Well tommorow is my first day of no pills, I am not sure how I will do but, but I will be better I am sure. I am not going to use anymore.. I will not look for them, and if I do find them I am not going to take them, I want to feel better, I want to have a better life, I am tired of hiding behind a pill. I have to learn to deal with life in a different way.. I am not trying to fool myself I know it will not be easy, but what in life that is worth anything is easy.. I am going to quit lying to myself.. I know that I am a addict and that I can not just take one, I know that I need help and that I need support to do this.. but for the the last few weeks I kept wrestling with my self.. now I am thru.. I need to do this for my family but mostly for myself... I take them to hide from life not to kill pain and this is not the way to be.. I am not blaming anyone for my addiction it is my addiction and I did it to myself and the only way to beat it is to do it for myself.. All of you have helped and been very supportive, and I am sure I will continue to need your help and support. I know that I have not been on them very long and I know that there are others that have been on them longer and have taken alot more a day than me.. but I have realized that if I do not stop I will be that way eventually.. I also realize that just because I only take a few a day that it is still an addiction and I must stop..No more tapering, it just is prolonging what I know I must do, So I quit.... and hopefully life will begin to look like life again..
Trying, You are doing the right thing, just remember it doesnt happen overnight, I will be keeping you in my thoughts tomorrow, and hoping you will feel ok. Remember, You will not want to but, get some excersise, even if its just a walk around the block. Out of any of the things I was told to do, from hot baths, vitamins, pills to sleep, taking a walk was the best thing for me, mentally and physically. Keep posting and coming here. I am a novice at all this but the excersise really helped.
Best Regards,
Tom
Best Regards,
Tom
Trying
I have been taking a lot of vicodin for many years. Back problems. Dr wanted to operate but I was having nothing to do with that. I just thought I would take the pills until my back got better. Yah right. Ifinally stopped yesterday. Its been a rough 2 days. Tomorrow is work and I can't even imagine. I actually felt great for a couple of minutes today. I thought there is life without vicodin. It didn't last long. We need to do this or !!!!! Keep in touch. Let me know how you are doing. I will do the same.
Getting aour life back is a good thing.
Frank
I have been taking a lot of vicodin for many years. Back problems. Dr wanted to operate but I was having nothing to do with that. I just thought I would take the pills until my back got better. Yah right. Ifinally stopped yesterday. Its been a rough 2 days. Tomorrow is work and I can't even imagine. I actually felt great for a couple of minutes today. I thought there is life without vicodin. It didn't last long. We need to do this or !!!!! Keep in touch. Let me know how you are doing. I will do the same.
Getting aour life back is a good thing.
Frank
thanks Guys.. Good luck Frank yes lets stay in touch I hope I make it and I am sure you will also..
I loved your post, trying. I really really like the fact that you are humble enough to identify with addicts with lower bottoms. Its so easy to walk into a meeting (or a chat room), and compare--I'm not as sick as that one, or I would never get that bad etc. Knowing that it could get that bad is the first step to not letting it get there. You sound really good, I am rooting for you.
T4Me;
As you say, no it won't be easy. Physically or emotionally. But once you put those pain pills in the rear view mirror and keep on the straight and narrow you will feel a tremendous sense of freedom.
I admire your desire to get off these pills. Good luck, and stay strong!
Jim
As you say, no it won't be easy. Physically or emotionally. But once you put those pain pills in the rear view mirror and keep on the straight and narrow you will feel a tremendous sense of freedom.
I admire your desire to get off these pills. Good luck, and stay strong!
Jim
