Subutex

Heroin
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Hey guys,
Wow, have I been through an awful couple of weeks. I know most of you understand how dreadful they were.
I was really struggling to last through cold turkey and I would relapse every few days. I was climbing the walls and my blood felt like it had changed into thousands of insects. I would go through this and awful depression and the rest for like 3 or 4 days and then couldn't handle it anymore so I would relapse and go back to square one.
After getting my hands on Subutex, I can eventually see the light through the incredibly mirkey water. I've been clean for 4 days now and don't have any withdrawels what so ever. I know there are people who disagree with subutex, but honestly, if you don't become addicted to it, it's definately the best thing that's happened to me. For the first time in a LONG time I actually feel like I can throw this God forsaken 'disease'! In fact I know I can.
Thank you to you all who gave me the support I needed when I needed it. I could never explain how much or what exactly it means to me. May God hold you tight and bless you in every way you desire. Thank you again.
Jaxi
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That is great Jaxi. My bloke is still the same coward and cant stay off the gear long enough to take the subutex.

I hate him because he is such a coward and I think why stay with someone that dont make me happy, but I am going to do something about it...not sure when but I will get there. He has had all the choices so far to make a change and now its my turn.

Well done once again....its amazing that you have got this far and are still so positive.

Good luck in the future and dont forget to keep us all posted on your recovery.

Lynds xx
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Jaxi well proud of you!! Nothing better than hearing things like that. And going through those long long days..... BUT you've done it and well, things can only get better( no way...getting flashbacks of that d:ream song...to early for this ha ha) Seriously, all the best, Take it easy, Kev
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Congrats. Make sure you're getting other help too though, like a programme...subbies treat only a part of this disease. Good luck!
Maddy x
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Lynds, as much as you love your guy and wanna be there for him, there is no point unless you're there for yourself first. Im sure you know that nobody can save him, but him. And if he aint prepared to save himself or give it his all in trying, he's gonna drag you way down with him.
It must be so difficult to make this decision and Im sure Im nowhere near to understanding how you feel, but you deserve that guy that respects himself as well as you. That guy that won't stand for being ruled by this f#*!ing drug because he loves his life and he loves his woman!!
But it sounds like you know what you want which rocks, just don't forget that that guy IS out there! And you got a whole lotta love and respect coming your way, as long as you believe it and believe you deserve it!
Take care love and please keep me posted.
Woohoo! been clean for 5 days now and feeling strong!! I know it's in two months time that I gotta worry, but Im feeling stronger than I ever have. Im not f#*!ing going back! My future is HUGE!
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Stick at it Jaxi, you're doing great!
Maddy x