Guess what guys? I'm having a baby! Been a rollercoaster of a week, but I'm so happy now...
love and hugs
Diff xxx
Diff,just saw yer post so congratulations,hope your 9mnths go well&quickly....all the very best...fellow poster Davey
congratulations Diff!!!!!!
Hey my friend !
WoW-
yOU my lady, are just filled with surprizes arent you?- Im really happy for ya.
This is truely a life-changing deal . I sometimes wish I could throw my 20 year old son in a time machine- and start again.
Babies are amazing and they make you feel amazing.
Take care of yourself- now is a time to be aware of what goes in your body more than ever.(but Im not tellin you anything you dont know)
Keep in touch
muchlove of course
jack
WoW-
yOU my lady, are just filled with surprizes arent you?- Im really happy for ya.
This is truely a life-changing deal . I sometimes wish I could throw my 20 year old son in a time machine- and start again.
Babies are amazing and they make you feel amazing.
Take care of yourself- now is a time to be aware of what goes in your body more than ever.(but Im not tellin you anything you dont know)
Keep in touch
muchlove of course
jack
Hiya Davey and BNM, well Davey, I hope they don't go too quickly! The news was sort of unexpected, and me and my man aren't exactly prepared. We've decided that we don't want to bring up our little one where we're living now, so we've been down on a flying visit to see my folks in England, and we want to move to the "Home Counties" - home ground for me, but new territory for him. So we've got to sort that out, and my fella has been entertaining a dream for a while now of buying a canal barge, and taking life at a bit of a slower pace, and we're going to try and incorporate that into our plans, so it's a matter of renting out our house in Wales, renting another property in England, and buying the barge, so I've got my work cut out over the next few months.
I'm feeling good though - a bit pukey at times, and tired, but it hasn't helped that I've had to come off all my meds. Thank God that I've already come off the subutex. I wouldn't like the added problems of dealing with an opiate addiction during pregnancy. I think the standard advice they give round here is to stabilise on your subs/methadone during the early stages, and try to reduce as low as you can during the second and third trimesters, but then you have the difficulties of dealing with addiction in the new born, and I'm just relieved that's one problem I don't have to deal with. But the Dr I saw (not my regular Dr) just told me to stop taking the Seroquel and the Zispin, which I have done, and haven't really slept since the last dose I took on Tuesday. Felt like a sleep this afternoon, and went up to bed for a lie down, but my fella followed me up feeling horny, so we had a shag instead. Sleep will come, eventually. I suffered for a while after coming off subs, and it took a few months to come back to normal. I'm a bit gutted about the sleep thing really, coz only last week I was marvelling at how I was sleeping like a log these days, and with regards to my Seroquel and Zispin, I thought how well they were working, and how if something ain't broke then don't fix it. I guess it's a bit of a worry, coz last time I ditched my anti-psychotics and anti-depressants I ended up in a right old mess. But my life is a lot happier now, so maybe it won't be the same. And the giving up smoking thing as well. Now, I thought after giving up heroin, giving up the bacco would be easy. Well, I was wrong! I'm struggling with that one. Although I crave a roll, the few occassions where I've had a toke off my mans, I've felt pretty sick anyway, but it doesn't stop the stupid cravings!!!
Right, the clock is telling me it's time to cook dinner... Eating for two by f***! Never felt less like eating in my entire life!
love
Diff xxx
I'm feeling good though - a bit pukey at times, and tired, but it hasn't helped that I've had to come off all my meds. Thank God that I've already come off the subutex. I wouldn't like the added problems of dealing with an opiate addiction during pregnancy. I think the standard advice they give round here is to stabilise on your subs/methadone during the early stages, and try to reduce as low as you can during the second and third trimesters, but then you have the difficulties of dealing with addiction in the new born, and I'm just relieved that's one problem I don't have to deal with. But the Dr I saw (not my regular Dr) just told me to stop taking the Seroquel and the Zispin, which I have done, and haven't really slept since the last dose I took on Tuesday. Felt like a sleep this afternoon, and went up to bed for a lie down, but my fella followed me up feeling horny, so we had a shag instead. Sleep will come, eventually. I suffered for a while after coming off subs, and it took a few months to come back to normal. I'm a bit gutted about the sleep thing really, coz only last week I was marvelling at how I was sleeping like a log these days, and with regards to my Seroquel and Zispin, I thought how well they were working, and how if something ain't broke then don't fix it. I guess it's a bit of a worry, coz last time I ditched my anti-psychotics and anti-depressants I ended up in a right old mess. But my life is a lot happier now, so maybe it won't be the same. And the giving up smoking thing as well. Now, I thought after giving up heroin, giving up the bacco would be easy. Well, I was wrong! I'm struggling with that one. Although I crave a roll, the few occassions where I've had a toke off my mans, I've felt pretty sick anyway, but it doesn't stop the stupid cravings!!!
Right, the clock is telling me it's time to cook dinner... Eating for two by f***! Never felt less like eating in my entire life!
love
Diff xxx
Diff ,know what you mean about the 9mnths not goin 2 fast,enjoy every minute,i have a sweetie pie[sometimes]7yr old lil girl&as the old cliche says "they grow up so fast etc.".Jack that would be a great idea to have a time machine set to whatever age you want your kid to be,even just for the day to relive all the milestones,/speak/crawl/walk&just be generally the best.my daughter Sian[Welsh name Diff]is at the pre fashion/music/dancing stage &gettin a bit cheeky aswell,but who cares as long as shes smiling.Diff glad you are off yer meds obviously makes things easier for you both.Anyway girl take it eze....all the best Davey
Hiya Jack, so good to hear from you! Yep, I'm always full of surprises. This is something I've wanted for a while, and I was beginning to wonder if it was ever going to happen. Yes, it came as a bit of a shock, to me and my man, and we both had a real tough couple of days getting our heads round how it was going to affect our lives. I think him more than me, coz he's likes to be the centre of my world, and he was a bit scared that he'd be left out in the cold. All I can do is show him that I'll always be there for him, and I'm not going to neglect him, but he might find it hard to share me! But I think he's getting his head round the fact that it's not just "my" baby, it's half his, too. Winner of the egg and sperm race!
And Davey, I do know what you mean. I have two nieces, "my girls" I call them, and the eldest one is 11 now and growing up fast, but still fortunately not one of those kids who seem to want leave their childhood as quickly as possible. She's at a difficult age now, but we have a brilliant relationship, and I love both my girls so much. It hurts me to see her struggling, at that awkward age where she isn't a teenager yet, but not really a little kid either. I remember how much things seemed to hurt at that age! They have a little brother, but he's only three, and still blissfully unaware of all the trials and tribulations life has in store. And he's is the most gorgeous funny little boy you're ever going to meet. An absolute darling! I haven't told the girls about my baby yet, but they are going to be so excited! I told my mum, and my mum told my dad, without telling me she had, but my dad has got such an intuition about these things, that he knew even before I told my mum! He'd said to her the night before "I bet Diff is pregnant". He was over the moon. He likes to be an indulgent Grandpa!
I will treasure every second, and that's very much in my mind at the moment. Some very good family friends are burying their 24 year old daughter next Monday. She died of cancer. 8 month's from diagnosis to death. Her mum said it took 9 months to make her and 8 months to break her. I remember her as a baby. I remember she was such a sweet little kid, much like my eldest niece, but with a bit more self-confidence. I watched her grow up. It was a massive shock when I arrived at my mums (she's back in the UK for the summer) on Thursday, to be told she had died that morning. Life isn't always fair. And death can be arbitrary.
Anyway, the waterworks are starting up again, so I'm going to shut up now!
love
Diff xxxx
And Davey, I do know what you mean. I have two nieces, "my girls" I call them, and the eldest one is 11 now and growing up fast, but still fortunately not one of those kids who seem to want leave their childhood as quickly as possible. She's at a difficult age now, but we have a brilliant relationship, and I love both my girls so much. It hurts me to see her struggling, at that awkward age where she isn't a teenager yet, but not really a little kid either. I remember how much things seemed to hurt at that age! They have a little brother, but he's only three, and still blissfully unaware of all the trials and tribulations life has in store. And he's is the most gorgeous funny little boy you're ever going to meet. An absolute darling! I haven't told the girls about my baby yet, but they are going to be so excited! I told my mum, and my mum told my dad, without telling me she had, but my dad has got such an intuition about these things, that he knew even before I told my mum! He'd said to her the night before "I bet Diff is pregnant". He was over the moon. He likes to be an indulgent Grandpa!
I will treasure every second, and that's very much in my mind at the moment. Some very good family friends are burying their 24 year old daughter next Monday. She died of cancer. 8 month's from diagnosis to death. Her mum said it took 9 months to make her and 8 months to break her. I remember her as a baby. I remember she was such a sweet little kid, much like my eldest niece, but with a bit more self-confidence. I watched her grow up. It was a massive shock when I arrived at my mums (she's back in the UK for the summer) on Thursday, to be told she had died that morning. Life isn't always fair. And death can be arbitrary.
Anyway, the waterworks are starting up again, so I'm going to shut up now!
love
Diff xxxx
Diff that is AWEOME News. Diff puck it man you not only going to have a baby but all the drugs are going to be out of your system.
The sleep will come.
Just eat right exercise and you will have some tough days but just think what you got in that pretty belly.
Nothing more beuatiful than a pregnant woman.
God that is great. CONGRADS
Jeff
The sleep will come.
Just eat right exercise and you will have some tough days but just think what you got in that pretty belly.
Nothing more beuatiful than a pregnant woman.
God that is great. CONGRADS
Jeff
CONGRATS...i'm 15 weeks 4 days. I was so greatful i was not dealing with opiate addiction during pregnancy also. I had been off methadone 4 months when we found out. It was totally unplanned for us to but, not unwanted. Take care and good luck, it's a awsome journey.
Hey Sweetheart:
I'm so glad to hear your news,I feel like it's my sister who gave me the news.CONGRADULATIONS,you deserve a new and happy life and what better way to start a new beginning than by having a beautiful baby to enjoy.
It seems like yesterday you were in a bad realationship and using and wishing for a better life and I remember you telling me how you wished you could get clean and find someone to have a family with or just to have a baby with,that you didn't know if you were that strong.Well my love you are strong and I know you can do it,just like I had told you way back then,ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE IF YOU BELIEVE!!!
I wish you all the best and a healthy baby boy/girl to love and cuddle and have them love you back unconditionaly.
I leave you with this untill the next time we meet,always loved by your friend Teena........XXOOOXXXOX
P.S I sure miss Pauly,wish he was here,have you heard from him?...
I'm so glad to hear your news,I feel like it's my sister who gave me the news.CONGRADULATIONS,you deserve a new and happy life and what better way to start a new beginning than by having a beautiful baby to enjoy.
It seems like yesterday you were in a bad realationship and using and wishing for a better life and I remember you telling me how you wished you could get clean and find someone to have a family with or just to have a baby with,that you didn't know if you were that strong.Well my love you are strong and I know you can do it,just like I had told you way back then,ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE IF YOU BELIEVE!!!
I wish you all the best and a healthy baby boy/girl to love and cuddle and have them love you back unconditionaly.
I leave you with this untill the next time we meet,always loved by your friend Teena........XXOOOXXXOX
P.S I sure miss Pauly,wish he was here,have you heard from him?...
Diff,
I have been posting on this board for over 2 years now and have read all of your threads and you yourself have given me such wise advice....of course i think you are quite articulate...brilliant to the point of writing a great novel..
I am happy that you are happy that you are 'expecting'...BUT
and i am just going to leave it at that
love MARY
I have been posting on this board for over 2 years now and have read all of your threads and you yourself have given me such wise advice....of course i think you are quite articulate...brilliant to the point of writing a great novel..
I am happy that you are happy that you are 'expecting'...BUT
and i am just going to leave it at that
love MARY
Hi Teena, great to hear from you! It's amazing how far I've come, isn't it? I can hardly believe it myself! People who had got clean used to tell me that, despite our fears, it's amazing what life can offer you, if you just give it a chance, and stop doing the self sagotage thing. I never really believed it could happen to me. I was so full of doubt. I was sooooo wrong! Love you girl!
And Mary, sweetheart, I know the "but" you are refering to. Rest assured, things are well in hand. When we went away in may/june, we got so much sorted between us, and so many of my fears were allayed (sp? can't think!). We're all f***ed up in our own ways, but the important thing is how we deal with our f*** ups. We seemed to jump so many hurdles, and cleared up so many problems. Just cleared the way for us to fall in love. Soppy, I know, but it is true. A few months ago, I was writing him off in my own mind as a bad loss, but I have been amazed at how one by one, all the things I thought would never change about him, have resolved themselves, and a genuinely loving and caring man emerged, who can talk to me about what's going on in his head, and share with me, and own up to his mistakes, and love and trust, and be there for me. OK, nobody is perfect, but I don't require perfection, I just require to feel loved and wanted, and safe. And I do. What happened back in March knocked me for 6, literally, but there has been no re-occurance, and he has made big efforts to make it up to me. I know that what happened still haunts him more than it haunts me. Every once in a while, I still get the odd apology about what happened, and a promise that he'll never ever hurt me again. He didn't take it lightly, and I think he's more ashamed about that than anything that has ever gone before in his life. Bit by bit, the emotional walls he put up have come down, and we're close now. And Mary, I love him. I adore every inch of him. I appreciate that given his personality and life experience, it has taken courage for him to do such a turn around, to become open and frank about the way he feels about me, to show me his love. But he has. I am conscious that it is unfair to judge someone for the rest of their lives on the worst thing they ever did. It's not the whole story. I've done some pretty low and s***ty things in my life, and he doesn't judge me on them. So Mary, I forgave him, and we've moved on. So don't worry about me. We'll be OK.
love you
Diff xxx
And Mary, sweetheart, I know the "but" you are refering to. Rest assured, things are well in hand. When we went away in may/june, we got so much sorted between us, and so many of my fears were allayed (sp? can't think!). We're all f***ed up in our own ways, but the important thing is how we deal with our f*** ups. We seemed to jump so many hurdles, and cleared up so many problems. Just cleared the way for us to fall in love. Soppy, I know, but it is true. A few months ago, I was writing him off in my own mind as a bad loss, but I have been amazed at how one by one, all the things I thought would never change about him, have resolved themselves, and a genuinely loving and caring man emerged, who can talk to me about what's going on in his head, and share with me, and own up to his mistakes, and love and trust, and be there for me. OK, nobody is perfect, but I don't require perfection, I just require to feel loved and wanted, and safe. And I do. What happened back in March knocked me for 6, literally, but there has been no re-occurance, and he has made big efforts to make it up to me. I know that what happened still haunts him more than it haunts me. Every once in a while, I still get the odd apology about what happened, and a promise that he'll never ever hurt me again. He didn't take it lightly, and I think he's more ashamed about that than anything that has ever gone before in his life. Bit by bit, the emotional walls he put up have come down, and we're close now. And Mary, I love him. I adore every inch of him. I appreciate that given his personality and life experience, it has taken courage for him to do such a turn around, to become open and frank about the way he feels about me, to show me his love. But he has. I am conscious that it is unfair to judge someone for the rest of their lives on the worst thing they ever did. It's not the whole story. I've done some pretty low and s***ty things in my life, and he doesn't judge me on them. So Mary, I forgave him, and we've moved on. So don't worry about me. We'll be OK.
love you
Diff xxx
Hi Jeff, thank you for you words. I'm not so sure about feeling beautiful. Back of a bus, maybe! But right now my tits look fabulous. Just a shame that they're too sore to even touch, so as far a my man goes it's eye candy only! But I am actually looking forward to my bump growing. It's such an amazing feeling to think that I've got our little one growing inside me. Just hope it ain't an alien!
And zero girl, it seems to be they way it happens. A little while ago, my friend had a little girl after coming off the gear. She said it was like a gift from God, a reward almost, for doing so well with her addiction. I feel a bit the same way. I have a strong feeling of pre-destiny about the whole thing actually. Well, you're a little bit ahead of me, so you can tell me what I'm supposed to expect next! Just getting the morning (noon and night!) sickness now. Discovered I can no longer perform oral sex, much to my man's disappointment, coz it brings on instant gagging! LMAO!!!
love to all
Diff xxxx
And zero girl, it seems to be they way it happens. A little while ago, my friend had a little girl after coming off the gear. She said it was like a gift from God, a reward almost, for doing so well with her addiction. I feel a bit the same way. I have a strong feeling of pre-destiny about the whole thing actually. Well, you're a little bit ahead of me, so you can tell me what I'm supposed to expect next! Just getting the morning (noon and night!) sickness now. Discovered I can no longer perform oral sex, much to my man's disappointment, coz it brings on instant gagging! LMAO!!!
love to all
Diff xxxx
There is a post on the family board about hope......
This is hope right here in this with you Diff and you as well zerogirl.
Children are an absolute gift in every respect, and they are about the most smartest and perfect things on this earth, well that is what I think anyway.
Diff I wish you the very best, and am so excited for you....You too Zerogirl. You both have come a long way and life is shining....
Be good you yourselves,
Love,
Tina
This is hope right here in this with you Diff and you as well zerogirl.
Children are an absolute gift in every respect, and they are about the most smartest and perfect things on this earth, well that is what I think anyway.
Diff I wish you the very best, and am so excited for you....You too Zerogirl. You both have come a long way and life is shining....
Be good you yourselves,
Love,
Tina
haha, i had the oral sex thing to. I liked getting it more but, giving it was just YUCK. He is happy the gaging phase past at about 13 weeks. I felt like i was dope sick from week 7-13. I would get runny nose, sweats, gaging, even water was hard to swallow. I did find it helped a lot to eat small meals often before i felt queezy. If i waited to long to eat i would always vomit. I had to eat as soon as i woke up. If i took a shower b4 i ate in the morning i'ld be sick. Brushing my teeth was terrible!. I feel great now, this is my 3rd i have even felt the baby move!. I stared having crazy wet dreams b4 i found out i was pregnant, still have them "nice bonus". My other kids are 8 and 10. I kinda think this prenancy is a gift of sorts for being clean. For 8 years after my daughters birth i never used birth control or had protected sex. This pregnancy just happend after being clean 1 year off the done 4 months.
that was my post 4got to sign in, another funny pregnancy thing you forget stuff easy.
Diff hun you'll be a cool mum all that's gone before will melt away when you see your baby. New struggle ahead but happy ones.
keep in touch
karen
keep in touch
karen
Hiya Zerogirl, so glad I got your perspective! I feel like I'm going slightly mad. I'm a bit dippy at the best of times, but I can't even retain the simplest information at the moment. I'm driving myself nuts! And although I'm not having wet dreams (I haven't slept more than about a total 5 hours in the past 6 days, due to suddenly stopping my Seroquel and Zispin - worse than coming off gear, coz at least then I could dose up on downers!) I'm feeling horny as hell. Fortunately my bloke seems to be feeling the same - keeps following me round the house with a hard on! But before I knew I was pregnant, just before my period was due, I dreamed three nights in a row that I was doing a pregnancy test, and I kept seeing that pink line! And my dad, bless him, he knew before I'd told anyone. He just knew... these things are strange!
And thanks Karen, nice to hear from you darling!
love
Diff xxx
And thanks Karen, nice to hear from you darling!
love
Diff xxx
Diff My Ex was a natural 34DD
First pregnancy? Woke up on day in heavan. EEE I had to buy Bras with steel support.
Evrey night home from work the talcom powder --oh she sufferred at the end.
First 7+ months greatest sex I ever had in my life.
A pregnant woman has a special glow and beuaty--IMO
WOW
How you feeling today? Take care
Jeff
First pregnancy? Woke up on day in heavan. EEE I had to buy Bras with steel support.
Evrey night home from work the talcom powder --oh she sufferred at the end.
First 7+ months greatest sex I ever had in my life.
A pregnant woman has a special glow and beuaty--IMO
WOW
How you feeling today? Take care
Jeff
Diff aint that awesome HORNY AS RABBITS HE HE HE
