I want to thank you all so much for being supportive of me especially when I have crappy days. Kat and skg you will be glad to know that I finally managed to get to a meeting. thanks to my sponsor he had arranged for some of the regulars at the meetings to meet at his house to acommondate me which I thought was SO kind and caring and very unselfish. I feel so much better this evening than I did yesterday and this morning. It really helped a lot and I met a woman who is in lot worse shape than I ever was.It was awesome to get and share with others in person. My sponsor and my addiction counsellor feels that what triggered this lot of cravings was where I had gone to liquor store and beer store twice to pick up booze for my friend. They said even though I thought I handled it my subconscious didn't because I was repeating an old habit by going to the liquor store. Both of them told me I am heading for a relapse if I continue to do this for my friend. Basically same thing you guys told me.(Gee I am getting good at admitting when I am wrong LOL ).My sponsor is planning on setting up a daytime meeting even once a month at his home for people like me who live in small towns so we can go by bus and come back home on the same day.To me that is a great improvement over no meetings at all. Even once a month would be a whole lot better than none at all. You guys are right ,meeting with people in person who have problems like yours is so much better. I feel grateful and humbled tonight for all the wonderful people whom I have met who are so willing to help and share and once again thank you and I really really appreciate you guys.((((( ))))))) xxxxooooo God bless and take care.
ps I have read all your posts and I will reply in the morning. I am too tired to type more now ,its been a long day with the session with the counsellor,,meeting with my sponsor and having a session with him then the meeting and the bus ride but I wanted you to all know I actually got to a meeting because I am so excited about it. lol good nite all and I hope you all have a great day tomorrow.
I'm so happy for you, Pirate. Your sponsor sounds like a great guy. Who knows where one meeting a week can lead to? Maybe 2? 4? That's great news!
Pirate,
Congratulations on going to a f2f meeting! Glad you enjoyed yourself and left feeling peaceful. Keep it up! Hugs.
Congratulations on going to a f2f meeting! Glad you enjoyed yourself and left feeling peaceful. Keep it up! Hugs.
One foot in front of the other along the path you KNOW He is unfolding for you...for you, pirate, so worthy of His love... as are we all....as are we all...the crook and the liar and the thief and the murderer and the child killer and every soul He set on this Earth for love and who struggles to find their path....and look how He helps us......look how He tries for us.....God bless your sponsor and those other wonderful human beings who reach out to each one of us and say "me too!....me too, I struggle, and struggle and fail and fall and yet, and yet, I get up one more time and I do my best and my best is always, always, good enough....always."
Our best is good enough. Always.
Have a wonderful day....today I am filled with a soul so filled with love I can barely breathe....I send it your way pirate and to everyone who reads this....there is always enough love to go round, if we but hear with our hearts and see with our souls.
Wow...wow wow wow.....lol
Our best is good enough. Always.
Have a wonderful day....today I am filled with a soul so filled with love I can barely breathe....I send it your way pirate and to everyone who reads this....there is always enough love to go round, if we but hear with our hearts and see with our souls.
Wow...wow wow wow.....lol
thank you guys. you seem in a really good mood today Martin which is wonderful.! I feel so humbled after yesterdays' meeting. I feel I am back on track again. I am really going to work on my thinking and got lots of work to do that my therapist gave me to do in regards to that. I am learning I can have a bad day,its ok to have a bad day, there will be more bad days but it's not the end of the world and it doesn't take away all the good days that I have had or the good ones to come. I am so lucky to have found a good sponsor,I am so lucky to have found AA and I am so lucky to have found you guys. Thank God /HP . I .most definitely do. ?
thats great pirate! I felt that way too after my first meeting. I've since had a bad meeting or two, but like you said, its ok to have a bad day. Btw- how are you and your friend?
Dodsworth
Dodsworth
