soulpicnic, I sent you an email, when you have time to respond please do, i am anxious to hear from you.
To everyone else. I'm going into the hospital on Monday the 5th for medical detox. In away i'm excited, but i away i'm scared. Scared because this is my second time and i'm going to a much bigger hospital this time and don't know what to expect this time. Excited because I'm ready to get this part of my life over with and ready to get on to a clean, sober life. I've always heard that once your an addict your always an addict, so I'll have to go to meetings the rest of my life in order to stay clean. Is that true? I'll do whatever I have to do.
I know am dealing with some hate. Hate for the person who got me started on these pills. I know I can't totally blame them. My second husband was abusive and threw me down alot, that led to 2 bulging discs in my back. Last year I went to work in a factory 3rd shift working 6 nights a week. This person, offered me percacet to help with the pain, which it did help for a while, when it stopped helping, they offered me the oxy's, that's why I am where I am now. I've never had to pay for any of the pills I've taken. Which some of you may think, my how lucky she is, but i'm not lucky in any way. This person, also is the person who says my ex-husband the father of my children who overdosed last october and died, stole the oxyconten from them, but now I've heard from various people that he didn't steal them, that this person gave them to him. More hate for this person comes in there, but the real hate comes in here, and most of you will NOT BELIEVE THIS, but this person, I just found out a couple of days ago, has offered these pills to my children who are 16 and 19 years old. I'm beginning to think they think it's funny to destoy people's lives with these pills. They're already hooked on them, so why not get every body else hooked on them. I'm they type of person, who doesn't just mad, but I get even. So this person better watch their back. Any advice? Now maybe so many of you can see why I AM SO PISSED OFF at this person. Right now I have alot of hate in my heart. They got me hooked ( no I don't blame them totally, but they knew what they were doing), possibly killed my childrens father), and are trying to get my children hooked. What a sad life this person must live. I feel for this person, to live such a sad life they have to go around trying to get people hooked on drugs to get their thrills. I feel better just getting that off my chest. God Bless all of you who have answered my questions, and listened to me. I thank God there are people out there like you.
A2O,
It's great that you have the courage to go to medical detox. I hope it works out at the new hospital for you.
I don't know what it's like to detox off oxys. I've heard it's a nightmare and thank God you're not doing it alone.
Yes, I'd be enraged, too, in your position. Intellectually, I don't believe in the death penalty; as a mother though, I think anyone who gives drugs to children should be killed. That's a biased opinion. I realize that.
Good luck.
Gina
It's great that you have the courage to go to medical detox. I hope it works out at the new hospital for you.
I don't know what it's like to detox off oxys. I've heard it's a nightmare and thank God you're not doing it alone.
Yes, I'd be enraged, too, in your position. Intellectually, I don't believe in the death penalty; as a mother though, I think anyone who gives drugs to children should be killed. That's a biased opinion. I realize that.
Good luck.
Gina
Are you willing to do any and everything asked of you? If you answer yes then your on your way to regaining your life.
You will lose the insanity and things will start to make sense.
Is this a 28 day rehab?
Good luck--Jeff
You will lose the insanity and things will start to make sense.
Is this a 28 day rehab?
Good luck--Jeff
I will go to the hospital and medically detox for 3 to 5 days, then i'm supposed to go to treatment for 30 days. I'm gonna see how i'm doing after detox and see if I think i can do it with outpatient treatment and meeting because I have a 16 year old living at home and am a single parent. I'll just have to see how detox goes though.
Just my 2 cents but got to REHAB--if you can leave your son for 3-5 days you can leave him for another 30 days.
You will be a better person and IMO increase your odds of staying sober. Not to say you cant stay sober without rehab.
You have a disease. You need education and learn the tools that us addicts need to live. Rehab will introduce you to AA therapy --depending on the Center? all types of education. Nutrition-intense therapy -group therapy which is to me was the most important part of Rehab. Its filled with assignments--group interaction CONFRONTATION you are called on your Bull sheet. And all of us are full of it when were using.
You have a great opportunity --
Jeff
Don't be afraid of rehab.
Jeff
You will be a better person and IMO increase your odds of staying sober. Not to say you cant stay sober without rehab.
You have a disease. You need education and learn the tools that us addicts need to live. Rehab will introduce you to AA therapy --depending on the Center? all types of education. Nutrition-intense therapy -group therapy which is to me was the most important part of Rehab. Its filled with assignments--group interaction CONFRONTATION you are called on your Bull sheet. And all of us are full of it when were using.
You have a great opportunity --
Jeff
Don't be afraid of rehab.
Jeff
A2O............
what a blessing to be able to go to rehab..........
your gonna do great.........
do everthing they ask, let them help you.............
and pray........
*hugs*
thumper
what a blessing to be able to go to rehab..........
your gonna do great.........
do everthing they ask, let them help you.............
and pray........
*hugs*
thumper
Hey addicted one thing I learned the hard way. When I stopped doing things my way pertaining to my health issues -addiction being one of them life improved greatly.
You write I am going to see how I am feeling. What is 3-5 days going to do?
Hey its your choice.
Good luck--Jeff
You write I am going to see how I am feeling. What is 3-5 days going to do?
Hey its your choice.
Good luck--Jeff
what about the kids?
I have a 16 year old at home and i'm a single parent, it's gonna be hard for me to be away for 30 days with no money coming in to pay the bills.
Wow
You've been given another opportunity....a 2nd chance...id be excited too..
You ask whether your only choice is to go to meetings for the rest of your life in order to stay clean...just realize that there are many many people that clean up their lives...change their outlook and change their lives, and not all off them get involved with a 12 step program...
there are great success stories with people that are 12 steppers, and equally as many that aren't...
The thing that i can guarantee you that the successful or recovered people share however...is that they have taken a good hard look at the reason WHY they were using drugs to begin with...so the ones that DIDNT go to 12 step meetings had to find a different way to get that kind of therapy...
Thats not an easy thing to do...and since you yourself, were once clean and then went back on the pills...IMO, you will absolutely positively have to have therapy of SOME kind if you really want to make sure this is your last visit to the hospital for drugs...
We all have baggage honey- have bad things from our past or our childhood that we dont like to think or talk about...but if those things dont get examined...and i mean openly honestly examined....they will continue to manifest .to push up to the surface....its like they are screaming to be acknowledged....
Many people tell themselves it doesnt matter...it was in the past....i should just get over it....great thing to say, but not so easy to do....only once you have really thought it all through...talked it all through...and understood its impact on your life today....can you put it behind you and move on....
Am i making any sense love? Look, you detoxed once, and went back to drugs...Your getting ready to detox a 2nd time...whats the common denominator there? YOU..and the only way to know for sure that there wont be a # 3 is for you to know WHY you used in the very first place...what was it you were self medicating? Anguish? Guilt? Pain? Remorse? Anger???
Most of us have used drugs so long we didnt even know what those feelings were like anymore....so used to just NUMBING anything we started to feel hat didnt feel good...
I know you feel your son needs you, but going to rehab, to learn the skills you'll need, to get some therapy IS a gift for your son....and it will ensure that there will not be anymore time spent away from one another down the road, and also ensure that time you will have in the future will be good quality time...Time you'll remember each detail of cus you wont be high anymore.....
Surely there is family to take care of your son for 3 or 4 weeks...isnt there? Do you have to pay for the medical detox??If you dont get the therapy after your detox honey, its like totally wasting your money......You need this...
Whether by a 12 step program, or by seeing a shrink and having therapy, or an addiction counselor....you NEED to do it....its part of the process...and again, it will ensure you dont have detox # 3....
You and your son deserve that..
Best of luck please let us know how it went..
hugs
Ali
You've been given another opportunity....a 2nd chance...id be excited too..
You ask whether your only choice is to go to meetings for the rest of your life in order to stay clean...just realize that there are many many people that clean up their lives...change their outlook and change their lives, and not all off them get involved with a 12 step program...
there are great success stories with people that are 12 steppers, and equally as many that aren't...
The thing that i can guarantee you that the successful or recovered people share however...is that they have taken a good hard look at the reason WHY they were using drugs to begin with...so the ones that DIDNT go to 12 step meetings had to find a different way to get that kind of therapy...
Thats not an easy thing to do...and since you yourself, were once clean and then went back on the pills...IMO, you will absolutely positively have to have therapy of SOME kind if you really want to make sure this is your last visit to the hospital for drugs...
We all have baggage honey- have bad things from our past or our childhood that we dont like to think or talk about...but if those things dont get examined...and i mean openly honestly examined....they will continue to manifest .to push up to the surface....its like they are screaming to be acknowledged....
Many people tell themselves it doesnt matter...it was in the past....i should just get over it....great thing to say, but not so easy to do....only once you have really thought it all through...talked it all through...and understood its impact on your life today....can you put it behind you and move on....
Am i making any sense love? Look, you detoxed once, and went back to drugs...Your getting ready to detox a 2nd time...whats the common denominator there? YOU..and the only way to know for sure that there wont be a # 3 is for you to know WHY you used in the very first place...what was it you were self medicating? Anguish? Guilt? Pain? Remorse? Anger???
Most of us have used drugs so long we didnt even know what those feelings were like anymore....so used to just NUMBING anything we started to feel hat didnt feel good...
I know you feel your son needs you, but going to rehab, to learn the skills you'll need, to get some therapy IS a gift for your son....and it will ensure that there will not be anymore time spent away from one another down the road, and also ensure that time you will have in the future will be good quality time...Time you'll remember each detail of cus you wont be high anymore.....
Surely there is family to take care of your son for 3 or 4 weeks...isnt there? Do you have to pay for the medical detox??If you dont get the therapy after your detox honey, its like totally wasting your money......You need this...
Whether by a 12 step program, or by seeing a shrink and having therapy, or an addiction counselor....you NEED to do it....its part of the process...and again, it will ensure you dont have detox # 3....
You and your son deserve that..
Best of luck please let us know how it went..
hugs
Ali
A2O, I emailed you back. What you are doing is amazing and if you let it it will change your life. Be proud of yourself in this moment. Take a minute to take a deep breath and know what you are doing is a good thing and it takes so much to get to this place - and you have just taken a HUGE step. I have faith in you and will be thinking about you... Anytime you need to talk just let me know,
SP
SP
