Oh my god! I forget every relapse how hard it is to stay clean. The last five weeks have been bad. It worries me how complacent I had got. Nearly caught twice!! And to be perfectly honest the only reason I am clean just now is because I have no money. S**t, can't believe I'm back at square one. Keep telling myself my luck will run out. It has to be this time, I must take my subutex or I will end up still using when my sub gets stopped. No more.
Thanks for listening.
Look at how far you have come! You should be proud of yourself. Congratulate yourself on every MINUTE you are clean! You are starting your LIFE now! Live every moment in your own truth. Kepp up the good work!!
Don't feel bad sooz, that's the only times I've ever wanted to quit too, because I ran out of momey and my tolerance was getting so high that I couldn't afford to be sick so much and spend so much money, every time it becomes a life of hell and the more you relapse the quicker the hell hits.
be strong, sooz, life is so much better once you
get past all that other s***.....
keep busy! read books, visit family, watch television, play
with your animals, enjoy a glass of red wine with
your dinner. just don't over-do-it- drink it like it's
dessert. spend your extra money eating at fancy
restaurants, BOY, can food make ya feel
sooooo incredibly good n' happy! take long
rides in your car, smoke a million cigarettes if
it makes ya feel better, put on headphones full blast
and lose yourself in the music. so many things to
do to make you feel good, naturally.
thanks to wine i didn't suffer any physical withdrawal
whatsoever- it also helped to be in a new city, there
was a lot to observe and i took advantage of that.
nothing feels better than having your creativity restored,
having feelings restored, being able to make plans for your
future, having the comfort of a family to encourage
you to make the right choices in life, to love you unconditionally and
accept you for who you are...
stay strong, BE WOMAN! you can make it, girl- MIND OVER MATTER. put that
on repeat in your mind, it sure works for me. i dont let a damn thing
control me except for cigarettes=/ but one day i'll beat that too......one addiction at a time, though, i still got a little ways to go =))
get past all that other s***.....
keep busy! read books, visit family, watch television, play
with your animals, enjoy a glass of red wine with
your dinner. just don't over-do-it- drink it like it's
dessert. spend your extra money eating at fancy
restaurants, BOY, can food make ya feel
sooooo incredibly good n' happy! take long
rides in your car, smoke a million cigarettes if
it makes ya feel better, put on headphones full blast
and lose yourself in the music. so many things to
do to make you feel good, naturally.
thanks to wine i didn't suffer any physical withdrawal
whatsoever- it also helped to be in a new city, there
was a lot to observe and i took advantage of that.
nothing feels better than having your creativity restored,
having feelings restored, being able to make plans for your
future, having the comfort of a family to encourage
you to make the right choices in life, to love you unconditionally and
accept you for who you are...
stay strong, BE WOMAN! you can make it, girl- MIND OVER MATTER. put that
on repeat in your mind, it sure works for me. i dont let a damn thing
control me except for cigarettes=/ but one day i'll beat that too......one addiction at a time, though, i still got a little ways to go =))
dont feel bad sooz i have some thing going on in my life that are trying to feed my disease but one of the few things i have going for me right now is my sobriaty.so i know i must not ruin this.keep telling yourself this,nothing is worth loosing my sobriaty over.say that over and over every time you think of useing.and pray it helps too!
Cheers for your support. Another day clean so am on the right path again. Keep telling myself it was only another wee trip up on my slightly uneven path.
Just had a thought, I am now a "recovering" addict not a junkie!!
Stay safe.x
Just had a thought, I am now a "recovering" addict not a junkie!!
Stay safe.x
