Because of your courage and candidness on this board regarding pill addiction....I did not take an Ativan on Saturday night when faced with the challenge of walking into a meeting for the first time.
Love and Light,
Diana
Hi Diana...
It's good to see you around...I just read about your trip to India and I felt like I lived in through you...thanks for sharing your journey...
Good for you for not taking the pill...as fearful as I can get dealing with some of life's situations I am going through lately, one thing I have found is after I walk through the fear, face the situations head on, I find how empowering it is to have dealt with the situation clean & sober...
How did your meeting go? You have always been one of my inspirations and I'm glad your back home....
xoxo
Stacey
It's good to see you around...I just read about your trip to India and I felt like I lived in through you...thanks for sharing your journey...
Good for you for not taking the pill...as fearful as I can get dealing with some of life's situations I am going through lately, one thing I have found is after I walk through the fear, face the situations head on, I find how empowering it is to have dealt with the situation clean & sober...
How did your meeting go? You have always been one of my inspirations and I'm glad your back home....
xoxo
Stacey
Hi Stacey !
So glad my India experience resonated with you and others, I do love people (and apparently elephants lol). The trip blew my mind without damaging my brain :-) who knew that would be possible......btw I recently found out that elephants are telepathic....don't get me started.....:-)
The meeting had the topics "family" and " do our insides match our outsides?" Gave me lots to think about....because on that particular day, @ that moment, yeah, I matched. :-) Felt pretty good.
Regarding family....when I got home that night, I called my son....I just wanted him to know I was thinking about him. Just because he's 20 doesn't mean I stop being mommy. He screwed up his back snow boarding and he has been miserable, the Doc gave him percocet !!!!! But he hated how they made him feel and threw them away. Talk about a sigh of relief. :-) So now he's taking a muscle relaxant and an anti-inflammatory and going to physio.
When I was a party-every-weekend-woman (age 14 on), I was raising him (age 20 on) and I didn't think I was an addict (I just thought I was nuts) back then. I see it now of course. I feel guilty and we do have a road trip coming up, I plan to spend it driving, and apologizing for being such a drunken idiot. It was wrong, plain and simple. I will ask my higher power for guidance in that conversation....or hey, maybe I could start a topic here....."How do you talk to your older kids without f***ing up any further?"
However, my recent guilt does not define me....nor lead me to the "garage mahal." for a toke.....
Thanks for asking dear, your words hit the nail on the head, empowering, indeed.
Peace,
Diana
So glad my India experience resonated with you and others, I do love people (and apparently elephants lol). The trip blew my mind without damaging my brain :-) who knew that would be possible......btw I recently found out that elephants are telepathic....don't get me started.....:-)
The meeting had the topics "family" and " do our insides match our outsides?" Gave me lots to think about....because on that particular day, @ that moment, yeah, I matched. :-) Felt pretty good.
Regarding family....when I got home that night, I called my son....I just wanted him to know I was thinking about him. Just because he's 20 doesn't mean I stop being mommy. He screwed up his back snow boarding and he has been miserable, the Doc gave him percocet !!!!! But he hated how they made him feel and threw them away. Talk about a sigh of relief. :-) So now he's taking a muscle relaxant and an anti-inflammatory and going to physio.
When I was a party-every-weekend-woman (age 14 on), I was raising him (age 20 on) and I didn't think I was an addict (I just thought I was nuts) back then. I see it now of course. I feel guilty and we do have a road trip coming up, I plan to spend it driving, and apologizing for being such a drunken idiot. It was wrong, plain and simple. I will ask my higher power for guidance in that conversation....or hey, maybe I could start a topic here....."How do you talk to your older kids without f***ing up any further?"
However, my recent guilt does not define me....nor lead me to the "garage mahal." for a toke.....
Thanks for asking dear, your words hit the nail on the head, empowering, indeed.
Peace,
Diana
