Hello all,
I was just wondering how many times you've gotten clean and relapsed. Or, stayed clean?
just curious,
bc
blondechick...
i have only gotten clean once...that is this time.
i am clean since june 11th....and i hope it sticks a lifetime...but as they say, it is a cunning disease.
i am just so thankful i know the way home now. and as long as i stay true to the "one day at a time" way of thinking...and making the next right choice...i have a shot at tomorrow. that is all we can really ask, isn't it?
good luck to you.
goodnight.
sarah
i have only gotten clean once...that is this time.
i am clean since june 11th....and i hope it sticks a lifetime...but as they say, it is a cunning disease.
i am just so thankful i know the way home now. and as long as i stay true to the "one day at a time" way of thinking...and making the next right choice...i have a shot at tomorrow. that is all we can really ask, isn't it?
good luck to you.
goodnight.
sarah
2 years 7 months Xanax
2 years alcohol
1 year 10 months Vicodin
-0- relapses
2 years alcohol
1 year 10 months Vicodin
-0- relapses
Hi Blondechick
I went through withdrawals probably 5-6 times before I convinced myself I was done. I would get clean for 3-4 weeks and convinced myself I could take a couple of pills and that would be it. I was wrong.
Kinda like quitting smoking. If you tell yourself you can smoke just 1 or 2 cigs, all is well. Doesn't usually work that way
After going through major withdrawals a half a dozen times, I decided I was ready.
On April fools day, 2004 I quit and haven't looked back.
Hawk
I went through withdrawals probably 5-6 times before I convinced myself I was done. I would get clean for 3-4 weeks and convinced myself I could take a couple of pills and that would be it. I was wrong.
Kinda like quitting smoking. If you tell yourself you can smoke just 1 or 2 cigs, all is well. Doesn't usually work that way
After going through major withdrawals a half a dozen times, I decided I was ready.
On April fools day, 2004 I quit and haven't looked back.
Hawk
I am gaining strength from ALL of you.
thanks so much,
bc
thanks so much,
bc
I have relapsed; a few times. Even after self imposed rehab.
However, it was a powerful learing tool. It taught me that as painful as sobriety was, it was way better than the hell of being addicted. Now, sobriety not miserable at all; I wouldn't go back for all the opiates in the world.
So, Strongchick, I mean blondechick, don't relapse. It is ugly...and it just gets worse each time.
However, it was a powerful learing tool. It taught me that as painful as sobriety was, it was way better than the hell of being addicted. Now, sobriety not miserable at all; I wouldn't go back for all the opiates in the world.
So, Strongchick, I mean blondechick, don't relapse. It is ugly...and it just gets worse each time.
I don't know if this will make any sense but I use to think I relapsed all the time. I would run out of pills and say o.k. this time I am gonna get clean only to find myself right back taking the pills once I got my hands on them. I now realize all those times I did that I was only fooling myself because I wasn't ready to quit. I think in the back of my mind I wanted to but as soon as I got more pills I was using again. This went on for 5 years until my family decided to intervene in Jan of 2006. How embarrassing for me at that time. I was so angry at them how dare they lock me in a room and tell me I had a problem. I felt I wasn't the one with the problem it was them for doing that to me. Then I started to see all the hurt I was causing the people who loved me and it was not a pretty sight. My father who I hold near and dear to my heart was crying as was my husband. Since then I have never looked back. Going c/t was a b**** but thank god I had people who loved me help me through it. Shantel
Too many times to ount...some due to multiple hospitalizations, some due to abuse....when I think back to all the horrible withdrawals I put my body thru...I remember one vividly...I thought I wa gonna die, You think it' enough to keep you away from narcotics? Ha!You puke, sweat. cry.....and then do it all again when you regain your health. Insanity? I think so. If I didn't have pain I swear.....I do hate them and wish for new medicine that don't cause these problems. If I ever find a way to deal with this pain....believe me...I will never look at another pill. They are evil. Sharonn
i have been in rehab twice.
may 2005 relapsed soon after--,july 4th as a matter of fact.
july 10th 2006 rehab again in a different facility this time and started suboxone. been clean ever since! sub is what did it and of course my higher power God! k-9/ jewls
may 2005 relapsed soon after--,july 4th as a matter of fact.
july 10th 2006 rehab again in a different facility this time and started suboxone. been clean ever since! sub is what did it and of course my higher power God! k-9/ jewls
BC..it's good to see that you're still here. How are you doing?
Relapse is a common accurance around here and usually associated with those that don't do anything about recovery, We are so good at setting ourselves up.
I relapsed a million times in the 26 years that I used. Stop and start all the time. I was a miserable person to be sure.
What are you doing to stay clean?
Take care
CG
Relapse is a common accurance around here and usually associated with those that don't do anything about recovery, We are so good at setting ourselves up.
I relapsed a million times in the 26 years that I used. Stop and start all the time. I was a miserable person to be sure.
What are you doing to stay clean?
Take care
CG
I have enough desire chips to make a concho belt.LOL
LOL...Tim
I never got a 30day chip as I had done it too many times just to wind up going back out, didn't feel I deserved it...so I waited until I had 60days and I cried when I received that chip...but when I hit 60days, I was involved in a strong recovery program and I earned that chip....
I never got a 30day chip as I had done it too many times just to wind up going back out, didn't feel I deserved it...so I waited until I had 60days and I cried when I received that chip...but when I hit 60days, I was involved in a strong recovery program and I earned that chip....
Until I was ready to do the work necessary to stay clean, I could never get any time together. The longest I made it was 7 months but was just looking for a reason to relapse. With each w/d I would swear I would never take another pill but since I never worked on my thinking I continued to relapse after a few days. Staying clean takes work but it is worth it, believe me.
