just had a bath feel a bit better,i cud go out an score now,but i dont feel the need to.been laid in bed the last 20 minutes with out moving all the time,i feel quite comfortable at the minute.
Hi Paul,
Glad to hear your not doing too bad. Just 13days of a meth turkey myself. Wasnt so much the physical pains that got to me more the psych!
lol the Verve Drugs dont Work just came on. Kinda appropriate!
Anyway, I noticed sum1 mentioned blockers to you earlier on but they mentioned the Inplant. Well a few of my friends got that (plenty money) but for us mere mortals theres pretty slim chance of affording it. So fit I did was get to my GP and get him to prescribe the tablets. The law says that any GP in the UK can prescribe them.
But that was just the way I wanted to go. Maybe you want total abstinence. I had to do it for the simple fact that I would be out using right now if it wasnt for them, getting cleans not my problem its my love of a gouch and giving that up thats hard. Even though the funny thing is I havent got a gouch for years unless I had plenty benzos in my system.
I really hope you keep at it. Everyone on here kens how hard it can be and they all give out the best advice. Wish yi heaps o luck doll!
Luv Lorz xxx
Glad to hear your not doing too bad. Just 13days of a meth turkey myself. Wasnt so much the physical pains that got to me more the psych!
lol the Verve Drugs dont Work just came on. Kinda appropriate!
Anyway, I noticed sum1 mentioned blockers to you earlier on but they mentioned the Inplant. Well a few of my friends got that (plenty money) but for us mere mortals theres pretty slim chance of affording it. So fit I did was get to my GP and get him to prescribe the tablets. The law says that any GP in the UK can prescribe them.
But that was just the way I wanted to go. Maybe you want total abstinence. I had to do it for the simple fact that I would be out using right now if it wasnt for them, getting cleans not my problem its my love of a gouch and giving that up thats hard. Even though the funny thing is I havent got a gouch for years unless I had plenty benzos in my system.
I really hope you keep at it. Everyone on here kens how hard it can be and they all give out the best advice. Wish yi heaps o luck doll!
Luv Lorz xxx
hi,thanks im ok,i did a meth turkey myself it lasted 5 an half week,dont think i was fully over it when i got back on the gear,i did rapid detox 5ml aday,from 50ml...ill never take that again.i no what ur saying about the pills im a pill lover.
but the thing is once ive had them i go score.
but the thing is once ive had them i go score.
Hi again,
I did the exact same, down 5mls every 5 days fae 50ml. But of a bummer thing to have to put yerself thru. Did you sayy yi was bck at yer mams? My mam n dad moved fae my home town to 40mile in the city, so I moved in with them. On my very very last chance though. Its easier with them I think, can plod bout on the comp n watch sky etc. Takes my mind of things.
The way Im looking at it just now is that if I wanted to go out n score a) dont know any dealers here b)if I went home wud need a tenner for my bus fare and being back on the dole I canna afford to fork out 30 quid for 0.2g. and c) the H winna affect me for 3days being on these blockers!
When Im bored I just stay on here and plod around. Chatting to other people really helps. Was an addict for 7yrs and find it really hard to realise that im 23 now and need to get a grip a4 ma whole life passes by. Leaving all my pals (addicts) behind was a good thing even though I miss them. But theres no way to get clean and I cant avoid them, it was a small town with the highest percntage addicts in Scotland. But I really miss home!
Staying in all day is starting to drive me mad. and when I do go out Im just on the piss. Suppose its something we all have to get thru in our own time.
Luv Lorz xxx
I did the exact same, down 5mls every 5 days fae 50ml. But of a bummer thing to have to put yerself thru. Did you sayy yi was bck at yer mams? My mam n dad moved fae my home town to 40mile in the city, so I moved in with them. On my very very last chance though. Its easier with them I think, can plod bout on the comp n watch sky etc. Takes my mind of things.
The way Im looking at it just now is that if I wanted to go out n score a) dont know any dealers here b)if I went home wud need a tenner for my bus fare and being back on the dole I canna afford to fork out 30 quid for 0.2g. and c) the H winna affect me for 3days being on these blockers!
When Im bored I just stay on here and plod around. Chatting to other people really helps. Was an addict for 7yrs and find it really hard to realise that im 23 now and need to get a grip a4 ma whole life passes by. Leaving all my pals (addicts) behind was a good thing even though I miss them. But theres no way to get clean and I cant avoid them, it was a small town with the highest percntage addicts in Scotland. But I really miss home!
Staying in all day is starting to drive me mad. and when I do go out Im just on the piss. Suppose its something we all have to get thru in our own time.
Luv Lorz xxx
P.S In answer to your other post Im usure which is worse...This is the first time Ive made it past my second day. Did feel a lot worse when hitting though.
If you just started hitting why the hell was you using your groin? I was injecting for 5yrs b4 I lost all my veins and had to start going there and Im female (we tend to have worse veins).
But then fan I was havin a toot I pobably did feel worse, just that hitting made me feel s*** faster. It must come out your system faster or something
Luv Lorz xxx
If you just started hitting why the hell was you using your groin? I was injecting for 5yrs b4 I lost all my veins and had to start going there and Im female (we tend to have worse veins).
But then fan I was havin a toot I pobably did feel worse, just that hitting made me feel s*** faster. It must come out your system faster or something
Luv Lorz xxx
yeah at my parents,ill stay away from my old mates this time,thats how i f***ed up this time mate got out of jail started dealing..ive dealt alot myself,only way to keep a stable habit with out worry...but 7 week ago there were 40 people busted in my town.the police had been doing an under cover op for 6 month,camaras in there hats..thought i was going to be wanted,but luckily im not.
paul - what are you still doing up? Glad to hear the bath helped you. Each day will get better,
im not expecting any sleep this week,i never do while doing cold turkey.
past my first 24 hours and i dont feel to bad at the mo..i havnt been moving or shaking my legs since i got ouit the bath...sweats pouring out of me :( im drinking plenty of water,im going to do this what ever...it's just staying off it thats the prob with me.
past my first 24 hours and i dont feel to bad at the mo..i havnt been moving or shaking my legs since i got ouit the bath...sweats pouring out of me :( im drinking plenty of water,im going to do this what ever...it's just staying off it thats the prob with me.
Hi,
They cops must be on some kinda crusade coz bout 2/3 weeks ago they busted bout 25 to 30 doors up here too! They recovered so much gear and white I just thught to myself "thank f*** im clean! Drought time again"!
At least theyre not looking for you, theres nothing worse than having to duck n dive round town kennin theres a warrant or sumin on your head. I remember having to cut dwn all the back lanes thinkin plz just let me get hame n get this in ma a4 yiz c** 4 ma. Na thats a rough feelin.
Your on yer way boy. Im gan to my home town at the weekend. Am going to meet a lot of folk that use and am actually lookin forward to it in a strange kinda way. Thats probs with small towns theyll a ken Im coming hame, but on the blockers theres nothin I can do and Im just goin to stay awa fae the W.
Keep up all your good work doll, and let me ken how you get on
Luv Lorz xxx
They cops must be on some kinda crusade coz bout 2/3 weeks ago they busted bout 25 to 30 doors up here too! They recovered so much gear and white I just thught to myself "thank f*** im clean! Drought time again"!
At least theyre not looking for you, theres nothing worse than having to duck n dive round town kennin theres a warrant or sumin on your head. I remember having to cut dwn all the back lanes thinkin plz just let me get hame n get this in ma a4 yiz c** 4 ma. Na thats a rough feelin.
Your on yer way boy. Im gan to my home town at the weekend. Am going to meet a lot of folk that use and am actually lookin forward to it in a strange kinda way. Thats probs with small towns theyll a ken Im coming hame, but on the blockers theres nothin I can do and Im just goin to stay awa fae the W.
Keep up all your good work doll, and let me ken how you get on
Luv Lorz xxx
Try drinking some Ensure. That has nutrients and vitamins that will help give you some energy. Plus, you can go to Health Store and they can tell you what kind of vitamins will work. I know everyone always says this when someone is trying to stay clean, but try reading your Bible. It really will help. Just pick a chapter and start reading. The New Testament is easier. But then again Psalms and Proverbs are uplifting.
Good luck.
Good luck.
drinkin loadsa water really helped me, enen though I thought it was the biggest heap of crap id ever heard. Insomnia is the worst part. Even though Im prescribed 3nitrazepam a nite it still doesnt help much.
You think your nae sleeping and can hear evrything going on around you, but you are sleepin. Or the worst, you nod off and think beauty Ive been sleeping for hours and you look at the time and you lucky if you got 20mins.
You think your nae sleeping and can hear evrything going on around you, but you are sleepin. Or the worst, you nod off and think beauty Ive been sleeping for hours and you look at the time and you lucky if you got 20mins.
im just going to do it cold turkey,with water and what little foood i can eat.
staying away from the sugar,when ive eaten sugers my rattle last's longer.
i had nearly 200 pills last week,did them in tho..how i cud do with them right now....always the same with me tho,always the hardest way.
staying away from the sugar,when ive eaten sugers my rattle last's longer.
i had nearly 200 pills last week,did them in tho..how i cud do with them right now....always the same with me tho,always the hardest way.
Take multivitamins 2. They help. Ats crazy u mentiond sugar. I cut right down off it and it helped aswell, but hought it was all in ma head! Just got to keep busy. My body is just exhausted. Need to go for shower but the thought of climbing the stairs makes me feel knackered. One of my clean pals just phoned and that cheered me up, I think the lonliness is getting to me but I cant be bothered to get up and do anything.
Its great having the pills to help yi, but as you said they make you want to use and you dont even have a conscience bout it! I would welcome all the moggies, vallies and jellies in to my body right now. Have got up to 40mogs in my cupboard and ken that taking 6 is only one night of no sleep but Im having to do everything to stop myself toddling of to that cupboard. Wud luv nothing more. RIGHT, have to get that out the head right now!!! Anyway I start with 6 and just take them like sweeties nibbling awa the rest of the day.
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lucky im not there id be straight to ur cupboard...lol...they knock u out 4 2 days mogs aswell,if u av enuff.
im more into vallies an tamazies,got a script to buy on friday.
well time dont seem to be going to slow today,it did yest/day.
even tho im rattling ive got a smile on my face,i think its just getting the first day out the way,then telling urself,i havnt just done that 4 nothing,keeps me going anyway.
got 13 week interview at job center friday,hoping to feel better for then.
im more into vallies an tamazies,got a script to buy on friday.
well time dont seem to be going to slow today,it did yest/day.
even tho im rattling ive got a smile on my face,i think its just getting the first day out the way,then telling urself,i havnt just done that 4 nothing,keeps me going anyway.
got 13 week interview at job center friday,hoping to feel better for then.
Is the interview for Incapacity? I should have one coming up soon aswell. The last time I had a medical I never turned up and got my money stopped. Thye must do everyone at once coz half the town lost their money, and my pal who did turn up, well, her mam made her get all dressed presentable etc and they stopped her money coz she never looked a mess. Pretty messd up aint the they!
Im trying to figure out whether I need to go job hunting and stay in the city or end up back home. The way I feel today just want to go home. (Even though I aint got one - A pal wud put me up)
Know how you mean bout the smile on your face, but I sometimes used to go hysterical with laughter over nothing when withdrawing. When I got my blockers on Sunday felt so chuffed with myself and for bout half n hour the smile was beaming and I was so high.
That f***in cupboard is callin me though. We dont get much jellies up here. Me and my ex-lad and friend had an amazing scam of driving 200miles to get some 20mg. It was a beauty of a scam. Prob be the last time i ever here of Jellies for a long time.
Do you believe in 100% abstinence???
Thats where Im having probs getting help for getting clean and have had people on sites have a go at me for drinking, moggies and even my blockers.
Im trying to figure out whether I need to go job hunting and stay in the city or end up back home. The way I feel today just want to go home. (Even though I aint got one - A pal wud put me up)
Know how you mean bout the smile on your face, but I sometimes used to go hysterical with laughter over nothing when withdrawing. When I got my blockers on Sunday felt so chuffed with myself and for bout half n hour the smile was beaming and I was so high.
That f***in cupboard is callin me though. We dont get much jellies up here. Me and my ex-lad and friend had an amazing scam of driving 200miles to get some 20mg. It was a beauty of a scam. Prob be the last time i ever here of Jellies for a long time.
Do you believe in 100% abstinence???
Thats where Im having probs getting help for getting clean and have had people on sites have a go at me for drinking, moggies and even my blockers.
ill drink and do owt apart from smack,it's that thats the evil 1.
as long as ur happy doing what ur doing carry on,ur doing well,
i no we get those hard days..im going to av to face them next week.
as for jellies they stopped them down here years ago,people were injecting them.
can u remember the green 30ml 1s ???
as long as ur happy doing what ur doing carry on,ur doing well,
i no we get those hard days..im going to av to face them next week.
as for jellies they stopped them down here years ago,people were injecting them.
can u remember the green 30ml 1s ???
I think you are right on my wave length just now. Was just sitting dreaming bout a good old pill that we used to call jelly eggs!!! Sounds like the same thing to me doll, they disappeared when I hadnt been using long though. Where Im fae its easy to get pills etc fae my doc. The news calls him Dr death. For the past 5yr had a script from him. I got 8 60mg dfs a day, 4 blues and 2nitrazepam a day and then coz I ket selling my dfs for brown I got 50ml meth, 3 blues and 3mogs a day. He just put me on it and I never even saw him again for 2 year. I wasnt complaining though, I was using on top the whole time and never got a drug test or nothing from him.
Where abouts in England are you from if you dont mind me asking? Is it easy enough to get treatment there? I just turkeyed cos the waiting lists are so long up here!
Where abouts in England are you from if you dont mind me asking? Is it easy enough to get treatment there? I just turkeyed cos the waiting lists are so long up here!
im from grimsby....down here people r getting cut down on there scripts,it use to be easy to get pills..they give meth an subs out easy tho,ur on them with in a couple of days...local jails have now started to give people meth and subs so thats alrite....cold turkey off that meth sucks, in sum jail s*** hole,rough stuff.
born slippy as just c** on the radio,that brings back good memories.
born slippy as just c** on the radio,that brings back good memories.
Ah born slippy, the good days. I think it might get released for trainspotting 10th aniversary. I never used when that came out, youd think it would of put me off! My aunt actually lived in a squat with Irvine Welsh for a while (so she said), she never knew him well coz there was bout 20 odd of them. And when u use you dontr care who ur with as long as you ken theyve nae got the power to rip you off!
Im really glad you are doing so well, Ive been of the H 6wks on Friday, considering never made it past my 2nd day a4 Im pretty chuffed with masel! How long is that you have done now?
I still count down my hours etc...After each 24hrs goes by even if you feel like s*** you get pretty chuffed wi yersel.
Its the mind that gets to me. I was warned by pals how I wud feel, but you know how it is you always think you are doing ok.
Im really glad you are doing so well, Ive been of the H 6wks on Friday, considering never made it past my 2nd day a4 Im pretty chuffed with masel! How long is that you have done now?
I still count down my hours etc...After each 24hrs goes by even if you feel like s*** you get pretty chuffed wi yersel.
Its the mind that gets to me. I was warned by pals how I wud feel, but you know how it is you always think you are doing ok.
