Still Doing The Same

Hi all - I'm still here... Doing the same, drinking every night. Hiding and denying. Oh, I'm good... Have a couple and lie.... I'm sick of myself.
I'm good, never go to far, but every night? Why? Guess cause I'm an Alcoholic!
A couple.... HA, last night who knows.... I buy in bulk; big handle jugs, thoes are fun to hit.... because they last (a week).

???? For thoes who may help.

I'd like to talk with someone one on one, but I'm not ready for "a group"... who can I talk with? Do I call my local AA and just ask them?

I know I must get help. It is not "fun" anymore. And one always leads to more...
Hi chance
I don't know if AA would recommend individual therapists. But try online and try your phone book.

Don't know where you live, but often the government section will have places to call for substance abuse.

You could of course just try out an AA meeting. You don't have to actually speak, you can just listen at first. I know its hard to go to that first one.

You sound a lot like me. I drink most days, maybe once every few weeks I can go a day or so without. I've tried a couple of times to quit with no success yet - I know now I can't do it alone. but I'm still drinking.

I usually only go totally overboard, once a week or so but its very hard for me NOT to drink at all, and I often skip activities so I can stay home and drink. I can generally control my drinking enough during the week so I can still go to work.

An alcoholic friend once said to me "my life revolves around the bottle." When she told me that I thought "how awful that must be." Now that is my life.

you've taken the first step - admitting your problem.
take care of you
Idgie.

Thanks for the post Idgie. I did take some time and read some who posted to you. I took in the information. I liked your suggestion of even a theripist. I better try something. Not, that my drinking has gotten so bad I have issues. I'm just tired of the drink. I have a fortunate life, I'm a lucky one, but I can only imagin what will become of everything if I continue to drink.
Chance
it WILL get worse you are right about that. I am doing things now I never thought I'd do. So I know I have to stop before I lose all the good things in my life.

House, husband, good job, family etc.

You have to find what works for you - if a therapist works - go for it!!

This board can be a bit slow at times. If you ever want to chat you can emaile me: idgie2529@yahoo.com

cheers
Idgie