Hi,
This is a continuation of post I already posted.
I am thinking of calling my Dr. and telling her I am abusing my pain meds. Why doesn't she see that what she is giving me is a lot?
Do you think she will ween me off or make me go to rehab or cold turkey? I am also afraid that if I ever get seriously injured or need an operation my medical chart will be marked that I have an addiction to pain medication. Also I am divorced and I would never want my ex to find out about this or DSS or something. It's the pills that are making me feel this paranoia.
If you could please tell me about your experiences when you went to your Drs. what they said how they handled it that would be most helpful.
Thanks in advance,
B-I had to get completely honest with everyone.My doctor,my friends...everyone .You can't compartementalize this disease.It hits every aspect of your life and the biggest part of recovery is getting honest.
My primary doctor and dentist both know I'm a recovering addict.I am so glad I told them because procedures I have had done in the past and ones coming up I feel more protected.They will not give me narcotics .Period.It keeps me from relapsing.
Part of that wanting to keep secrets about this is so you won't get cut off.It's o.k. to admit that.You're an addict and that's what we do.We will go to any length to keep our sources alive.
If you are serious about this then it's time to own up to it and let your doctor help you.Don't project what will happen in the future.As soon as you detox off all this,then will be time to address long term solutions.Like NA
Good Luck
My primary doctor and dentist both know I'm a recovering addict.I am so glad I told them because procedures I have had done in the past and ones coming up I feel more protected.They will not give me narcotics .Period.It keeps me from relapsing.
Part of that wanting to keep secrets about this is so you won't get cut off.It's o.k. to admit that.You're an addict and that's what we do.We will go to any length to keep our sources alive.
If you are serious about this then it's time to own up to it and let your doctor help you.Don't project what will happen in the future.As soon as you detox off all this,then will be time to address long term solutions.Like NA
Good Luck
B:
My doctor was wonderful when I admitted my addiction...It was me that abused his kindness. He offered me pills to taper off with and guess what? Yep, no tapering for this kid...They were gone very quickly. So it was cold turkey for me. I have to say though he (the doctor) tried to help me more than once. I do think he got fed up in the end with me. Like Tim said, be honest with your doctor. I hope you succeed. If tapering is too difficult, maybe seeing a addictionologist who has a wealth of knowledge of the disease can offer options for you. Support groups and therapy are huge helps also...
All the Best,
Jan
My doctor was wonderful when I admitted my addiction...It was me that abused his kindness. He offered me pills to taper off with and guess what? Yep, no tapering for this kid...They were gone very quickly. So it was cold turkey for me. I have to say though he (the doctor) tried to help me more than once. I do think he got fed up in the end with me. Like Tim said, be honest with your doctor. I hope you succeed. If tapering is too difficult, maybe seeing a addictionologist who has a wealth of knowledge of the disease can offer options for you. Support groups and therapy are huge helps also...
All the Best,
Jan
B,when i told my Dr,he was very nice about the whole thing.He thanked me and told me i was brave for having come forward.But...#1 i was not recieveing the pills from my Dr and #2 i had already gone to detox(for 3 days) and had CT by the time i saw my Dr.
But he made it clear he would not and has not prescribed pain pills to very many of his patients.He just never has.He knew the risks of addiction.Therefore he was quite surprised when i came clean,wanting to know where and how i was getting them.
I think you will feel so much better having your Dr on your side,which ever approach he decides(and hopefully the two of you can talk it through)will be the best for you.
This Dr(your Dr)is the one prescribing?Might i ask how much,how often and whatg exactly is it you are taking?More and more Dr are afraid to prescibe large amounts of PP.Yes,i would think your Dr would realise it too,if he was giving you alot of them?
Please,stick to the board,look for support,you can get through this,espeically once youve come clean with your Dr and let him help you.Welcome to the board~KIM
But he made it clear he would not and has not prescribed pain pills to very many of his patients.He just never has.He knew the risks of addiction.Therefore he was quite surprised when i came clean,wanting to know where and how i was getting them.
I think you will feel so much better having your Dr on your side,which ever approach he decides(and hopefully the two of you can talk it through)will be the best for you.
This Dr(your Dr)is the one prescribing?Might i ask how much,how often and whatg exactly is it you are taking?More and more Dr are afraid to prescibe large amounts of PP.Yes,i would think your Dr would realise it too,if he was giving you alot of them?
Please,stick to the board,look for support,you can get through this,espeically once youve come clean with your Dr and let him help you.Welcome to the board~KIM
My Primary Care Physician was GREAT when I told him what was going on. I had not been getting my pills from him, I got ALL of my Norco over the internet. So he had ZERO idea what had been going on with me. He helped me by calling the local addiction specialist and got me in to see him the next day. If I had called on my own I would have had to wait months.
I think you need to tell your doctor. They can help with what you are going to need, and a referal might be able to get you into see someone else if need be.
peaceout
dtroitj
I think you need to tell your doctor. They can help with what you are going to need, and a referal might be able to get you into see someone else if need be.
peaceout
dtroitj
Same here Johnny,i was getting most of mine off the internet and from my husbands dr(without his knowledge)my husband has had 2 back surgeries,and all i had to do was call the dr and through the mail he would mail a script for 90 norcos with 5 refills and my husband didnt even know it,he was barely taking them himself.
Oh how wonderful life was until my husband went to see the dr and the dr confronted him with all these scripts being filled...and most of the early! The insurance company had sent him a printout of all the scripts and when they were filled.I had to face my husband and then my husbands dr and tell the truth about what i was doing.It was hard but it felt good once i had finally gotten it off my shoulders.
My husband has been a huge support and so was my dr.Thats why,keeping it to yourself only makes matters worse,makes it so much harder.Coming clean,with dr's,spouse,family,is a tremendous amount of help in getting and staying clean.For me,it was a MUST!~KIM
Oh how wonderful life was until my husband went to see the dr and the dr confronted him with all these scripts being filled...and most of the early! The insurance company had sent him a printout of all the scripts and when they were filled.I had to face my husband and then my husbands dr and tell the truth about what i was doing.It was hard but it felt good once i had finally gotten it off my shoulders.
My husband has been a huge support and so was my dr.Thats why,keeping it to yourself only makes matters worse,makes it so much harder.Coming clean,with dr's,spouse,family,is a tremendous amount of help in getting and staying clean.For me,it was a MUST!~KIM
Worrying about getting pills further on down the line isn't going to help. No one is going to make you suffer, but that's not where your head should be right now. Be honest, completely honest. Embrace recovery, get out of the lies and deception, it feels so good. And you deserve to feel good.
My husband was my dealer. Ha that sounds so weird but that's the truth. He knew I had a problem and a big one! I manipulated him and he did it 120 percs every 14 days was NOT enough at the end. I had him going in between visits and complaining that they weren't working. The nurses at the hospital lectured him constantly and he lectured me but he still did it.
I think he liked me oblivious to our problems. So I never ever once in five years got a script for myself. I tried once on Christmas eve...told them I was addicted and going to have w/d during Christmas..told them I was going to the methadone clinic in early January. They put me in physic room and looked at me and treated me like a pathetic junkie. It was so humiliating. I ended up with 6 percs....big deal. I can't remember what happened. Can't tell you how elated I am that those days are over.
I eventually went to my primary doctor and told her that I had a problem, she asked me where I got my pills. I told her...she told me to tell my husband to never give pills again and wrote me a script for Ativan. I then learned that when I was going to w/d I could go to a clinic and get Ativan to help with the w/d.
What a nightmare...Doctors hold some responsibility but not all. I heard tonight that Anna Nicole was travelling with her Doctor that had prescribed her a real cocktail of drugs. She took about 606 pills within 38 days prior to her death and thats not including the shot of sleeping aid that led to her death.
Anyway...being honest with yourself is the most important. You have to dig deep and want better. Make that decision and your life will improve. Complete honesty to yourself is the key. That was very hard for me.
I am happy that you are waking up to your problem...took me about 2 years of hard pill use before I called a suboxone addiction doctor and got real...real truthful!
I think he liked me oblivious to our problems. So I never ever once in five years got a script for myself. I tried once on Christmas eve...told them I was addicted and going to have w/d during Christmas..told them I was going to the methadone clinic in early January. They put me in physic room and looked at me and treated me like a pathetic junkie. It was so humiliating. I ended up with 6 percs....big deal. I can't remember what happened. Can't tell you how elated I am that those days are over.
I eventually went to my primary doctor and told her that I had a problem, she asked me where I got my pills. I told her...she told me to tell my husband to never give pills again and wrote me a script for Ativan. I then learned that when I was going to w/d I could go to a clinic and get Ativan to help with the w/d.
What a nightmare...Doctors hold some responsibility but not all. I heard tonight that Anna Nicole was travelling with her Doctor that had prescribed her a real cocktail of drugs. She took about 606 pills within 38 days prior to her death and thats not including the shot of sleeping aid that led to her death.
Anyway...being honest with yourself is the most important. You have to dig deep and want better. Make that decision and your life will improve. Complete honesty to yourself is the key. That was very hard for me.
I am happy that you are waking up to your problem...took me about 2 years of hard pill use before I called a suboxone addiction doctor and got real...real truthful!
