Oh, your understanding is so heartwarming. I was fully expecting a few, get off your butt and get clean messages. I have tried, I am sure you are all familiar with it. I feel very trapped as my husband is not fully aware of the severity of my problem. I was an RN at the local hospital for years, so I am reluctant to show up there. I wouldn't even think of showing at a meeting and having my sons recovery tampered with. Yes, I sound self pitying and that I am rationalizing, I realize that. It is not an excuse to continue to use, it just seems the easiest way out. How does one go through grueling withdrawl when life must go on and no one understands. Mothers Day I received a card from one of my sons thanking me for saving his life. I couldn't imagine what a suicide would do to my family. I hope that God Is just looking down on me. You people are very fine, kind souls.
Horselover,
This is a place to vent, ask for help, or just stop in and share your experiance strength and hope. There is no need to apolagize for anything. You come and post as often as you need. There are alot of real fine and good hearted people here and I'm sure you'll get the feed back you need. I'm glad I was able to meet ya'. Post anytime.
Take care....................................God bless...........................................Bob
sunberst58@yahoo.com
This is a place to vent, ask for help, or just stop in and share your experiance strength and hope. There is no need to apolagize for anything. You come and post as often as you need. There are alot of real fine and good hearted people here and I'm sure you'll get the feed back you need. I'm glad I was able to meet ya'. Post anytime.
Take care....................................God bless...........................................Bob
sunberst58@yahoo.com
I am a former Green Beret, 40years old, my first 21days of being clean from percs was a journey i will never go on again, it is my 23rday and i feel pretty good, my background helps me to "suck it up" and put this behind me, the first week to 3weeks i don't think i could have gone to a "job" and functioned right, last night was the first night i slept good without ambien that a Dr. gave me a 10day supply of to get me thru the worst of this, but i can honestly say i beat this "so far" with the will of God and willpower, the first 2.5 weeks i felt like there was no purpose in life,bad insominia,blurred vision, no ambition, the whole nine yards, but i don't feel like that anymore, i just kept telling myself if i don't pick myself up i am going to go down and lose everything(possibly my life) the people around me didn't deserve a drug addict, my fellow soldiers overseas dying for me now deserve to protect someone who will give back to society, not one who poisens society, but i went about this the hard way, no rehab, and pretty much alone, but determined, just find your way into the light, and once the light starts shining down on you your momentum(not weakness) will carry you to your destiny. Goodluck horselover and Peace
Gladiator,
I must say I didn't hold much hope for ya' with the "suck it up" method. But I'm truley happy for ya', and I wish you all the best. I couldn't have done it without help. I went to detox and rehab, then after a relapse I did cold turkey at home but, I had a support group and I went and still go to meetings. But aside from the common denominator of us all being alcoholics and addicts we are all different. I'm glad to see your feeling better and I hope you are successful in your journey to stay clean. Congradulations on your clean time and thankyou for your sevice to our country. My family is full of men and women who have served our country, Army, Marines, Navy and Air Force.
Take care.............................God bless.............................................Bob
I must say I didn't hold much hope for ya' with the "suck it up" method. But I'm truley happy for ya', and I wish you all the best. I couldn't have done it without help. I went to detox and rehab, then after a relapse I did cold turkey at home but, I had a support group and I went and still go to meetings. But aside from the common denominator of us all being alcoholics and addicts we are all different. I'm glad to see your feeling better and I hope you are successful in your journey to stay clean. Congradulations on your clean time and thankyou for your sevice to our country. My family is full of men and women who have served our country, Army, Marines, Navy and Air Force.
Take care.............................God bless.............................................Bob
