i f****d up. i dont know what to do. i feel like such a loser. i feel like such an a*****e. talking all that sober s**t. one day with my sister and i am right back where i was. i thought i was strong enough. i was doing so good. the only thing different this time is that i now have 3 jobs to make up for the money i spent a few months ago. i am not sober anymore and i want to die. not really, but i feel like i had accomplished a lot. and the hell i went through i believed was enough that i would never do it again. ive been using for 9 days again. just got the ba**s to come out and say it. i dont know what to do...im scared guys.
so you stuffed up.. now what?
You can keep kicking yourself and turn into a full blown relapse or you can dust yourself off and get back on track.
Learn from it, let the slip make you stronger. Dont be so hard on yourself :)
You can keep kicking yourself and turn into a full blown relapse or you can dust yourself off and get back on track.
Learn from it, let the slip make you stronger. Dont be so hard on yourself :)
..Melissa..
..A lot of addicts relapse before they get themselves clean altogether..who knows wots round the corner for all of us..i was talking to sumone yesterday that i fancied going out and getting myself a bit of brown..but she managed to convince me that it ain,t worth it..i understand your cravings and re using..but you can,t spend to much time on beating ya self up over it..wots done is done..you did wot ya did..try to take it easy on your self..get focused again on getting off it..and see if you can learn from wot made you wanna use last time round..see if you can get over that barrier of wanting to use..it ain,t easy staying clean..especially in the early stages of recovery..good luck getting clean when you decide to try again..Robbie..
..A lot of addicts relapse before they get themselves clean altogether..who knows wots round the corner for all of us..i was talking to sumone yesterday that i fancied going out and getting myself a bit of brown..but she managed to convince me that it ain,t worth it..i understand your cravings and re using..but you can,t spend to much time on beating ya self up over it..wots done is done..you did wot ya did..try to take it easy on your self..get focused again on getting off it..and see if you can learn from wot made you wanna use last time round..see if you can get over that barrier of wanting to use..it ain,t easy staying clean..especially in the early stages of recovery..good luck getting clean when you decide to try again..Robbie..
You feel down EVERYONE dose! "You can stop you have before." Those cravings are so damn powerful. Everytime you fall back into the full blown using your life will get more SCREWED up.This time now is the longest i've been clean in nearly 3 years. I don't always feel I have the right to say clean either. I did a lil methadone months after I was suposta be off it. I still drink here and there not often, but, if I wanna drink I have a few. Just decided you had a slip and try to move on. Of couse you can always come here when you waana use we'll try to help.
Melissa do not know many addicts who have not slipped /Relapsed.
Just jump back into the game. You took a timeout. Learn from it. DO NOT BEAT YOURSELF UP.
You are not a loser.
Thats B.S.
you know what it takes to stay sober. One day at a time you can do anything you put your mind to.
Jeff
Just jump back into the game. You took a timeout. Learn from it. DO NOT BEAT YOURSELF UP.
You are not a loser.
Thats B.S.
you know what it takes to stay sober. One day at a time you can do anything you put your mind to.
Jeff
Im gettin a rep as the local Nut on this site;so what,Here I read this this a.m.:
( From the Tripitaka,the Triple Gems, sorta like the Buddhist bible:)
" Now this, monks,is the Noble Truth of pain:
Birth is painful,old age painful,sickness is painful,death is painful;
Sorrow,lamentation,dejection & despair are painful.
Contact w/ unpleasant things,not getting what one wishes is painful.
And this,O bikkhus, is the Noble Truth of the cause of pain:
the Craving, which tends to rebirth,
combined w/ pleasure & lust,
finding pleasure here & there;namely, craving for passion,
the craving for existence, for non-existence"
Yaddah,yaddah,yaddah,ya.Ok. You got a Craving. You indulged. Follow the wise advice of Silent Partner (terse but smart advice) & Robbie (voice of compassion) & all on this site: STOP BEATING YR SELF UP.If u stopped before u can stop again.But u gotta take the step. Intellect vs. Body. Only u can do it. Good luck kid.Keep posting.
( From the Tripitaka,the Triple Gems, sorta like the Buddhist bible:)
" Now this, monks,is the Noble Truth of pain:
Birth is painful,old age painful,sickness is painful,death is painful;
Sorrow,lamentation,dejection & despair are painful.
Contact w/ unpleasant things,not getting what one wishes is painful.
And this,O bikkhus, is the Noble Truth of the cause of pain:
the Craving, which tends to rebirth,
combined w/ pleasure & lust,
finding pleasure here & there;namely, craving for passion,
the craving for existence, for non-existence"
Yaddah,yaddah,yaddah,ya.Ok. You got a Craving. You indulged. Follow the wise advice of Silent Partner (terse but smart advice) & Robbie (voice of compassion) & all on this site: STOP BEATING YR SELF UP.If u stopped before u can stop again.But u gotta take the step. Intellect vs. Body. Only u can do it. Good luck kid.Keep posting.
