Hey All Most of you may know me from the pain pill board.Well today is the first day that I am going to not smoke cigs.Its a matter of my life now so somehow I must stay strong.Im writing this in hopes that it will help to keep track of what Im going through.So with that said I want to post what In feeling etc right now
Right now Im sitting here which I usually smoke my mind out.Even now Im trying to think if there are any smokes here as I havent put the patch on yet.Still thinking like an addict I guess.That one last smoke before I quit.
Well I guess that proves what a wimp I am.I just got 1 smoke off my sis.see my BF took everything else smoke wise with him.How the hell am I gonna do this.Why do I feel like Ill be fighting a loosen battle & how the hell do I start thinking positive?Thats just part of how Im feeling.Just like an addicct Im thinking right now....yeah watch I quit balloon up to 300 lbs & still get Cancer?My sick mind is going like crazy.Something tells me the pain pills were a walk in the park compared to what Im trying to do now.
Im gonna be here for a couple more minutes before I shut the computer down.I let my house get totally messy this weekend so I woulxd stay busy today.Sure It feels like 100 in here now I cant picture later.
If anyone has some words of support I could really use them.Thanks All for letting me have a place to vent as I do this....mj
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Hi MJ, I was just wondering how you are doing & think you should give us a progress report. Keep going.
Hugs,
The QuietOne
Hugs,
The QuietOne
Dear Mj x
I was just having a read and couldn't not wish you support!!! So, let us know how you're doing today with the cigs x
Sending you TONS of (((((((DONT SMOKE)))))) vibes, you CAN do this babe x
love ya
Gabbs
I was just having a read and couldn't not wish you support!!! So, let us know how you're doing today with the cigs x
Sending you TONS of (((((((DONT SMOKE)))))) vibes, you CAN do this babe x
love ya
Gabbs
Thanks GUYS
Gabs I almost cried to see your post.Ive missed you so much my friend
Im not doing well at all.I started out so so great.I didnt smoke from like 8:30am yesterday till 6pm yesterday.The patch kept comming off cause its hotter than hell here lately.My biggest problem is the once again no sleeping/When I was up & down all nite I caved.I am so upset with myself & really dont know if Im strong enough to do this.As Im writing the tears are falling.I know selfpity is NOT a good thing.
I dont have a choice but to keep trying & thats what my plan is but my addictive mind keeps messing with me.Has anyone ever wanted to run away from yourself & you can't????A very sad mj today....
Gabs I almost cried to see your post.Ive missed you so much my friend
Im not doing well at all.I started out so so great.I didnt smoke from like 8:30am yesterday till 6pm yesterday.The patch kept comming off cause its hotter than hell here lately.My biggest problem is the once again no sleeping/When I was up & down all nite I caved.I am so upset with myself & really dont know if Im strong enough to do this.As Im writing the tears are falling.I know selfpity is NOT a good thing.
I dont have a choice but to keep trying & thats what my plan is but my addictive mind keeps messing with me.Has anyone ever wanted to run away from yourself & you can't????A very sad mj today....
Hey Molly,
I hope you check this cause I have a link and I know if I put it here it will help other who see the title of your thread......
http://www.addictionrecovery.com/links.htm
Ok now the sleep real quick...The sub can make sleep difficult. Now so can undo stress, so find a way to relax, caffiene, and smoking in itself causes sleeplessness because each night when you go to sleep you go into wd, because you ain't smoking.....A vicious cycle.
So try to cut the caffiene out especially late in the day....I never slept ever was up and down all night no matter what was going on, I stopped the caffiene and I have slept ever since, like The Dead!
You can do this....I have lots of faith in you....
Oh Gabs it is so good to see you, you are missed. How are things going with the sub reduction you almost off yet. I miss you posting about it, how I am gonna learn if you ain't talking. Your situation is different than many on the pill board cause you have been on a low dose for a long time.....
Hope to see you posting more often.....
Take good care of you....
Love Yah both,
Tina
I hope you check this cause I have a link and I know if I put it here it will help other who see the title of your thread......
http://www.addictionrecovery.com/links.htm
Ok now the sleep real quick...The sub can make sleep difficult. Now so can undo stress, so find a way to relax, caffiene, and smoking in itself causes sleeplessness because each night when you go to sleep you go into wd, because you ain't smoking.....A vicious cycle.
So try to cut the caffiene out especially late in the day....I never slept ever was up and down all night no matter what was going on, I stopped the caffiene and I have slept ever since, like The Dead!
You can do this....I have lots of faith in you....
Oh Gabs it is so good to see you, you are missed. How are things going with the sub reduction you almost off yet. I miss you posting about it, how I am gonna learn if you ain't talking. Your situation is different than many on the pill board cause you have been on a low dose for a long time.....
Hope to see you posting more often.....
Take good care of you....
Love Yah both,
Tina
Tina Thank you for your supporet.I hope you are doing ok with the no smoking.Or at least cutting back.
I really have tried to cut all the negitives at nite & it doesny seem to help.I did notice lately Ive been comfort eating in the nite when Im up & that is something I must stop.All I can do is keep trying.Ill check that site out.Once again thank you...mj
I really have tried to cut all the negitives at nite & it doesny seem to help.I did notice lately Ive been comfort eating in the nite when Im up & that is something I must stop.All I can do is keep trying.Ill check that site out.Once again thank you...mj
i am on my 5th day without smoking using my patches off doctor i have also quit weed and booze 17 years every day booze and ciggies if i can stop u can good luck keep fighting like me
