I don't know how old your insert is (I am new at this!) but I know about lying to everyone. My husband doesn't even know about my addiction. And, just as you, feel soooo bad about the money I have and do (not in 4 days) spend on these stupid pills. I hate that I am so held down by them. I have 3 kids and my husband stays gone 4 months at a time and comes home only for 10 days when he does come home! So, I promise I know how you feel!!
flipflops: I've been posting about 2 weeks, i've tried tapering but lost the fight,right now i'am stuck i just don't know to try tapering again or just go cold turkey. I jsut got so much on my mind. So how long have you been taking? Have you tried tapering or anything yet? How old are you?
Oh yeah! I think everyone who has been here for this long has tried some kind of tapering or something like it anyway. I have been using, off and on, for about 9 years. Wow, that really puts things in place! I haven't been an addict for that long but I have messed with all of this that long. Tapering never did work for me. Because I wasn't ever strong enough not to take them all up in one day! I always thought that if I had one person I could trust to ask to hold them and HELP me taper down than that would have worked. But guess what, there wasn't anybody to ask for help! So, I finally took everything I had in one night and started fresh the next day. Keeping in mind that through the night while I was asleep, those hours counted too! It always made me feel better, in the beginning to count hours. NOT every hour but whenever I thought about it! I would think, "okay, I went to sleep at this time and didn't take the first pill so I can finish this day out without anything too!" But any way you look at it or stab at it is hard altogether. I think this is an awesome websight to come to for support. I didn't have a computer before nor do I think I would have really tried to find support before! Oh, before I forget, I am 28. And you? I try to keep in mind that all of the times before were just practice. I wasn't ready and that each time that I quit after that I was preparing myself a little more. Because one day, I know this will be over. At least this part of it anyway! But as the old saying goes...try and if you don't succeed, TRY HARDER!!! Thank you for responding back to me. It's nice to meet a...friend who understands!
flipflops, i'am 26,will be 27 on jan.5. I know this website is the best! I love coming here and posting. These people really gives me a big push to start what i been trying to do. They really help alot and always seems to know what to say to give courage to make it through a rough day.
