Hey all,
It's been a while everything in my world is pretty much the same and my stress level is way up!
Worried about my brother he's having problems w/ his probation officer and i think he's gonna end up going to jail. I wish they would just send him to a rehab allready! He needs it but he will never willingly go.
An old friend/boyfriend called and since the last time i talked to him i've stayed clean and he's started using agian spent 60 days locked up, and it was like he didnt believe me when i told him i wasent using anymore and that the last time i did was w/ him.
I can admit that even talking to him made me think about it not like i acted on it or anything it's just been so long that i have even thought about it.
It was like it just passed by i ackowladged it and then it was gone i know it's not anything i would do today but i'm worried everything is going so well and normally by now i would have screwed it up by now. It's so awsome that i'm starting a whole new life it's exciting.
I guess i knew somthing like this would happen people from your past just seem like thell allways pop up from here and there it's like my test and i know that it wouldnt be hard to convince him to use w/ me so it's nice i passed the test i resisted the temptation and i will allways have special fealings for him cause of our past but i'm glad that i can realize that it's impossiable to be his friend w/o the risk of messing up all my progress.
girl........u did welll for not goin there how long is it since u last used?u should be well proud of urself seroiusly girly to resist the temtation know what i mean keep it up hun well done!!!!
..Mia..
..Good on ya girl..for resisting wot was in front of you..Temptation..your gonna be tested for a long time to come mia..but you probably know that..i know its hard for you to see your bro as he is ..but you also know its out of your hands until he decides wot to do himself..anyway mia..as i said..you know all this..i just wanna give ya my support..take care..nice to see ya still in recovery..Robbie..
..Good on ya girl..for resisting wot was in front of you..Temptation..your gonna be tested for a long time to come mia..but you probably know that..i know its hard for you to see your bro as he is ..but you also know its out of your hands until he decides wot to do himself..anyway mia..as i said..you know all this..i just wanna give ya my support..take care..nice to see ya still in recovery..Robbie..
Well his test came back clean so no jail for now!
It has been 7 and 1/2 months since i last used! Seriously i cant believe it
It feels awsome and today has been like the first really nice day i love it. it seems like winter never ends here and i hope it dosnet come back i love the sun!
Its been so hard pushing the doubts out of my head i know its just normal but it still sucks!
It has been 7 and 1/2 months since i last used! Seriously i cant believe it
It feels awsome and today has been like the first really nice day i love it. it seems like winter never ends here and i hope it dosnet come back i love the sun!
Its been so hard pushing the doubts out of my head i know its just normal but it still sucks!
Hey Mia, I was wondering how you were.....oh that brother...LOL....you're amazing.....you're in the thick of it, and still just keep on going.
Good ON you...LOL...Brit's say GOOD ON YOU......not good FOR you...love it.
Hang on you girlie girl....way proud of you.....you're a bigger person than me.
Catch ya soon.....you're doing great...yeah sun....remember when you didn't know if it was in or out? I sure do.....later for now, babes.
Good ON you...LOL...Brit's say GOOD ON YOU......not good FOR you...love it.
Hang on you girlie girl....way proud of you.....you're a bigger person than me.
Catch ya soon.....you're doing great...yeah sun....remember when you didn't know if it was in or out? I sure do.....later for now, babes.
