I hate being an addict. I hate these pills...I am up late and I have s*** to do tomarrow..and they told me not to smoke, and I am. I wish I had a different head. I have battled this s*** for so long and I am so tired of it..
I am going to pray now..
I have stayed on track, but I AM AN ADDICT..
KERRY
Dear Kerry, I don't know if this will help or not, but I thought I'd try. At first I was angry too. Why do I have to be an addict? Why am I stuck with this for life? To me, it just sucked. I see things a little differently now. Okay, I have a disease and it's regretable, but there are some positive aspects too. This is just a part of who I am. (along with mother, wife, etc...). It has forced me to focus on areas of my life that need work. I've made special friends that I wouldn't have otherwise. I came to a place of acceptance. It has made me a stronger person, taught me life lessons, showed me I can make a difference, not to mention has brought me to a place of humility. It's just a part of who I am, just as it is a part of who you are. No need being angry at the injustice of it, just accept it as a part of life, with all it's difficulties.Also, you can take pride in the fact that you have the ability to overcome obstacles in your life. I am an addict, but I am in recovery. I took the necessary steps to help myself, and it turn I have the opportunity to help others. You can view this like that. You can take your experiences and spread the message of recovery. You can make a difference in the world. We can't feel sorry for ourselves, only use this as an opportunity to be the best person we can be. My situation is one that can give me strength, determination, and a sense of pride in myself. Hope you can think of it that way. Much love, Kat
all i can say is i felt the same way, why me, but thats all just give thanks that we are alive and do not a a horrible disease and just look at all the positive things in your life, please because that is the only thing that has kept me alive, give thanks for what you have and enjoy them, life is to short, god bless us all!!
Kat,
What a wonderful post as you come up on almost 3 months clean and sober. Your words are so inspiring and they help me so much as I myself celebrated (quietly) a milestone yesterday. Somedays we have to take it a day at a time, even now, or an hour at a time. Thats all we really have is just today, no promise of tomorrow, so we have to stay in the moment. I know my post here is probably making no sense to anyone but you here, but just wanted to tell you how proud I am of you. Times have been very difficult but yet you have stood steadfast and motivated, even in the darkest times. The one thing that is so admirable about you is your compassion with everyone, especially those who are seeking recovery. Please believe me when I tell you things will get better day by day.
Love you,
Sharon:
Congratulations on 11 months of being clean.
Rach
Congratulations on 11 months of being clean.
Rach
Thank you so much Rachel.
Dear Sharon, without a doubt, you are the most compassionate person I have ever known. I wish for everyone to have someone like you in their corner, beside them through good bad. I understood your post completly, and am more touched by it than you will ever know. Were you not the quietly modest person that you are, I would have made the hugest thread announcing your amazing eleven months. I could not be more proud, of your success, of your strength, your wisdom, your kindness, and of the blessing of having you as my very best friend. As I continue to grow and experience new battles in recovery, it is you that guides me, leads my path, and helps to make it both bearable and worthwhile. And along the lines of this thread, none of us would chose to be an addict, but sometimes if we are very fortunate, it brings us blessings we never dreamed possible. So if I could take it all back, wake up and this had all never happened, would I? No, I would not. What I've gained through this experience is priceless. You are priceless. Much love always, Kat
Kerry,
Yes, being an addict can suck, but I grateful for it. The program teaches us how to deal with life on lifes terms better than those without a program. A program of recovery isn't without it's bad days, but, unlike "normal" people we have a place to vent and get advice from thise that have been there before us or can relate because they too are going through the same thing. If we pick up over what ever it is all bets are off. We run the risk of never making it back.
I'll say a prayer for ya', this too shall pass and it will get better. Love ya',
Take care.........................................God bless.................................Bob
Sharon,
Congratulations on 11 months, being able to let go and learning how to dump resentments is a true gift of sobriety.
Take care.........................................God bless...............................Bob
Yes, being an addict can suck, but I grateful for it. The program teaches us how to deal with life on lifes terms better than those without a program. A program of recovery isn't without it's bad days, but, unlike "normal" people we have a place to vent and get advice from thise that have been there before us or can relate because they too are going through the same thing. If we pick up over what ever it is all bets are off. We run the risk of never making it back.
I'll say a prayer for ya', this too shall pass and it will get better. Love ya',
Take care.........................................God bless.................................Bob
Sharon,
Congratulations on 11 months, being able to let go and learning how to dump resentments is a true gift of sobriety.
Take care.........................................God bless...............................Bob
Kat,
Thanks for your post, it means the world to me. Giving back what one has gained and helping others is the best part of recovery. I am so glad that I can be there for you right now and that you are my friend. I promise, like I said that things will get better, the three month mark is a hard obsticle to get past but after you get over this hump, you will start feeling like you have the world by the tail.
Love you,
Thanks for your post, it means the world to me. Giving back what one has gained and helping others is the best part of recovery. I am so glad that I can be there for you right now and that you are my friend. I promise, like I said that things will get better, the three month mark is a hard obsticle to get past but after you get over this hump, you will start feeling like you have the world by the tail.
Love you,
Thank you Bob,
And continued success to you.
And continued success to you.
