Tired

Alcohol
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I'm new here but have already gotten a lot out of the posts that I've read. Today is day 1 for me and I have mixed emotions. I really want to make this change in my life but I've tried so many other times before and have failed. Anyway, thanks for the site.
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Change,
Welcome to the site.Are you comfortable telling is some more about your problem with alcohol?Congratulations on starting.
Good luck,
Lucia
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tired i no what ur saying im tired too of the guilt, hangovers, shakes and just tired of trying to quit drinking then boom opening a bottle and thinking why me so i wish u luck if u need to talk im and ill talk to u and blessed be.
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Thanks for your responses. Lucia, I have been drinking since about 14 years of age. I've felt like it's become a problem over the last couple of years. I have 2 children 14 and 9 and a wonderful husband. I've always taken care of my family..... all meals, love anything they need and love them very much. I just feel empty sometimes and around 4:00, I get out my wine and have at least 6-7 BIG glasses. My kids have never said anything (expect my son asked once if wine was alcohol) but I feel like I'm being such a terrible example to them. I don't change in personality 'much' but tend to get tired early and then a little impatient. I wish I could fill up this emptiness with something besides alcohol. The worst thing is, I am a Christian but have always hidden drinking from my friends. Today is day 2. I sweated all night last night in bed and had to get up and change my clothes. That's the only sign of withdrawal I have..... except a feeling of loss. Isn't it funny how you can miss something that has caused you so much pain in the past. It was my escape and I'm going to miss having that crutch to lean on but change has to take place. Thanks for asking. Good luck to everyone out there!
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Change is good. Sometimes your worst enemy can be your best friend. Your greatest weakness your greatest strength. With or with out, you can only be a better person. Respect yourself. Everyone can, take the first step again and again.
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Change, I read your message and it was like reading my life story. Except I waiting till my kids were grown. I wish I had never compromised and taken that drink. I have quit a hundred times and gone back. The longest I lasted was 10 days. I am a functioning alcoholic. I have printed out the article regarding nutrition and I am praying that will help me stop. I have a very compulsive personality. I come from a family that are all alcoholics, you would think I would have known better. I start most days by thanking God for a sober day and then in the evening I find myself slipping into the burbon. I had a close friend that died of alcohol poisioning. Geesh, you would think that would help me stop but it hasn't. I will try again today and hopefully make it through this evening.
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Glad to hear that eveyone wants the same result. Change does not come easy and you will have to pay the price for all of the years that you were practising. But you will reap the rewards. There is noythig like getting up in the morning and looking in the mirrior and seeing someone that YOU can respect. Getting over the denial phase and livivng with acceptance is the hard part. But it sounds like you taking the right steps. You do not have to go it alone. Call a friend, or a family member if you can. If you have trouble lokking for accomplishments look at it this way break your day down even smaller, Into hours,half days etc. Set your goals small at first so that you can accomplish them and rebuild your self esteem. It took you some time to do the damage it will take some time to repair the damage.As for your friend and your family they too will reap the rewards in the end they will see the new you as you bgin to change. They will also accept the new you. Don't think that they probably didn't already know that you had a problem with alcohol. We think that we are fooling evevryone but the only person we fooled was ourselves. It is hard work but I di and wouldn't have it any other way . I am proud to call my self and alcoholic and have been sober for four years. I don't tell you this to brag but to gve you some enecouragement . That there is light a the end of the tunnel. I too was carrying alot of baggage, family problems, legal problems etc. Ask for help and help will arrive sometimes not as fast as we would like it but it will arrive. Wisinh you all another 24 hrs

Roy W
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Congratulations Change, you've become you again.
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