The Insanity Of Addiction

Heroin
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I haven't used this site for well over a year now, before that in 2005 I came across it and was using it quite regularly. At the time I was clean and life was good, then being the loyal addict I am, instead of continuing to do something which was clearly beneficial to me, I went back to the insanity of addiction. Any one who has been using for a long time will know that it never gets better, this disease of ours gets worse and worse, and our actions become more and more desperate until somethng has to give. Thankfully I only got arressted, make no mistake about it, I got off easy. It was only going one of two ways death or prison and this time I got prison. Anyway I'm back out now, and despite everything I went through the cycle has started again. Over the past 15 years I have been using I've spent the majority of that time in prison, but never has a sentence been as completely lonely and depressing as the one I have just finished. So why am I putting myself through all this madness again? I'm not a happy user, I'm not a happy prisoner, yet I just can't seem to cope with life. Listen I don't want to go on and on sounding all depressed about my life as I understand everyone has problems, I just wanted to get this off my chest. Anyway take care everyone. Peace Danny
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Danny I sure hate to hear these kinds of things. I will say a prayer for you tonight and hope that you are able to fight this battle. I know, but not personally that addiction is hard and I wished that I could help my loved one with her demons of this addiction. The realization is that no one can do it for you. I am sure that you already know that. I just want you to know that there are us out there that care and hope for the best for you and you are stronger than you think and can overcome this.. YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!! I have the faith that it can be done. I just wanted to let you know that you have people out here rooting for you.. Take care!!

Kristi
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If only we knew the answers Danny, eh? If only... We know it is bad for us, we know it kills our personality, our relationships, we change our ways, we lose the days, and it will eventually kill us! Yet, we still do it??? WTF is that all about. The only reason i'm sitting typing this is cause i'm taking Naltrexone(i choose to take the tabs but you know what i mean) If i wasn't on them i'd be using i think....

That loneliness in prison is a killer, i know what you mean. Wishing you all; the best, Kev