don't want to feel like this anymore. I keep thinking if I only had a few more, then I could cut myself back to where I wouldn't feel like this the next time I stop. But I do that every time I get more. I make a plan on how many I am allowed per day - but I NEVER stick to it. It's like I make myself believe that I deserve more for many reasons.
Last night I was soooo tired, I went to bed @ 8pm then woke up at 3am and could not fall back to sleep. I am also wondering if I should take the ambien I have. I rarley take it, but will that help with the sleeping, or just make the whole process much worse???
thanks - britney
_________________
precious britney -
the truth of the matter is you are going to do whatever it is you want to do. i can only share my experience, strength and hope with you and in doing so, maybe something i say you can find a similarity with.
for years i knew i "needed" to stop the insanity of my addiction and enter a program of recovery. i found that it wasn't until the pain of the consequences of my addiction and the pain of why i felt the need to abuse drugs became too severe to live with, did i want recovery.
there is a big difference between my wants and needs. i'm grateful to have finally realized that there is a solution out of the swirling abyss of insanity i found myself while addicted.
i hope you take it easy on yourself today. when addicted we are sick - physically, emotionally, and spiritually. if you had cancer (another potentially fatal disease) would you force yourself to limits that are not beneficial to your health?
be still, be still, be still my friend. quiet your mind and go within and listen to voice that urging you to do the next right thing. i believe this "voice" is our higher self - that most sacred holy part of our spirit that nudges us to do what is in our best interest.
i wish you a peaceful and blessed day.
please write soon.
love -
sammy
